Realizations.
Hello ladies! Hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I went with my roomie and some friends out of town for a girls weekend and it was awesome!! I had lots of fun.
This weekend out has brought me to some realizations. Well, this weekend and well..life in general.
I don't know how to explain this but I'm going to try my best.
I don't know if I'm the only one but since losing weight, is it hard to imagine yourself as not fat or as fat as you used to be? Do you still have some old tendencies or habits that won't die? Well, I do and it's crazy!! My sorority sisters always have to get onto me about it. You'd think my self confidence would shoot the roof and I'd be flaunting my smaller self around but it's like I'm still in my "fat shell." I still go to the store and try on size 16-14 clothes when I'm clearly not that size anymore. I always look for the x-large shirts when I can fit a large easily. I guess it makes me feel go they don't fit anymore?! IDK but it's crazy. It feels so crazy that I can go in the same stores as my friends and BUY CLOTHES THAT FIT!! I went crazy this weekend. I can shop in Forever 21, Charlotte Russe and the like now...I've NEVER been able to do that. I'd have to go to dept. stores because they had the bigger sizes. Now that I can shop at these stores I feel so weird. It's a good weird of course but I could definately get used to this and hopefully I'll keep getting smaller :)
Also it's also hard for me to except all these compliments and guys complimenting me. I'm used to being teased or the girl that's just "the friend" or hearing things like "She'd be so hot if she just lost a little weight." Now I hear stuff like "such and such thinks you're hot" and I'm like "who? Me" Yea, people think I'm being funny but I'm not. This is all so new to me.
And I love putting on clothes now..It's like "OH WOW THIS LOOKS GOOD ON ME!" Or "oh I can wear this and not look bad in it" The best thing I'm loving is my back is flat, I can wear baby tee's and not have any rolls showing. It's great, LMAO! I love this feeling and it is just validating why I will not gain this weight back.
And with all that said I need to quit using the excuse my life is so busy and start tracking these points and meal planning. I know I posted that I would start but my school work is piling on me like no other. I just found out that I have 2 10 page papers due by the end of the semester. I have a test on Friday and a text book report due Thursday. *sigh* Then I have my sorority regionals this weekend, a concert on Wednesday...So do you see what I mean when I say my life is not my own and I really have no time?! I'm not eating a lot but I'm not eating ENOUGH...Enough food in general, enough veggies and fruits or water. But today starts a new week so that is going to change. I will also be in the gym today, yay! I'm actually excited about getting back into the gym...
This picture right here gave me the "ah-ha" moment. 
My double chin is gone, my face looks smaller and so does my arm. I can really tell I'm losing weight...It really makes me feel like my hard work is payin off.
Oh yea, there are some new prospects (guys) in my life..Although I don't know when I'd have time to date, it's still exciting. And I saw my ex this weekend...But that's another entry.
I g2g, LOVE YOU ALL!!
