Wake Up Call...

Hello ladies..Sorry I haven't been around. Work's been crazy, the commute is tiring me out and by the time I get home I just want to sit my [fat] ass on the couch and chill. Also I've been reflecting so I just wanted to record some stuff before I crash.

TGTIF = Thank God Tomorrow Is Friday!

I had a wake up call. All of you that have lost a lot of weight and are really determined often talk about your's. You all have that "moment," that moment where you know that losing weight is the only option for you. There was a defining moment that told you, the weight you were at is not good and needs to be changed.

I knew I needed to lose weight because the number on the scale but I always thought I looked cute....for a big girl. I always thought I had a cute face and that made up for it. I thought losing weight was just a bonus not really necessary...Until recently I'd go to the club and all my friends would get hit on and approached by guys...but I wouldn't. It hurt but I'd get over it...because I still had a bf to go "home" to. But everytime we'd go it'd hit me harder and harder. The last time...about 2 weeks ago for my roomate's b-day parties was the hardest. It sucked but I still got over it.

But I think I've had that "moment." Yesterday I was looking at pictures of myself that were taken last week from my friend's get together. EW,EW,EW is all I can say. They were candid pictures so they caught me in the moment...Not posed or sucking it in or having my hand go across my stomach or any other pose I've perfected to look smaller in pictures..Lets just say I was disgusted..I was totally in awe of myself...How could I get like that..How could I be mediocorely trying to lose weight and not damn near starving myself at the rate I'm going. I remember when I was younger I told my BFF to shoot me if I ever go over 200lbs...Well, by that comment I should be shot. Those pictures were definately a wake up call!

But the true "moment" was when I was on the phone with my bf and I was telling him how disgusting I looked in the pictures and he was being his sweet self that I love him for...Saying stuff like "You're not fat, you carry youself so classy,etc.." then I said how much do you think I weigh....he wouldn't say it at first because he thought I'd be offended but I begged him to give me his true opinion and he said........200lbs. OMG! My heart was crushed. I knew I was "big" but I didn't think I looked like I weighed that much..Maybe because I'm not good at guessing weight or I was fooling myself...Either way I was shocked. It was like an all time low....I asked him how he could be with someone that weighed 200lbs and he said "I love you and you are beautiful and you're trying..you're doing something about it and I support you" insert aw moment. But I was so bummed I didn't even accept it, I merely got off the phone and went to sleep.

I woke up this morning with a new outlook.

THERE IS NO [MORE] EXCUSES!! No more I'll get on track next week. I don't have what I need to lose weight, I don't have time, the gym is not open. NONE OF THAT! I cannot continue like this. I know I'm beautiful but my body is not giving that perception because of my weight. People are shallow, they can't see past it. Hell, I can't see past it.

So today...I stayed on menu. I didn't eat anything off menu. I drank 64 oz. of water. I walked a mile at work. 3 laps around the whole building is a mile...I walked it!

I'm gonna start WW in January because they are having a no registration fee promo. But I will be well on my way by then!

I could have wallowed in self pity...but that would have only made me fatter. So I'm doing something with that wake up call!

I want my boyfriend to see a sexy hot girlfriend, someone he is even more proud to have on his arm. I want to be able to wear sexy stuff for him and not be ashamed. I want to be able to wear bikini's with my friends during the summer and spring break. I want to try on clothes and not worry about a roll showing. I want to be healthy!

This is my season!! This is my time! I'm gonna shine!!

Have a good weekend ladies...I'm headed "home" for Christmas holiday. If I survive that I will be great!

Today's quote:
To keep the body in good health is a duty... otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.  ~Buddha

Ohhh..

(((hugs)))) to you.  I know what you're feeling right now. I'm feeling down now too.  Your BF sounds so supportive you and that is so WONDERFUL.  you are so lucky to have someone that stand behind you  but yet does not criticize you.  Very LUCKY.  I think you look wonderful in your pic and you don't look like 200lbs at all! Different People carry it different.  Hang in there, okay?

Turning point

I had that moment too - when I visited my sister this year I realized that even though I was thoroughly willing to shop, clothes would look dreadful and the really nice stuff did not fit at all. When I saw the photos from that trip something just snapped.

It's painful to have that moment and, for some time, one does feel disgusted at oneself, but it's good too because we need moments like that tot get us started! 

I love that you are so positive and determined! You can do this!! All the best!

Waiting For Mine

Wake up call that is. I think I am focused and determined but not as much as I could be! The other day I slipped and binge on some cheeze its, and last night I had the munchies and snacked some more (When will it stop) . Today I must make some note cards to keep me focused. 

Anyhow I'm glad that you now realize what the deal is. I think you are well on your way. Once you get it in your head mentally that it is time to lose weight there is no stopping you from that point on. Well take care and have a good one.

Yup!

You know that picture I just posted? Of me sitting down last New Year's? That was my wakeup. I could not believe how freaking round and tubby I looked. And it sucked and I wanted to not be that way anymore.

So I did something about it.

You are well on your way to doing something about it and you should be proud of yourself, for sure! If you have any questions about WW, just ask. Or Pam I Am is our resident WW expert (she has tons of yummy recipes). Good luck! And, honey? You are beautiful whether you weigh 100, 200, or 300 pounds!

I almost forgot!

Weight Watchers is a great program. I started with them last January before I got pregnant and they helped me lose 10 pounds.  I was thinking the other day that I should  rejoin just so I can go to the group meetings there is a difference then doing weight watchers on your own and going to  group meetings. You have so much support  (I know you can get that on EP as well) but to actually be with other people in person helps.  I need to see if we are having any specials down here. Well have a good one.

=D

You're determined and it shows!!!! I know you can be skinny and you will be! Work hard and it'll pay off...I would trade all the treats in the world just to be skinny.

Merry Xmas girl!!

That Aha Moment!!

We've all had one and sometimes the moment is so profound that it gets you not part of the way, not halfway, but ALL THE WAY to your goal!! You are determined and I know that you can do this!

Photos

Those photos that gave you a wake up call, post them up on your wall or fridge. It can be a great reminder to you when times get hard to stay on track. I had one of those moments too when I was looking at my pictures of me in a bathing suit and didn't realized how much wider I got. I was like whoa! Stop right there! I haven't been back there since then.

Have a great holiday and I know you're gonna have a great start in the new year.

Thats it!

You had your a-ha!  moment! Thats what you needed...now ride with it and don't let go! Thats what we call making the connection and you cannot change your lifestyle until you really get it. You got it, girl!

Merry Christmas!

Shelley