09/30/2009 07:37
Same song, different tune.
I did it...again.
Self sabotage.
I gained atleast 10 of the 25lbs I lost back...
I have noone or nothing to blame, but myself.
Eating whatever I crave, drinking as much as I want and rarely visiting the gym.
That's a recipe for disaster.
Then add on a UBER stressful job that I'm at more than 10hrs a day.
By the time I leave there I am mentally and physically exhausted & it's atleast 8pm by the time I get home.
So my question now is: How do I find balance? Balance for my life, my career & my healthy & happiness.
But we can't have it all can we?
I know I sound very defeated right now but I just hate this up & down thing I go through every 6 months, it SUCKS!
I don't look right in anything anymore, I hate the way I feel after I eat, my clothes are tight as hell if they even fit. I work out maybe 2 x's a week if I'm lucky. But eating sabotages those efforts. Blah!
Why can't I just do IT, lose IT and keep IT off?! I guess that's the million dollar question, huh?
Well, I went to bootcamp Saturday, I'm still sore. My mentor/boss introduced me to it, her brother's the trainer. Well it was awesome & I want to make a routine of it. If only I could do that ALL week!
I will figure this thing out...I always do, right?