Today I had alot I wanted to do, but only got maybe two-thirds of it done. I got up early to get to the office. On my way I picked up a fritter and 16oz. Vanilla Latte Lite. I tried to get some work, yet still did not finish. Least to say, I'll be in there again on Sunday. But anyway...I couldn't stay long because I had to make my gym session with my trainer at 1pm. I couldn't possibly cancel again. He would have come and dragged me out of that office! So I made it. For some reason he wasn't too hard on me today, which in that moment I was grateful. But when we wrapped things up I went and kicked up the intensity on the Elliptical for a quick 10 minutes. Believe me, it felt like an hour! After finishing up at the gym I went to BJ warehouse to get some food and other items for the house. I tried to get my cell fixed but to no avail. I have lost mind not having my cell phone working. So he suggested I go to the mall that has tech support. They weren't able to save my phone. I ended up having to purchase a new one. Bummer...but they did hook me up with new ear piece because that wasn't working either. Through all of it, it took them 2 hours to get everything done. I had not eaten since the morning. I was ready to kill somebody. When I got home, I demolished a turkey sandwich with cheese and a bag of baked doritos. My husband made rice, chicken, and fried plaintain for dinner. I just had the fried plaintain and chicken. After that I was done. I watched tv for a couple of hours and then passed out for the night.
I only consumed 21 points today, definitely not by choice. I didn't want to eat at the mall at that time for fear of eating the wrong thing because I was soo hungry. Also, I earned $1.50 for exercising and staying in my points.
Lost everything I just wrote, so I'll keep it short today. Today was a slow day for the most part. Had a little drama I'm getting over. Actually it wasn't little, it had me wanting to cancel my workout session and beeline to Dunkin D for my favorite fritter. I regrouped, and decided to not let myself be defeated by the situation. I found myself RELUCTANTLY walking to the gym downstairs at work. I powered through 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. Guess I was taking that frustration out on Mr. Elliptical. Okkkk....so let's see how I did today:
Breakfast - Bagel with coffee
Snack - Cup of Honey Nut Cheerios w/o milk; 5 Hershey Kisses and 1mini PB cup
Lunch - Turkey Sandwich; Bag of Sun Chips; Diet Coke
Snack - 4 pieces of hard candy; 2 Hershey Kisses; 1 mini PB cup
Late Snack - Smart Ones Cheesecake dessert
Total Points consumed = 28
Money Earned = $1.50 for exercising and staying in my points range.
Hope everyone had a great day! Good to us all tomorrow!
Last night I had my mind set on getting to the gym to go swimming early this morning. Like every morning, I failed to get up on time. I decided to pack my bag and strived to go this evening. I was running late this morning, and didn't have time to make breakfast. I picked up a fritter and a small vanilla latte lite from Dunkin Donuts. I didn't eat again until lunch time. At lunch I had a chicken wrap again with the whole wheat tortilla, grilled chicken, peppers, tomatoes, and salsa. In addition, I had a cup of cheerios with half a cup of nonfat yogurt (this was supposed to be my snack). Throughout the day, I had consumed four pieces of hard candy. Later on, I had a cup of Cinnamon Swirl Coffee with creamer and 2 Equals. I knooow, tomorrow if I have coffee I'm going to use real sugar. I will just have to suck it up and take the points. When my day ended I headed straight to the gym and guess what I did? I went swimming!! I cannot express how great I feel about it. I have not gone swimming in a LONG time. It felt like drinking water after a five day fast! Seriously. Now, as far as the workout itself, the elliptical don't have anything on pounding some laps through the water. After the first lap, I was breathing hard. Although it took me like 40 minutes to do it, I eventually conquered 10 laps of swimming. My goal is to work on being able to keep going, and not take such long breaks in between.
When I got home I had a huge salad with fresh spinach, peppers, ff feta cheese, fresh chives, cup of tomatoes, two ounces of chicken, and italian sd. After that I had a Smart Ones Cookie Dough ice cream dessert.
Let's see how the numbers weigh in today....the total of points of food I consumed today is....25 points...WOW. I feel sooo proud of myself. I tell you I have come a long way. But I'm not going to get too high on my horse, because I've been here before, feeling good, celebrating, and then BAM...back at square one. So this is just another successful day that will be added to my bank of many more successful days needed for April 2007's goal and a lifetime commitment. Ok...on with the numbers...today I earned $1.75 for drinking my water, exercising, and staying in my point range. Way to go! Woohoooooo!! Looking forward to another successful day.
Overall, today was a good day. Got up and had Honey Nut Cheerios with skim milk for breakfast. When I got to work I picked up a blueberry bagel. Its funny, you see I knew it was bagel day, so I planned to have just 1/2 of the bagel because I was unsure of exactly how many points my lunch was going to be since I hadn't calculated it ahead of time. So I only ate 1/2 of the bagel. I didn't eat the other half until I knew how many points I was looking at for the day. I am so proud of that moment.
On with the day...I got the munchies around the normal time b/w 11:30 and 12. I had a 100 calorie pack of Wheat Thins. That held me over until lunch time, which was at about 1:45. My lunch was a chicken wrap I made with a whole wheat tortilla, grilled chicken, peppers, tomatoes, salad dressing, and salsa. I decided to hold off on the sour cream I brought in since I had the salad dressing. Saved myself a point. Along with the wrap, I had 2 cups of cucumbers and water. That was it for lunch. I used my last 30 minutes in the gym at work, on the elliptical machine (my favorite). I took it easy because I didn't want to get stinky. When I got back to my desk I had some water. Later I had 2 pieces of hard candy. I kept passing by the chocolates, but refused to indulge because I wanted to have some points left when I got home. Towards the end of the day I had a cup of Cinnamon Swirl Coffee with 2 creamers and 2 packs of Equal. I definitely don't want the substitute sugar to become a habit because the medical field hasn't had too many good things to say about the aspartame. Its just that I didn't want to use up my points. Afterwards, I took in some more water. When my day ended I headed to my company's gym again and pushed through a more intense 30 minutes on the elliptical machine along with 2 sets of squats and streching at the end.
On my way home I ate my PB&J sandwich with a cup of grapes that I prepared this morning. Thank goodness I planned ahead, I knew I was going to be hungry after working out. When I got home I was satisfied. Lastly, to bring my evening of eating to an end because I think I maxed out my points and I'm not hungry, I top my day off with a Smart Ones Cookie Dough Ice Cream dessert. DeeeeLICIOUS! Oh yeah baby, I can do this for life. lol
Let's see how the numbers weigh in. My total points for today are 28.5! (should of passed up the hard candy) I earned $1.25 for exercising and drinking my water. I missed on my veggies today. I definitely need to step it up on the milk and vitamins. Vitamins should be an easy 25 cents. Anyway...on an ending note...these days, I'm always looking forward to the next day for another opportunity to succeed at this. Tomorrow I'll be a winner all over again.
Today started out pretty decent. Went in to work early per boss's request. We're finally wrapping up this month end's close. This morning I treated myself to Dunkin Donuts and had my favorite, a fritter and a small Vanilla Latte Lite. I had the munchies at about 11:30 again, so I ate my 100 calorie Wheat Thins and drank some water. Continuously working like a little busy bee, I finally ate lunch at about 2:15. For lunch I had my Chunky Meat soup, 2 slices of whole wheat bread, and a cup of tomatoes along with some more water. Afterwards, I had a chocolate treat, 1 mini PB cup and 2 hershey kisses from a co-worker's desk. I also had 1 mint and 4 pieces of hard candy. Later on my co-worker put on a pot Cinnamon swirl coffee and I picked up a cup. It was delicious. I put 2 creamers and 2 tsp of sugar in it. Afterwards, I drank more water. On my way home I had a cup of carrots and drank more water. I only have 4.5 points left which I will use on my Curried Chicken Salad and 2 cups of cucumbers with some water. I should total out at 26.5 points!!! That's a big difference from the 70's, right?!! I'm sooo proud...but on another tip today I had the dumps about my job.
Normally, I'm not one to take things from people, but it just so happens that the one dishing it is the director of my department. My supervisor left our accounting department a month ago, so its just been me and the director doing all of the work. I just started this job in November, so I don't know everything yet. Anyway, least to say its not easy picking up alot of the slack of someone's position above you. The director's has been saying he's thankful for my contributions and blah, blah, blah. But these past couple of days, he's been saying some things that have been quite annoying, frustrating, and a little insulting. You see I went on vacation the week before last and came back into the most busiest time of the month. If I would have known my supervisor was leaving, I would never had picked those days to take off. But plans were made, tickets were purchased, etc. Hey, it is what it is, as my boss says. My point is I just was not in work mode for this week, we were behind, my boss asked me to come in this weekend, which I did and was promised Friday off. Well least to say I'm tired. I made a couple of mistakes, and each time he had to point it out. Mind you he was making the same stupid mistakes, but I didn't decide to make an ASS out of him, the DIRECTOR OF ACCOUNTING, I just corrected them. In fact it was getting to the point that I just had to give him things back to correct. Maybe that's why he was making a point to show me my mistakes. But there was one thing that he said, the most insulting thing to an accountant, when I went to get help to make sure I was hitting the right accounts for an entry,he said..."are you familiar with T - accounts". A statement like that can have you thrown to the lions if you're a person that's spent 4 years studying accounting.
Another thing is that we're getting a new person in this month...hallelujuah!!...and he was describing her saying that she's the opposite of me..she's energetic, mind you on my review...I'm energetic and hardworking...so I'm like wondering, what's he really trying to say. You see he's complained before that I don't move fast enough for him. He's the type of person that wants you to jump we he says jump, but that's not me. I get things done in order that need to be done, not just because of your ranking.
Whew! I seriously needed to get that off of my chest. I was holding it in, feeling like I'm not good enough for my job. I know if I leave, I'll face the same BS with another company, corporate life's the same everywhere. So my goal is to just study and build on my knowledge so one day I can be my own boss. I'm sure this is just an experience to streghthen me. I want to continue in school and get my masters so I can sit for the CPA exam. I would like to have my own CPA firm, not too big, just enough clients to keep me busy and happy.
Anyway...it looks like I earned $1.00 again for the water, veggies, and staying in my points range. Keep up the good work.
I can really do this for life. That's what I was thinking on my way home, thinking about how good of a job I'm doing with my eatin habits. This morning I had grapes for breakfast. I got the munchies at about 11:30 and had two 100 calorie snacks, the Chips Ahoy and Wheat Thins. I was good until 2, which when I had lunch. I had my Chunky soup and 2 slices of whole wheat bread, and, a sliced tomato and cucumber. I was so satisfied. Throughout the day I had consumed 5 hershey kisses, and 4 wintergreen lifesavers. By the end of the day, about 6:15pm, I was hungry again, so on my way home I snacked on some strawberries and drank a bottle of water. It was a good idea to do that, so I wouldn't attack the fridge when I got home. It held me over until dinner. For dinner I made a WW recipe, I've been wanting to make for some time now...its Curried Chicken salad and its only 3 points. It was so cool because by the time I was done with eating my salad for dinner, I still had points left. I decided to have some of the Breyer's natural vanilla ice cream I bought the other day. I had 1/2 a cup, exactly, and 1/2 of a PB&J sandwich. Then I drank another bottle of water...and was through for the night. Today, I consumed a total of 27.5 points. Today I earned $1.00. I am soo proud of myself. Which brings me back to the beginning, when I was on my way home..I was thinking I can really do this. I want to do this. I don't want to be a slave to food, where I act like I have to eat everything every minute as if I'll starve. I like having the control. Like with the ice cream...I stopped at 1/2 a cup...and I was ok. I'm not going to give up the "good" stuff, just limit it. That's why I know WW is for me, it allows you to indulge within a certain parameter. I can dig that. This is definitely going to happen...I see myself next April on my goal date. I feel it... burning deep down inside. I sense victory coming. The first thing I want to do is get a piggy back ride from my husband! Next I want to crack open my piggy bank and go SHOPPING! I'm so excited!
Yesterday, I got going early since I needed to get to the office again. I had a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios with skim milk. Once at the office I had an early snack of PB&J sandwich, 100 calorie Chip Ahoy and water. I stayed for about 3 hrs and left. On my way home I ate some strawberries. As soon as I got home, I got ready for the gym. I did about 35 minutes on the elliptical. I love that machine. I felt like a powerhouse! Some good music can push me through any workout. I ought to dismiss my trainer, music is my best motivator. The only reason I'll keep him is one, I'm in a contract and two he shows me new ways to workout. Anyway...when I got home I had a PB&J sandwich and Honey Nut cheerios with skim milk. After that I started dinner. I made what I like to call my Chunky soup. I make it with okra, spinach, turkey sausage, chicken, shrimp, tomatoes and good seasoning. My husband loves it. I calculated it on WW, its 6 pts per serving. I was so freakin' hot cooking in the kitchen, I thought I was going to pass out. Cooking is work!! I took a break a and had a turkey sandwich. Started watching Coming to America. Finished cooking. I served myself 1/2 a serving of the Chunky soup and 1/2 a cup of brown rice. A total of 5 points. Not bad and it was filling too. I'm sooooo proud to say that I consumed 28.5 points today. Wooooohoooo!!!! Way to Gooo! Oh yeah and I earned a $1.25 for drinking my water and exercising. I'm getting my magic again. I feel really good about myself.
It looks like posting a day is my routine. Well I speak like its yesterday. I got up pretty late. I had a gym session that i had to cancel because my boss wanted me to come in today so we won't be behind on meeting our deadlines. I sooo did not want to go in. But he told me he'd give me Friday off...sooo can't complain with that. So I told myself if I finish on time I'd get to the gym when I get off. Before I left I made up a grocery list so I can pick up somethings on my way home. This morning I had Honey nut Cheerios with skim milk. While at work, I ate my two 100 calorie snacks I brought in. My boss was pressuring me to get an entry in that I'd only done one time before, so least to say I was getting stressed out on trying to remember how I did it. After three trips to a co-worker for help, running downstairs to the vending machine for a bag of my favorite cookies....the mission was accomplished. Finally my boss left, and I felt relieved...I stayed to get a little more work in. I stopped at the grocery store and the farmer's market on my way home. Grocery shopping is my favorite errand to run. Its what used to occupy my time when I first moved to NJ as a newly wed. At my favorite grocery store they have imports from everywhere to make those unique dishes WW comes up with. When I got home I ate the lunch I never ate from Friday. My husband ordered Chinese, b/c he didn't want to wait on me to cook. From that I had 3 chicken wings and fried rice, 1/2 of WW cheesecake. Oh and somewhere in between I had 1/2 of a PB&J sandwich.
I did earn $.50 today for taking my vitamins and drinking water. The problem I have with today is that after I ate the lunch from Friday I was really satisfied. Once again I give in to wanting what I see. Today I consumed a total of 52 points. If I would have stopped at the lunch from Friday I would have been right at 28 points. Well there's always today, Sunday, to try again. I weigh in tomorrow...I definitely don't think I'm going to meet my 5 pound weight loss. Last week I lost 3.6, so I didn't have alot of work to do this week. But I definitely will get there next week.
Yesterday, kind of feels like a blur trying to remember. I do know it was another food party. I consumed 52 points! Bad, not as bad as yesterday, but bad. Thursday night I did pack a lunch for myself. I packed spinach, okra, and mashed potatoes. On my way to work I had two chocolate walnut cookies leftover over from yesterday. I knooow....didn't have the courage to throw them out, so I had them for breakfast. My boss asked me to work through lunch and said he would order take out for us. I was trying to tell him I brought my lunch...but I swear it was like he didn't hear me. I guess he felt they might not come for one order. So what do I do...give in. I ordered the kid's baked ziti again with a diet pepsi and a slice of french bread. Once again it was another busy day. Later we had a cake and coffee for some co-workers b'day. It was apple cake. I had a slice....of course...right. You know I'm not beating myself up about this because I have been in a mental place before where I have overlooked a whole room of desserts. So I know I can do this. I just have to ease myself out of junk food mode and convince myself I don't have to have it no matter how bad I think I want it. But anyway...I indulged. It was a late work day, once again. Felt the need to reward myself...again...ran downstairs to the vending machine and picked up my favorite bag of cookies...Grandma's vanilla mini cookie bites...(I know the complete name, b/c I've tracked the points so many times on WW website). Too sad. And I ALWAYS eat the whole bag. It has 36 cookies but the serving is only 9...the cookies are tiny. Anyway...when I went outside it was pouring rain...so I decided to wait...didn't want to get soaked. And of course on my way home...I was looking for some excitement...sooooo you guys should know this by now....I stopped at Dunkin Donuts and picked it up what?.....yep...fritter donut and vanilla bean coolatta. But this time was different than any other...it was like I was making myself get it...I mean I wanted it, you know, it tastes good...my mind wanted it, but my body could really care less...I think it was satisfied. It took me about 4 hours to eat it because I was full. It is that very moment that I know change must come....and stay.
Yesterday I went to bed late. Got up late. I fixed NO food for my day. When I got to work I bought some chocolate milk. About 11am I was starving. I ran downstairs and bought a bag of cookies. At lunch time I needed to go to the bank, while there I picked up two cookies. When I got back, I hit up the vending machines for a Pepper Jack Ranch Chicken sandwich, a bag of Fritos, and a diet coke. I had four pieces of hard candy. It was long hard day of work today. It was soooo busy. I thought I would scream. I'm in the middle of trying to get things done for our month end close and people are steady calling and stopping by about things that are at the bottom of my list at this point. I felt like I got nothing done that I needed to. I'm not the type of person to be short or nasty with people. But think my boss was getting tired of me answering everyone's concerns. He finally just blew up and said let them research the problems their having themselves, he we're short staffed we can only do so much. He was right. He told me tomorrow to just say the work is coming and to not give anybody an explanation or time...just I'm working on it. But anyway...once the day ended I felt that I needed to be rewarded, for me...what other way than food. You'd think I'd know better by now. I picked up another bag of cookies. Before I was leaving I really wanted my reward to be a fritter and coolatta, but I was too impatient to wait, so I picked up the cookies. Then on my way, I had it set in my mind to get the fritter, so I picked up with some cookies. And my friend there at DD, encouraged me to get 3 cookies to save money...and I did it! I knooow, I knooow. The strangest thing is its like a love hate relationship. I'm not happy about my eating habits. I would love to be a person that chooses healthy food over junk naturally. But this takes work. It takes having a plan. Tonight, my goal is to prepare my food for tomorrow before I go to bed. But from all the crap I ate today...I don't even feel like doing that. But because I don't want another bad day I will suck it up.
I just calculated my points for the food I consumed today...you wouldn't believe how much....78 POINTS!!!! I am only suppose to have 28 points. This is why it is crucial for me to record what I eat and calculate the points. Seeing the # of points gives me more of reality check. I'm sad, to see me do this to myself. I'm just going to make a point to keep documenting my actions through here and on WW. So I can learn my patterns, and work to create new and better habits. I'm not going to give up. I'm not going to feel ashamed. I look at this as work I need to do. I need to plan ahead, get in the kitchen, have food ready for my daily moments of starvation. Pack my gym clothes. This takes work. I can't keep chancing myself to my willpower...I need to create weightloss environment for myself. I will not give. Today was not the best day. I didn't earn any money. But I was in a good mood. That counts for something. My spirits are high. I will continue to push for my success. I will keep working to get past moments of weaknesses by having healthy alternatives available. Tomorrow I plan to earn at least a quarter.
