03/17/2010 07:20
Reality
It's time to get my body back!
It's time to get my Miami body back!
It's time to fit in my size 12's & 10's!
It's time to STOP this damage I am doing to myself!
It's time to face reality...
And reality is...In the last year I've gained 30lbs!
That's tough to read...and type. Even harder to internalize.
How was I so close to my goal, only to slip so hard I find myself 30lbs heavier than I was this time last year?
This time last year I was a smoth 190-195 and felt GREAT! My body was lean, I was exercising regularly and eating healthy. I was seeing a nutritionist and just taking care of myself.
What happened?
Life happened.
I work 55-60 hours a week. I eat on the go, I don't plan my meals. I'm to mentally and physically exhausted when I get home that I stopped working out. I'm lucky if I go to the gym once a week now-a-days.
This is my reality, but...
IT WILL NOT BE MY FUTURE!
I can not let myself go, this isn't even me! I was at such a great place a year ago. I guess I didn't anticipate all the streses and worries the "real world" would bring.
My weight was something I thought I had under control and was working at losing. I lost it...all.
But at this point all I can do is go down...in size!
This week I've vowed to work out 3 times this week. I'm going to New Orleans for BF's bday so IDK how well Im going to do w/eating but I will do as well as I can!
I WILL GET MY BODY BACK IN SHAPE!
I have a date with the gym tomorrow morning at 7:30AM.
P.S-I would love to hear from any of my old friends that have jumped back on the wagon! Support and accountability are key to my weightless and it worked WELL when I was on EP consistently.