She Lives!
Hello ladies! I know yall are shocked to see me on your updated list. I am still alive...I've been so busy with my internship, and life in general I've strayed away from EP. I really miss you ladies and hope everyone is doing well in their weightloss journey.
How have I been? I have been GREAT!! Yes, this summer has been a challenge with ny living situation but I've made the best out of the bad sitution. It's worked out that I've only had to stay with my uncle 3 days a week at the max. Thank God for friends and sorors! My job has also helped a lot. We have been traveling a lot this summer so I've been staying in hotels and stuff. So it's all good.
I have also been spending a lot of time at church. I go almost every Wednesday and Sunday. It has really helped me. I have stopped complaining. Yes, I was a HUGE complainer. But no more. I am no longer negative. If something bad happens, I just calm down and let God work it out. And so far he has. I don't want to give a long testimonial but I looked at my financial aid status a few weeks ago and all the school offered me was loans and I was stressed because I didn't want to take out 10k in student loans....I didn't get upset, cry or stress I just said if that's how I have to get through senior year, I will...I checked the site again this week and I had a GRANT for 5k offered to me!!!! Free money I don't have to pay back, can we say HALLELUJAH?! If that isn't God, I don't know what is. He continues to minister to my spirit daily and I'm just so blessed.
9 more days until I turn the big 2-1!!!!! I'm pumped :) I will be spending my 21st birthday in Las Vegas with my mom, roomate and uncle. We're staying at the MGM Grand on the strip. I am sooo excited, I'm going to have the best 21st ever! I will take lots of pix for yall :)
My internship has proven to be one of the best experiences I've ever had. I have the best boss, the best co workers and work environment. I've been able to grow and develop and I found out that at the end of my internship I will be getting an offer to come aboard after graduation next summer! See how God continues to bless me? The salary is awesome too, so at the beginning of next year I will start looking for either a gated apartment or a condo. I want the condo so we shall see :)
I have also loved being here in the city! I am such a city girl at heart. I have met a TON of people and went to a TON of new places. I've tried so many new resturaunts and clubs and little hang out spots. I love it! I've also been dating. So no, the ex and I are NOT together. He's still pursuing but I'm just playing it cool. Maybe in the future but not now. Some of the guys I've dated have been great and I've had a blast but didn't work out. I was bummed but I'm moving on. I'm always meeting guys too, it's CRAZY! Talk about self esteem boost, lol. This guy was ON A DATE WITH ANOTHER GIRL last night at Barnes and Noble but gave the Starbucks guy his number on sticky note to give to me, lol!! Hilarious.
Oh, thanks for all the prayers for my grandmother. She was released from the hospital fairly quickly and is doing well! She's learning to live with her diabetes and control and for that I am so grateful! She just celebrated her 73rd birthday this month so that's a blessing.
Ok, I know this is long and I haven't even talked about WEIGHTLOSS... *sigh*
Living here in the city, not having a stable place to live has all added up to me eating TERRIBLY! I mean I've had McDonalds and way too many cookies to count. I know it's wrong because I feel guilty when I eat it. I've also been guilty of emotional eating. When I get frustrated I eat and that's no bueno. I have accepted that I have gained weight this summer...To scared to see how much but I know I have. My clothes are fitting tighter and I can just feel it. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks and again I feel horrible. But my life has been so hectic I don't even know if I'm coming or going most of the time. So when I come back from Vegas and return to my apartment, back to making my own healthy meals and working out 4-5 times a week. I think I will go back to WW meetings to help. I'm not ok with it but I'm dealing with it because I know how crazy my situation is out here. So just keep me in your thoughts.
OK, now that I've caught you up on the last month and half of my life I'm going to start my research paper that's due tomorrow.
I MISS YOU GIRLS! I'm going to try to write more often, promise!