So I've finally come completely clean here. Since I've come back I've been in denial of how much weight I've gained back but if I'm going to lose it I have to be honest. So yes that weight over there is my true weight. BUT I'm happy to say that I've lost 5lbs in the last 2 weeks. I'll take that!! 11 more pounds until my first goal is reached...Making my way back into ONEderland. That's my first mini-goal, then I can work on my big goal.

Today it was so hard to wake up for bootcamp. I woke up late as hell and had the best opportunity to say eff it and just go back to bed but I drug my butt out of bed and went. I only missed one session so I didn't miss much. It is still getting progressively harder each week. This is our last week. I can not believe I've made it this far. Our class has gotten SO MUCH smaller then when we first started. I'm proud I'm one of the few that has made it to week 4. Today we did our normal drills just longer amounts of time but the true test was we had to run 1.5 miles in 15 minutes. It was tough at first but got easier as I found my pace and started to motivate myself metally. I can do anything I put my mind to, really I believe that.

I am extremely tired tonight. One of my sorority sisters stayed the night with me because she didn't want to be alone (her uncle died) and she ended up keeping me up all night and then I had to be up at 6am then as soon as bootcamp was over I had to come home and get ready for work then drive an hour and 15 minutes to work. Then I had to fight traffic for 1.5 hours to get home. I'm BEAT!! I'm about to head to bed so I can get up and make it to the gym by 8a.m. I think tomorrow I'm just going to do cardio.

Eating is going ok for me. I have been making healthier choices and being stronger in resisting urges for not so healthy stuff. I've had nothing but water to drink and actually made it to my 80 oz of water today. I also had more veggies than normal. I know this is TMI but Fiberone bars has REALLY helped regulate me. It's amazing, lol! I need to just eat more veggies and more snacks through out the day and I'll be ok.

So I'm gonna go get some sleep.

"Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan, in which we must fervently believe, and upon which we must vigorously act. There is no other route to success." Stephen A. Brennan

Honesty sets you free!!  Good for you!

You should be proud that you made the choice to go to boot camp even though you were tired.

Veggies.... well, I plan my meals for the week before I go grocery shopping.  So I get any veggies that I might need for meals or sides.  A lot of times, sides are the frozen veggies.  The steaming ones.  Then for snacks, I like carrots, bell peppers, cucumbers, etc.  They don't have to be elaborate.

I'm so proud of you for being honest!  WITH YOURSELF!

I know sometimes the truth that lies on the scale can hurt (ask me how I know) but until we face it we won't do anything about it!  Keep up the awesome work--we can do this!

Don't let that number dictate your happiness.  You have been to onederland before and you are headed there again.  Re-read that quote that is at the bottom of your post.....that is vital information.  Blessings, (PS) I have faith in you.  Chargail

You have the will power and dedication to make it all the way to the top. Good job for sticking in there with the boot camp.  Have a good week!

Heidi