Hey gals, sorry I've been away for a little while. So much is going on in my life I can't keep up with everything.
I went to the doctor yesterday and talked about everything with him. He was nice and actually didn't rush me. As to my weightloss he said there's nothing about my diet I could change. I'm eating enough veggies and fruits, I don't drink sodas or juices, etc...He prescribed me Adipex to help curb my apetite since I told him how I always feel hunger pangs and I always feel the need to snack. I'm not sure if I'm going to fill the script or not. I really want to do this weightloss on my own but like he said if you have a natural slow metabolism then there's nothing "I" can do "own my own" to fix that...What do you gals think? Should I try it or not?
Onto worse news...BF and I have officially broken up. There is no chance of us ever getting back together. He came down here yesterday to give me my v-day gift...I was expecting ANYTHING but what did I get?? A FUCKIN CHEESECAKE! Argh! He knows I'm watching my weight, he's knows that I don't eat that stuff anymore...He has the lame excuse but it's your favorite. Ugh! I was so fuckin mad I couldn't see straight. My mom was/is here and asked him why he made me that too. Ugh. Then his phone was beeping and he was sleep so I pick up...lets just say I didn't like what I found and there was more incriminating messages. Some that are just so hurtful I feel like I was stabbed. I've had trust issues with him before and I gave him another chance and he ruined it. We got in a BIG argument and it was awful. Never again will I give wholeheartedly and take my guard down. I've been having feelings something wasn't right and it was confirmed....I will never ignore my woman' intution again, it has YET to fail me.
*sigh*
Yes, I'm hurt. But I'm more mad than anything. I'm mad my mom had witneess that crap. It was really awful..think about loud ghetto arguments, that was us and that is SOOOO below me. But when you're hurt sometimes you stoop to that level before you have a chance to stop yourself.
Please pray for me. I'm dealing with a lot OTHER than the EX-bf stuff...God I'm being tested...but I am faithful, I am diligent and I am a fighter...I will make it. I will be BETTER because of this. Maybe I'm dealing with this for a reason. Maybe I needed to be single to endure what I'm about to go through(big news...I know yall are tired ot hearing about) Lord, I need him more now than ever.
Due to all of this going on I have not tracked my points, although I've been eating correct portion and ate my veggies but I haven't been doing like I'm supposed. When I went to the doc I was still at 205 and holding so I haven't do that much damage. I think I've been eating less actually....I'll get back on track soon, promise! I didn't come this far to fall off now. I will probably be running my little heart out at the gym tonight too.
Ok, yall have heard me rant enough. I'm going to go lay down.
Posted By: As I Am
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02/16/2008 11:32
Sorry
To hear about your situation with your BF. Like you said, if you feel that something is not right, then you have to believe it. It is better you found out now than later. I swear, MEN ARE A FREAKING TRIP!
Now you can really focus on your big news, because it is gonna take a lot of will and determination to go through what you are about to go through. Hell yeah, now I know exactly what you are going through. My question now is...which one? :)
Sorry you have to go through that! I had my share of a$$hole boyfriends and thought I'd never find a good one. But I did! You will too! Just take care of yourself for awhile and it will all work itself out.
Congrats on the weight you've already lost, keep up the good work!
Don't spend any time thinking about that "jerk". You are so much better off without him. He would enjoy sabbotaging your life. You don't need him. Sorry your Mom had to witness that, hey, at least she was entertained. NOW, what is going on with you that is such a secret????? Can't keep stuff like that from your friends. I am praying for you. Blessings for the things you need to make you happy. Chargail
Well first off I'm sorry you had to go through that. I know no one likes to endure that type of pain and betrayal. Like you said everything happens for a reason. Let me just say this NOT all men are the same. Maybe he just wasn't the one God picked out for you. So don't let your guard stay up too long, you might miss out on your blessing. However I know you are not worried about that now, which is cool because you are still young and you have so much ahead of you.
I know its tough but look at it like this God removed him from your life to bless you with somebody else, someone greater, who can uplift you, help you to reach your goals and become an even more awesone woman than you already are. I hope you are doing okay.Chat with you later!
Why do we always have to go through this crap. I mean is it too much to ask for you to keep your peter to yourself while you are dating me? And if you lose interest in me tell me, so I can move on and respect you for coming to me prior to bringing unwanted shit into my life. I have read several blogs that are addressing this very topic. It is awful that we can not have a committed relationship with the one's we love. I am currently married and I have not went through this as a married person but in college I faced the same issues. You are a very beautiful person inside and out and very intelligent, goal oriented etc. You will find the right person for you don't worry about that just take this time to heal and take care of you. I am sorry that your mom witnessed the argument but when my husband and I were dating 8 years ago we got into an argument in front of my mom and aunt and girl they both jumped in it. You talking about a hot ghetto mess. lol I will never forget that. my aunt has like two teeth in she is always drinking beer so she was fired up and ready to roll with the punches...too funny. About the medicine I would say lets research it first a little. I had a friend who was taking a diet pill ( well a curb your appetite pill) and she stated that she felt like her heart was going to jump out of her chest. it scared the shit out of her. Let me find out what she was taking. Plus if you lose this weight on your own you will never be dependent on anyone's diet supplement pill hey where was Mr. Adipex when you lost over 10 pounds? You didn't need him then so why now? You can do this stay strong don't give up. I have faith in you! Show boyfriend what he missed out on his mouth will drop when he see' s the new you.
Wanna borrow it? I always feel the urge to swing a bat around when I get upset.
I am so sorry about the boyfriend drama. I agree...kick his ass to the curb...
I dont really know what else is going on in your life...but God doesn't give you more than you can handle...you have to believe that.
As far as the Adipex goes...I think it's ok to try. If you don't like it,you can always not take it again, but if the doc prescribed it, he will at least be monitoring you on it...so I think that's at least slightly reassuring. I have used Phentermine in the past (with a dr's script) so I guess I am a little biased. Sometimes, I think we all need a little push to help us out.
Sweetie...so sorry that you had to go through that. Just look at it as a blessing. You will go on. You will let your guard down again. God will send your soul-mate to you. This BF was sent to you to teach you a few life lessons. On to bigger and better....oh and never, ever doubt your women's intuition. As for the "ghetto fight"...lord knows...I've been there...some men will just take you there!!! LOL
I was away so did not get a chance to congratulate you on your 3.8lbs loss!!! Woo-Hoo!!! Keep it up!!!
As for the pills...do some research. I have been there...even took the dreaded phen-fen but was lucky enough to realize after two weeks that something was not right with my body. I may be biased, but my vote is to leave the pills alone. Especially since you just proved that your metabolism is working just fine with a 3.8lb loss this week. Whatever you do, please reaserch the pills that were given to you.
Anyway...keep your head up....God has big things in store for you.
Always trust that woman's intuition! I'm so sorry he ended up being an untrusting jerk =( Be strong and you'll get through this! Take all your rage out on the treadmill ;)
I find that your weightloss is going wonderfully...maybe try it the natural way before taking pills? (the side effects look scary..). If the problem is that you're always hungry there's always ways to eat more but still lose weight =) Like...weight watchers bread (great snack!), fruits, veggies, almonds....
I can't believe "Mr. Romantic" turned out to be a jerk! I know it hurts now, just keep on doing what you're doing. Get out there, have some fun, and discover who you are and what you want! It's his loss!
I've been in the hot ghetto mess scenario before, but I had kids witnessing mine. Not cute!
Use the anger! Work out and keep busy taking care of yourself. You are better company than he deserved.
I'm proud of you. You accept that the ex-bf is not "the one." Now you can move on and move up. Whatever God brings next, it's going to be what's best for you 'cause He loves you. He's crazy about you.
I am so sorry that you had to deal with your unfaithful boyfriend. I don't know what it is with men these days. I mean he already has a rockin girlfriend, why did he need to go play the field. Just know that bigger and better things are in store for you!!
I'm sorry to hear about you and BF...I've had that happen to me too... But as far as you saying that you will NEVER GIVE WHOLEHEARTEDLY...PLEASE don't say that!!! I know it hurts to get HURT, but what God has for you, it is for you!!! Once he closes one door, another bigger, better door opens up!! Just remember that. But u're right to just focus on you. The right person will come along...I'll be praying for you!!!
Oh, and on that pill note...I wouldnt take it if I were you. Those kind of pills work as long as you keep taking them. As soon as you stop, you are going to go on a binge like no other!!! Stay away!!!...lol
