I enjoyed seeing my family (Well, partly) I enjoyed going out with my friends. I enjoyed hanging but I'm glad it's over.
This weekend, all of my family commented on my weight. Everyone said "Yea, you have gained some weight." My grandmother said "I thought you said you were losing weight?!" WOW!!
I knew I gained weight. The scale, my clothes and the mirror haven't lied. It's one thing for you to know in your mind you've gained weight and feel fat but it's another for everyone in your family to notice and feel compelled to speak on it.
20lbs IS a lot weight. No, I haven't been working on it hard as I should but I am starting to. I will be. I can not go into the new year feeling like this. So, no I won't wait until the new year to start weight loss, I'm starting now. I will be working out atleast 5 times a week. There are NO excuses! If I can make time for everything else, I can make time to go to the gym. I just have to quit being lazy and do it! The hardest part about going to the gym is not the work out...it's getting there! *sigh*
Only thing to it, is to do it!!
I know I've come here saying I was starting over plenty of times and still fell back into my routine but it's like I can't hide behind it anymore. Plus I am not going to buy size 16 clothes anymore so I have to shrink. LOL.
I will be updating here daily, if not just for accountability to say if I've worked out or not.
Eating will be a challenge, but I know what it takes, I know what to do, now it's just time to FREAKIN DO IT!!
Hope you all had a happy Thanksgiving.
Here's to the last month of the year, let's make it a GREAT one!!
So I've finally come completely clean here. Since I've come back I've been in denial of how much weight I've gained back but if I'm going to lose it I have to be honest. So yes that weight over there is my true weight. BUT I'm happy to say that I've lost 5lbs in the last 2 weeks. I'll take that!! 11 more pounds until my first goal is reached...Making my way back into ONEderland. That's my first mini-goal, then I can work on my big goal.
Today it was so hard to wake up for bootcamp. I woke up late as hell and had the best opportunity to say eff it and just go back to bed but I drug my butt out of bed and went. I only missed one session so I didn't miss much. It is still getting progressively harder each week. This is our last week. I can not believe I've made it this far. Our class has gotten SO MUCH smaller then when we first started. I'm proud I'm one of the few that has made it to week 4. Today we did our normal drills just longer amounts of time but the true test was we had to run 1.5 miles in 15 minutes. It was tough at first but got easier as I found my pace and started to motivate myself metally. I can do anything I put my mind to, really I believe that.
I am extremely tired tonight. One of my sorority sisters stayed the night with me because she didn't want to be alone (her uncle died) and she ended up keeping me up all night and then I had to be up at 6am then as soon as bootcamp was over I had to come home and get ready for work then drive an hour and 15 minutes to work. Then I had to fight traffic for 1.5 hours to get home. I'm BEAT!! I'm about to head to bed so I can get up and make it to the gym by 8a.m. I think tomorrow I'm just going to do cardio.
Eating is going ok for me. I have been making healthier choices and being stronger in resisting urges for not so healthy stuff. I've had nothing but water to drink and actually made it to my 80 oz of water today. I also had more veggies than normal. I know this is TMI but Fiberone bars has REALLY helped regulate me. It's amazing, lol! I need to just eat more veggies and more snacks through out the day and I'll be ok.
So I'm gonna go get some sleep.
"Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan, in which we must fervently believe, and upon which we must vigorously act. There is no other route to success." Stephen A. Brennan
So I' still going strong in bootcamp. Today was day 2 of week 3. I can't believe I've almost made it a whole month through! In my mind I had given up before I even started and now I kind of enjoy being up so early. And that's a shocker for someone like me who would sleep til 12p.m if I could everyday.
It has been getting increasingly hard as the weeks progress. This week we have been working as one big group instead of 4 small groups. Also ALOT of people who were there on day 1 are no longer coming...It is tough but I can't quit like that. So we still do 4 sections of plyometrics (SP?) legs, arms, abs and cardio. And you know how in my last post I said I wanted more cardio, well as soon as I came back from the weekend that's exactly what we got, MORE CARDIO! We are now running a mile and we have 10 minutes or less to do it. The first laps are hardest but then I find my pace and it gets easier. I think it wouldn't be so bad if my legs weren't already wobly from the legs workout we do before we run.
Have I progressed? Uh, I'd like to think so. I got on the scale today, after my work out so IDK how accurate the weight was but I was not pleased. I am back to my all time highest weight. How the hell did I get there?! Oh wait, I know...Eating whatever the hell I want when I want. Drinking alcohol almost every weekend during the summer and into the school year. Not excercising at all. Yup, that's exactly how I got my weight back up this high. I won't dwell on it, I did it to myself and now it's up to me to lose it again. I'm soooo tired of this yo-yo weight issue. Gain-lose-gain-lose...It gets OLD! So this time I'm in it for the long haul. I won't have any summer stays where I'm practically living out of my car so that will help. My life is crazy busy but I'm learning and trying my best to still work on my fitness and nutrition.
Today has been VERY productive for me.
Today I accomplsihed: bootcamp from 6:30-7:30 then I left there and came straight home and got to work. I swept and mopped my kitchen and living room floors. I moved the couches and table and swept under those too. I cloroxed the counters, did the dishes and cleaned out the fridge. I also dusted and windexed the furniture in the living room. I started and am almost completely done with my laundry. I didn't stop there I then attacked my room, including my closest. I changed my bed set and straightened my bathroom. I also cleaned off the office desk and through away a lot of things in there we don't need. THEN I went grocery shopping where I bought all healthy stuff. ALL BEFORE NOON!!!!!
I am going back to what I know...I read my food journals from when I was on Weight Watchers and following it exactly. I know that eating those foods and following those guidelines along with exercise helped me lose weight. I'm so embarassed I let myself gain all this weight back. I was WELL into onederland then I just spiraled out of control. It just proves that weight loss is on going. I also realize that journaling here and writing what I eat is VERY important. So I will be doing more of that.
Today is the first day of getting back on track and I think I started out great! Now I'm about to take a quick nap because I've exhausted myself then I'm going to get started on homework. I have to get on track with my school work so I can graduate in May. It's going to be tough because I have to take 21 hours (10 online). I HAVE to do this, I WILL do this!!!
So today has restored my faith and motivation. I will get this weight back down!!!
Hello all! I intended to come back here and update as soon as the first day of bootcamp was complete, but as always I got so caught up in life I had no time. Seriouslly, my days are packed from start to finish and if they aren't I'm finding something else to get into or hanging out with my sorority sisters.
But back to my update...
I did make it to bootcamp. I went Monday, Wednesday & Friday last week. Granted Friday it took all the strength in me to get there but I made it! And the trainer kicked my ass, to put it politely. I was SO sore last week it was ridiculous. I had to slide out of the car because my legs were so sore. This week more of my upper body is sore. So that lets me know it's working. I just wish there were more cardio involved. We go from 6:30-7:30a.m. How I get up that early is beyond me but I do. The hour is split up into 4 15 minute sessions. It's all calistenics. We do legs, upper body, abs, and cardio (running). It was supposed to be outside but it's to cold and dark outside so we moved inside the gym. For legs we do stuff like squats, squat jumps, lunges, step ups, up downs,etc...For upper body we do push ups, up downs, bear crawls, moutain climbers, etc...That's the most challenging station for me. For abs we do planks, crunches(I actually feel the burn), ab holds, etc...And for cardio we do sprints and jogs on the track or indian runs. Its very fast paced and my heart is pumping the whole time. I really feel like I get a good work out although during I feel like death. So far I've only been working out on the days I have bootcamp, just to start me off because I've been out of excercise routine for a while but next week I will start working out on the days I don't have bootcamp too. I think I'm just going to do 45 minutes of cardio those days tho.
I missed bootcamp this morning though :( Yea, I was pretty upset with myself but I couldn't help it, I overslept because I stayed up late last night celebrating. It was pretty historic so I won't be too hard on myself. But I will be making it up by going to the gym tonight after I finish my homework.
Eating wise: I have my good days and then I have my bad days. I have not stuck to meal planning. I have not even had time to grocery shop. Although I have picked the healthier options when eating out or drinking more water. I don't eat sweets and no sodas. Small steps is what I keep telling myself because the perfectionist in me wants me to just quit since I can't get my eating under control. But I will. I have before and I can again. I just have to finish organizing my life. Lately I've been working on my studies because I have to get good grades so I can graduate in May. *sigh*
I wish my life would slow down a bit but I know it will dramatically once I graduate. So I'll deal with it.
I don't want to talk political talk on here but Obama's acceptance speech moved me to tears. I had chills watching him embrace his wife. It was an aw moment I will never forget. November 4, 2008 will go down in history books.
Hey girls!! Hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend. I wish I could say the same but alas, I'm sick. I hate being sick, I'm the biggest baby when I'm sick and today is no different. Which is what brings me to my title.
I feel like I'm being sabotaged. Why would I get sick TWO DAYS BEFORE Bootcamp starts?! Whyyyy me?!?! Ugh! The part about being sick is that my ashthma flairs up. I mean last night I had to take my inhaler because some friends were over and I laughed too hard. WTF?! I felt pretty lame, lol. Or when I walked up ONE flight of stairs to my apartment I was weezing. IDK what to do, I AM NOT gonna miss out on Bootcamp.
Also when I'm sick I eat whatever...I'm all about comfort food. Right now I'm sitting here eating a pint of Americone Dream Ben & Jerry's ice cream. That is my biggest weakness right now. My sorority sister told me I just HAD to try this ice cream. Well I eat atleast 1.5 pints a week :( YIKES! But all that stops Monday when I go to Bootcamp.
To be successful at this G.M.A.I.G plan I will meal plan every Sunday, so tomorrow I will figure out what and when I'm eating for this week since I can have no meat. Most likely, I will be eating a lot of wheat pasta, veggie burgers and veggies.
I talked to a friend that works at the gym where bootcamp is and he's in REALLY good shape and said they asked him to do the Bootcamp and he said no because he said it's SO HARD! OMG, talk about scared! I'm super scared, I feel like I'm gonna die. And it's all outside so that's even more rigorous. Pray for me yall.
Ok, I'm gonna finish studying and indulging in the last pint of ice cream I'm going to eat for a while. Hope you all have a great weekend!
I mean seriouslly I wish sizes at every store would be universal! It gives me false hope or it sends my spirits in the dumps. I either LOVE the sizing or HATE it...Never be content. I know I have to wear 14's usually everywhere. THEN I get to certain places and 12's work. Like Express, I can fit into some of their 12's but not all, WTH is that about?! I know I have to do 14's at Banana Repubic but I can do 12's in Ralph Lauren but at Gap I have to get a 16, WTF?! Its not mentally health for me to be so many sizes. Blah.
And there's my rant to vanity sizing. Lol.
My eating has been so-so. I have realized that the busier I am the less I pay attention what goes into my mouth. I guess that's the case with most people though. Like today, before I knew I was at work and had stuffed a cheese and sausage kolache in my mouth. But I hadn't ate before I left and I was STARVING so I didn't care what the nutrional content was, I just wanted to eat. Whereas yesterday when I had time I ate my fiberone bar, orange juice and banana for breakfast..Ahhh, it's all about planning!
Another obstacle I see myself running into is lunch time. I eat breakfast late because I don't have class til 11 so I don't eat breakfast til I'm running out the door for class...hey I rather get that extra 30 minutes of sleep! Then I have a break from 12:30-2. Which I'm not hungry again yet but I know I won't have a chance to eat again til 5. That's a long time. Then on campus food is expensive and not nutrious at all. PLUS I vowed to stop eating out so I'm SOL. Packing a lunch is a good idea BUT where can I store it at while in class and I have no room I mean I carry enough crap to class as is. I'm really not complaining, just trying to figure it all. I want/need/HAVE to get my weight under control because right now I'm trippin. I mean I'm in denial, I can't even put my new weight on the ticker over there *sigh*
So aside from doing bootcamp M-W-F starting on the 27th I think I'm going to add a food challenge to that too. I want to max the results of this thing...
So here's what I'm thinking:
Week 1: No meat...That's going to be EXTREMELY hard for me. I LOVE meat...But it will force me to eat more veggies. My sorority sister introudced me to Boca veggie burgers and so I'll eat that a couple of days of that week and peanut butter and eggs to get protein.
Week 2: No drinks other than water...Not to hard...right?
Week 3: No sweets and no food after 8p...This is going to be challenging!
Week 4: Incorporate all 3 previous weeks into this week.
How does that sound? Hopefulling in those 4 weeks I can lose atleast 10lbs.
Plan to stick to the plan: Blogging HONESTLY about my food and water in take. Making it to bootcamp EVERY M-W-F. Scheduling events AROUND my fitness, NOT the other way around. Prioritize & plan. Plan day by the hour to keep self on schedule. Pre plan meals. Tell close friends about this so they will not temp me to stir away from my plan or goals.
I will take pre boot camp pictures and after boot camp pictures...
This will take a lot of prayer and focus. But I know I can do it..It's simply mind over matter in this situation.
And the best part about this....
What I'm going to reward myself with.
So...If I follow the meal challenge AND the bootcamp without missing ANY days then I will..
REWARD myself with: A pair of True Religon or Rock & Republic jeans!!
This is a massive plan but for me to jump start my weightloss I have to do this! I have to quit being all just talk. If I keep talking about how fat I feel, I'm gonna stay that way, I have to do something about it to change it!
Ok this post is super long, if you've read all of this CONGRATS! Lol.
Well, I've been eating pretty well. Probably not eating as much as I should but often enough so I'm not really worried.
I haven't ate out since my vow Saturday...If I make it til this Saturday I will have lived up to my week of no eating out! Quite an accomplishment for someone who at one point was eating out EVERY day! Yea, I was trippin.
Today I've had: B- fiber 1 bar, banana & V8 S-applesuace & 100 cal snack L-TBA S-TBA D-TBA
So I've vowed to get.my.ass.in.gear and there's no turning back now.
Yesterday our school sent out a fitness newsletter and I think it was like a wake up call for me...We are having a 5k next Saturday...Which is 8 days away, I want to do it, badly BUT I know I'm not ready. I haven't ran in weeks and to freshly run a 5k, I might hurt myself...I've never ran 3 miles consecutively, a week to get ready isn't enough time, is it??? I need suggestions on that one. AND it's only $5 to enter.
ALSO: starting the 27th our gym is having a bootcamp. It's a 4 week bootcamp that meets every Monday Wednesday and Friday at *gasp* 6:30a.m. It's $50 but it's with professional trainers and it's described as a "rigourous work out to get you back feeling and looking better." Exactly what I need! Not bad for $50 bucks huh?! And if I put my money into I know I'll stick to it. I usually work and stay in Houston Fridays-Mondays but I need to start making some sacrifices if I'm gonna get healthy. I've come to far to give up. I think I'm going to do it! Now how the HELL am I gonna get up that early is beyond me! *le sigh* I'll keep you guys posted.
So a lot of opportunities to G.M.A.I.G have arose. I have NO more excuses.
I have a male friend/interestee that I usually hang out with when I'm Houston. He's not healthy AT ALL. We are always going out to eat, eating desserts and what not. I have to get him to either A. eat healthier or B. cook when I'm there. Both sound unappeasing. Blah.
Random tidbit: I really want to lose weight so I can get a pair or True Religion jeans, am I vain?! :(
Another random tidbit: I have on the CUTEST yellow shorts today...$2.50 from Old Navy. They had a great sale a couple of weeks ago. Love it!
Ok, I'm outta here. leave your suggestions please!
Yea, Yea, Yea...I know I said I was back for good almost 2 months ago but life always seems to get in the way of your plans right?! I've fallen victim to one of my most motivational quotes "Failing to plan, is planning to fail."
For the last 2 months I've said "wow, I'm really feeling like I'm gaining weight" well I never stepped on a scale so I could hide from the true reality. THEN my pants started to fit tight...then tightER. Now to the point I can't breathe. Well, I gave all of my "fat clothes" away because I read that if you get rid of them you can't just slip them back on and ignore your weight gain. Well, now I'm stuck with size 12's that are TIGHT as hell!
Last week I finally decided enough was enough. Enough with the excuses, enough with letting other things get in the way of exercise and enough with falling victim to fastfood because of laziness and time commitments. So I went to the gym. I stepped on the scale and almost left in tears...I have gained 10lbs since mylowest weight inMarch. It is so disheartening. BUT I will not let that discourage me.
So last week I started "Operation G.M.A.I.G" which includes but not limited to:
Exercising 3 times a week. Even though I have class 2 days a week and I still work an hour ONE WAY from home. I just have to plan my time better and actually stick to it.
No sodas!!
60oz of water a day
5 fruits and veggies a day
very limited amounts of sugar/sweets
Meal planning!!
Wiggle room
I know that is typical weight loss ambitions but it has worked for me in the past and it will again. We all have road blocks, we all have times we fall victim to time restraints and busy work weeks, hell even laziness. I'm not going to deny that half of my problem is I've been lazy. But if you took 15 hours of college classes, commute an hour ONE way to work twice a week and work for a sorority (it's all work and little play right now) you'd be a little tired and want to be lazy. I'm a very driven person so I know i CAN do it, I just got to buckle down.
So October 6th started "Operation G.M.A.I.G" G.M.A.I.G= Get.My.Ass.In.Gear
And to get my ass in gear I've FINALLY bought new running shoes that actually fit and I'm able to run in without problems! And they were on clearance for $30 bucks! So much for needing high priced running shoes. I've also dug up my work out clothes and updated my iPOD. I've bought all healthy foods again and will not be eating out. I'm debating going back to weight watchers at the moment. IDK, we'll see. I'm feel like I'm making great strides.
And WOW have things changed around here!!! I like, I like! Makes me want to come around more often for sure! Lol.
Summer is officially over and school has officially started.
Wow, I've said officially like 5 times in the last 3 sentences,lol.
Anywho. I started my LAST year as an undergrad this week. College really has flown by. I can't believe I will not have any more "first days" of school anymore. Crazy as it may be it's cool. I'm so ready to graduate and move on with the next chapter of my life :) And I want to go into the next chapter of my life healthy and fit!
So, yes I'm back at it! I know this summer was a total let down in the weight loss department. I didn't lose ANY weight this summer, I actually gained. I'm so scared to get back on the scale but I have to. I have to stay true to myself and the only way to start doing that is see how much I weigh and knocking that number down.
I'm leaning on going back to Weight Watchers meetings because that was proven way that worked for me before. I strayed away and ended up gaining. I will probably be going back next Tuesday. Until then I will be working out in the gym. I'm so glad to be back at my gym!
Speaking of gyms, I'm really over Bally's. I went to cancel my membership because the summer was over and the girl I signed up with said that cancelling would be no problem and come to find out it is. I'm so sick of them calling me over it, ugh! They want me to apy a $50 cancellation fee and I was not told that up front, ugh! When I move to Houston next year I will NOT be going to Bally's. Has anyone else had problems with Bally's?
Eating: I went grocery shopping yesterday and bought all my fruits and veggies plus all my other healthy stuff. So I'm on track there. Lets just pray I stay away from fast food and baked goods. I've been craving baked goods so bad lately, it's awful. Cinnabon's and churro's have been my weakness :( I've got to work on my will power.
Recap:
My 21st birthday was AWESOME!! I celebrated my birthday for a whole week, LMAO! Vegas was a BLAST! It was so hot there, it was no less than 108 the whole time we were there. I definitely ate bad and drank too much alcohol but hey, you only turn 21 once! Everywhere we went were giving me free drinks because it was my birthday,lol. I'll share pix from Vegas soon, promise. Then I came back to Texas and had a birthday party at a nightclub with one of my sorority sisters and that was a blast too! So many people showed me love, it was great.
My internship was also one of the best experiences I've had. And I did so well they offered me a position upon graudation with the company!!!! The salary is AWESOME! My mom said I'm making what took her 10-15 years to make out of school. So I must be doing something right! :)
Ok, this is long enough.
But I want yall to know I'm SOOO happy to be back!!!
Hello ladies! I know yall are shocked to see me on your updated list. I am still alive...I've been so busy with my internship, and life in general I've strayed away from EP. I really miss you ladies and hope everyone is doing well in their weightloss journey.
How have I been? I have been GREAT!! Yes, this summer has been a challenge with ny living situation but I've made the best out of the bad sitution. It's worked out that I've only had to stay with my uncle 3 days a week at the max. Thank God for friends and sorors! My job has also helped a lot. We have been traveling a lot this summer so I've been staying in hotels and stuff. So it's all good.
I have also been spending a lot of time at church. I go almost every Wednesday and Sunday. It has really helped me. I have stopped complaining. Yes, I was a HUGE complainer. But no more. I am no longer negative. If something bad happens, I just calm down and let God work it out. And so far he has. I don't want to give a long testimonial but I looked at my financial aid status a few weeks ago and all the school offered me was loans and I was stressed because I didn't want to take out 10k in student loans....I didn't get upset, cry or stress I just said if that's how I have to get through senior year, I will...I checked the site again this week and I had a GRANT for 5k offered to me!!!! Free money I don't have to pay back, can we say HALLELUJAH?! If that isn't God, I don't know what is. He continues to minister to my spirit daily and I'm just so blessed.
9 more days until I turn the big 2-1!!!!! I'm pumped :) I will be spending my 21st birthday in Las Vegas with my mom, roomate and uncle. We're staying at the MGM Grand on the strip. I am sooo excited, I'm going to have the best 21st ever! I will take lots of pix for yall :)
My internship has proven to be one of the best experiences I've ever had. I have the best boss, the best co workers and work environment. I've been able to grow and develop and I found out that at the end of my internship I will be getting an offer to come aboard after graduation next summer! See how God continues to bless me? The salary is awesome too, so at the beginning of next year I will start looking for either a gated apartment or a condo. I want the condo so we shall see :)
I have also loved being here in the city! I am such a city girl at heart. I have met a TON of people and went to a TON of new places. I've tried so many new resturaunts and clubs and little hang out spots. I love it! I've also been dating. So no, the ex and I are NOT together. He's still pursuing but I'm just playing it cool. Maybe in the future but not now. Some of the guys I've dated have been great and I've had a blast but didn't work out. I was bummed but I'm moving on. I'm always meeting guys too, it's CRAZY! Talk about self esteem boost, lol. This guy was ON A DATE WITH ANOTHER GIRL last night at Barnes and Noble but gave the Starbucks guy his number on sticky note to give to me, lol!! Hilarious.
Oh, thanks for all the prayers for my grandmother. She was released from the hospital fairly quickly and is doing well! She's learning to live with her diabetes and control and for that I am so grateful! She just celebrated her 73rd birthday this month so that's a blessing.
Ok, I know this is long and I haven't even talked about WEIGHTLOSS... *sigh*
Living here in the city, not having a stable place to live has all added up to me eating TERRIBLY! I mean I've had McDonalds and way too many cookies to count. I know it's wrong because I feel guilty when I eat it. I've also been guilty of emotional eating. When I get frustrated I eat and that's no bueno. I have accepted that I have gained weight this summer...To scared to see how much but I know I have. My clothes are fitting tighter and I can just feel it. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks and again I feel horrible. But my life has been so hectic I don't even know if I'm coming or going most of the time. So when I come back from Vegas and return to my apartment, back to making my own healthy meals and working out 4-5 times a week. I think I will go back to WW meetings to help. I'm not ok with it but I'm dealing with it because I know how crazy my situation is out here. So just keep me in your thoughts.
OK, now that I've caught you up on the last month and half of my life I'm going to start my research paper that's due tomorrow.
I MISS YOU GIRLS! I'm going to try to write more often, promise!
And to get my ass in gear I've FINALLY bought new running shoes that actually fit and I'm able to run in without problems! And they were on clearance for $30 bucks! So much for needing high priced running shoes. I've also dug up my work out clothes and updated my iPOD. I've bought all healthy foods again and will not be eating out. I'm debating going back to weight watchers at the moment. IDK, we'll see. I'm feel like I'm making great strides.