A Lil Honesty Here.

Since I crossed [into my sorority] I haven't been on track eating or exercising. Yes, I been to the gyms a few times when I had time. But as far as eating...I've been eating what I want, for the most part. I don't binge or eat uncontrollably. It's just when I'm hungry I eat what I have a taste for, when I do eat. Most of the time I'm getting in 1 or 2 meals in a day...No snacks. I'm drinking water and still haven't drank soda so that's a plus right?! I haven't been to WW's so I know I'm back in the 200's, I can feel it. I'm starting to feel gross again. But I think that is more of a body image issue I have..I've always had it. It stems from low self esteem and being overly critical about myself. I should have abs of steel because I always walk with my stomach sucked in. I'm just tired...I'm tired of worrying about my weight. I'm tired of worrying about every little thing I put in my mouth. *sigh* This is is no pity party, just my honest feelings right now. I've lost 23lbs before, I know I can do it, I know what it takes to do but damnit I need consistency. my sorority (which I love and wouldn't trade for the world) broke that consistency and it's hard as hell for me to get it back. I will be on summer break starting in a week. I did great with my weightloss last summer, I know I can do it again. I just have to make my plan, be motivated, and DO IT! Please pray for me because I'm tired of this up and down.

lastly, I'm going to admit this here because I said I'm going to be honest...I turned in and filled a perscription for Adipex...A weightloss drug the doctor prescribed to me 3 months ago. I think I wrote about it in here. i don't know why I did because I know if I'm not eating right or exercising it's not going to work and when I stop taking it, i'll gain it back. I just feel like I need a boost. I feel like it can help me start this. I'm such a comfort needy person, it's awful. I feel shitty about it but until my life slows down, IDK what to do?! *sigh*

On the other aspects of my life, I'm still busy as ever. The last 3 nights I've been up til atleast 4am. I had a 10 page paper due yesterday and another one due on Tuesday. I also have 2 finals Monday and 2 more finals on Tuesday, the last one on Wednesday. This is no excuse but time really just hasn't been on my side. My sorority has been having programs and scholarship pageants I had to work and prepare for. My life is absolutely bananas right now! I need to deep clean my house. I'm talking sweep and mopping the living room and kitchen. Dust ceiling fans, clean behind the couches, clean the fridge, deep clean and throw out all access crap in my room. Organize my bathroom and find a filing system for all my paperwork. Somebody save me from myself, please! lol.

Ok, I'm going to start on my 10pg paper, yall have a great weekend!

Pills

I'm personally against the use of pills when it comes to weightloss so I can't really help you with that =/ Im sorry. But...all you need is discipline and motivation! Keep yourself accounted for. Keep a food or exercise journal..post here about your struggles and success. We're here for you no matter what alright??

I hear ya about the housework and decluttering..I'm in that phase too and it's freakin hard...BUT we'll do this. We'll cleanup our houses AND our life!! What do you say??

Hello!

Hi. I just wanted to say that you should not feel bad about your adipex. Every person has their own opinions and what works for one person may not work for the next.  I also want to share my experience with phentermine (basically the same as adipex). I took it last year for about 4 months and I lost 40 pounds. I quit taking it because I felt like I didn't need it anymore because I was in control  of my eating and still working out. Since I quit taking it, I lost about 10 pounds on my own and then quit working out.. But I still maintained my weight..that is until the holidays came... Needless to say, I gained almost all of the weight back because I went back to my old eating habits and quit exercising.. I am back on it as of last week and I WILL lose the wight and it WILL  be permanent this time. Adipex is great when used as a short-time  tool to help you  change your eating habits. Good luck girl.. You can do it. Also, you can go to phentermine.com and they have forums there where you can get feedback from other phentermine users. Good Luck!

Hang in there girl!

I really don't think you should do the pills unless you are totally committed to eating right and exercising.  It will give you a boost, but the thing about weight loss pills is that if you slack off, it will make you gain back twice as much...

Good luck with your finals and your paper!  Have a good weekend!

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I wish you luck on your finals. Hopefully things will slow down for you and you will be able to take care of yourself.