If you can't tell by my title I did not have a good weigh in. I am so upset, for so many reasons I don't know where to start.
I guess I can start with my weigh in. I went in, feeling pretty optimistic and definately not ready for what scale read....210...Which means I GAINED 2lbs this past week. WTF?!?!?!?!?!?? I almost got my stuff and walked out. I didn't want to stay for the meeting, I didn't want to hear what the damn leader had to say. I just wanted to go home and sulk...Cry really. But I didn't. I stayed and sucked it up. My eyes got teary but I didn't let one fall.
My feelings went from disappointment, hurt, to anger, to resentment, to quitting. Yes, I thought about quitting. What good would that have done? None but at that moment, none of that mattered! I just kept questioning myself the whole meeting...
I mean I ate on plan everyday. There were a couple of days I got in 4 fruits and veggies instead of 5. I exercised WAY more this week than last. I did atleast 45 minutes of hard cardio 5 days this week. I didn't eat out, I even prepared some meals...How did I gain?!? I mean I wouldn't have been so hurt if I would have even just maintained. HOW DID I GAIN?! I didn't eat anything sweet over 100 cal, I counted my points for EVERYTHING that went in my mouth and still got a gain, Ugh!!
I'm so frustrated I could cry guys. I really could. I just don't undetstand it. I did everything I was supposed to. I don't know where I went wrong to fix it. The only thing is with school starting I haven't been eating the 6 small meals like I was the day before. But I've still got in all my points and "payed my bills." This is sickening.
BUT! I won't quit. I won't. That's exactly what the devil wants me to do. He wants me to think I'm a failure, reassure my negative thoughts that I can't lose weight and I never will. But I'm not gonna let him win this one! I'm gonna go cry, get it out and start over. I am the master of my fate, the captain of my soul.
I know it's not the one day of weight lifting. I'm not TOM because he has already been here this month. I haven't had anything with a lot of sodium, I just don't know WHAT it is!! I think that is what is getting to me the most. And I'm so disappointed in myself. I knew I wasn't going crazy when I was looking at myself and feeling like I hadn't lost any weight, I HADN'T! I was gaining! So freakin disheartening. Especially since I know I tried and worked my ass off in the gym!!
Oh well..Can't let that keep me down, I have another week to get right and like Angela said, this is NOT a race. But I already have a hard time waiting a week for WI and so to go in that week I've anticipated and gained sucks. I feel like all that I thought I knew, I don't. I feel like I'm just physching myself out to think this would really work for me.
I don't know what to think anymore...
*sigh*
Today's quote: It is on our failures that we base a new and different and better success.-Havelock Ellis
Posted By: As I Am
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01/22/2008 19:07
Ups...& Downs...
Please what ever you do don't give up. We go into this journey thinking that we are going to have a loss ever yweek and we shouldn't because it won't always happen. I' m not sure why you had a gain either but sometimes the body does what the body wants to do and for that we don't have an explanation.
I know after doing everything on plan and not have a lost to show for it can be frustrating but as long as you know in your heart you did what it takes, thats all you can do and just hope that the weight will come off sooner than later. Anyhow with that said hang in there, and look forward, this is a new week so don't dwell on the past. Take it one day at a time.
First of alll...thank you for stopping by my blog. As for your weigh-in...we have all been there. Although I am restarting JC again, I did lose 36 lbs on it last year and let me tell you, there were times when the scale would not cooperate.
A few things...for many people, myself included, we gain weight or stay the same when we start to excercise or do weights. Don;t be so quick to say it's not the one day of weight-lifting. When I started using weights, I retained water. Even my consulted warned me of this. The more you excercise, the more you are building muscle and your muscle holds water. This is very, very true. You could be holding water. There is also another possibility. When you excercise as much as you say that you did this past week, you must be extra careful to eat all of your food....sometimes a but more. I swear to you. So many people stall because they do not eat enough.
Whatever you do, do not give up. There is this great article about how the scale lies. I am going to try to find it. Just keep doing what you are doing!!!
DO NOT GIVE UP!!! This is a journey....not a sprint.
Just be proud of what you have accomplished so far. 6lbs in 2 weeks is great, even if u did gain this week. Its tough at times, because the weight loss the first week is usually so tremendous that it is tough to even get half of that weight loss the next week. It is nothing that you did wrong. It could just be your body reacting to all of that working out. Your body might be confused. I know that I am not losing weight as fast as I use to before and it is discouraging, but the main thing is that YOU ARE NOT A QUITTER!! Keep doing what you are doing and if it helps, write the foods you are eating i a little journal and show your ww leader next week .
Scale is a dirty rotten jerk, that is for sure. Measure other ways: how do you feel, how do your clothes feel? Don't analyze it too much. If you are doing everything right and it looks like you are, just keep doing it!! The scale will take care of itself. If all else fails, talk with the WW leader and show her your journal and get suggestions.
I'm so sorry girl. Wait it out--- it will pass. We are all here for you. Did you have a large or "heavy" meal before WI? that always ruined my WI if I did. Kelly had a great suggestion above about sharing your journal with your WW leader if you are still having troubles.
Girl, I am sorry. But following your 8lb loss...gaining 2 is not the end of anything. You should still be VERY proud of your sucess. You are still a ROCKSTAR.
Just be sure you're eating enough for the amount of exercise you're doing, and try to stay positive and strong. Also, focus more on how you feel and less on what the scale says...if you feel more fit (which I bet you do) than you're still on the right track. And remember: muscle weights more than fat, but the more muscle you have, the more quickly and effectively you'll burn the fat you've still got. Good luck and keep us updated!
See..you're not use to working out as much so you probably just gained muscle mass, don't sweat it girl! And I mean it...maybe 5 days a week of cardio is too much or maybe you shouldnt workout 5 consecutive days without a rest day or two? The eating also has an effect on that, it's funny to say but maybe you're just not eating enough? Your body is so use to a certain amount of calories that just by cutting 400 at first it will start reacting in a positive way but if you cut tons and go from 2000-2500 a day to 1200...your body won't like it too much ;)
I hope this helped in some way...but..all I have to say is keep your head up high..the road may be bumpy at some parts but there will be smoother parts, I promise!
Don't freak out! You lost 8 pounds last week! Most of the time your second week on any program is never any good. Do you ever watch the Biggest Loser? Jillian and Bob always say that the second week is the crappiest - because all of the water weight is GONE so you're losing real fat now.
I just want to tell you to keep on plugging... you are doing great and I bet you'll see the scale move the right direction next week.
We've all had weeks like that. Weeks where we have counted everything, been right on target, worked out, etc!!! I wish there was some magical answer that I could give you that would explain why this happens. Sadly, there is no answer. :-( The only thing that I can tell you is that if you keep doing everything right the scale WILL reflect all of your hard work.
