I woke up this morning and felt like a truck hit me. Yesterday - I'm pretty sure a truck did hit me. All I did was putter around the house. Quite contently, I might add. :P
This morning after reading I'm out of here, FOR GOOD! 's blog I decided to give this jumprope thing a try. To hell with the neighbors! Holy crap. :P I haven't jumped rope since I was like... 12. :P That's hard work! I had to break it up into chunks of 100 but I made it to 500. It was fun tho - turned on some music and I was off! Then I left the music on for about 15 minutes and danced around the house like a mad woman. :) (No, I don't really wonder why the neighbors think I'm weird ;) ) Then I did some crunchies and leg lifts...
So, not your most structered of workouts, but ...I'm sweaty :) And I feel 100 times better than I did 2 hours ago. Which right now means more because I think that now ... maybe, just maybe... I might survive this week and be back to my old self next week. :p
And now I have a house to clean. Like - on your hands and knees and scrub the floor, clean. Sucks! But I will be so happy when it's done.
It's that TOM - but I'm still here..... just not feeling very 'type-y' :P
Last weekend started out SO well! And didn't end that badly, except for . . .. many many drinks on Sunday night. And it's SO not worth it! It's expensive and I feel like crap the next day.... which of course, led to not so bright eating choices on Monday.
I ever so bravely stepped on the scale to see just what sort of damange I've done and I'm up about 2lbs (a kilo exactly..) but after last weekend and everything else, I suppose I deserve it. :P I'm hoping that by next Monday I'll have recovered to at least where I was.
Pure torture, today. And I almost couldn't convince myself that it was a good idea. BUT I did... and I'm done. ;p Only about 50 minutes -- but hey, better than the big fat zero I *wanted* to do. :P
And now I can watch England vs. Paraguay in mental peace. :)
Ah, yes.. The World Cup. My first experience with this while living in Europe. It's apparently a big deal -- and Greece isn't even playing. (How are they the Euro Champions?? :P) I'm not a big football(soccer) fan - the world won't stop turning if I don't see a game. But I do enjoy watching a game from time to time. I think I'll have just a few to choose from between now and July 9th ;)
So, based on all this bikini challange talk I've read on other blogs has inspired me to take some pics myself. I haven't decided if I'll *actually* post them... but they are taken and saved for a later date..
..and those pictures, is what actually got me off my arse to workout today..
Must be working already.
I stepped on the scale out of curiousity this morning - but I should of known better. I had a little bit of an unplanned free evening. Salty, salty... didn't get in all my water... AND I'm waiting for TOM which should be here any day now. Needless to say the scale didn't agree with me. :P I will put it away until end of next week.
What a scary number.. I've put it on a pedistal of what I want to be.
Honestly, I have no idea what I will look like at 150... I am obsessed with people watching (ok, dare I say, woman watching...) and comparing body types with mine.. wondering if I look like that, is my butt bigger and will I look like that at 150? I'm driving my husband bonkers. "Is she bigger than me? Do I look like that?" I mean, really... what's he going to say? He's not stupid. :P
It seems like I went from 130lbs to 160lbs overnight. I don't remember the in between. I figure skated for 12 years -- I was skating for 4-5 hours a day plus other conditioning/cardio.... and I remember thinking I was fat because of the number on a scale. Little did I know how muscular I was.. :/
I did weigh 157 for about 3 seconds about 2 years ago. Long enough to step on the scale at WW, do a little whoop, and celebrate with a blizzard (or something of the sort..) But I do remember actually looking in the mirror and thinking "I'm almost there".
So, I guess my point is... maybe I need not to be so obsessed with a number. A pant size?? 6 or 8?? But they vary so much from store to store -- I've actually got a two size 8's that fit in my closet now (which, is just wrong. I'm not a fool.)
I want to be healthy.... ..and happy.
Happiness is one five oh. ...or maybe... one four five.
It was, apparently, bigger, stronger and smarter than me.
How stupid is that? I went in to buy milk. I come out with milk and an ice cream cone. (what, it's a dairy!? so were the chocolate bits that were in it....)
So yeah...................
Today has been a little wonky anyways with my food intake. I met a friend for a coffee (a.k.a. orange juice - just doesn't sound as good to say 'meeting a friend for a glass of fresh squeezed o.j.' ;) I left in a hurry - with only a banana..... then OJ ..and then Starbucks frappechino light (!?!) I know, I dunno what happened, it's just how the day worked out. It was either a frap. light or a souvlaki for lunch and that is just not a good choice -- I do know which would of tasted better tho. ;P
Now my tummy is in knots and not happy, I can't imagine why.
For dinner I think I will make an omelette with whatever leftover veggies I have left in the fridge ...with some actually good lf cheese I found here.
I ate too much................................... and I am so full. Too full..
It wasn't as much as I used to eat but I KNOW BETTER! But it was like.... portion control, what's that?! Let's eat more!
Anyways, yeah. Dinner was quite good. :P
Diet is going well, still clicken. Did splurge on pizza last night, but thankfully, I was in control ;) Drinken my water... all is well.
Life on the other hand . . . is goen . . . ok. I miss home. I miss my job. BUT I love my husband, and he's here. I just want to visit... see friends and family, go shopping and get Portland out of my system for awhile. I just hope that at some point in the future we can move back and give it a go there . . . without guilt. :|
I did some online shopping thearpy today tho :D 2 bikinis! Must.work.on.abs! But they are way cute, I hope they fit! Meaning... I hope the girls fit!
Something is working right in my head. It's happened before, when I started at 230lbs and lost the original 60lbs. ...and more recently about 2 years ago when I got down to 157lbs. The time in between I kind of bounce between 165-175 gaining and losing the same 10lbs over and over.
But this is it... and I'm excited! :)
I weighed in this morning just under 170lbs -- after breakfast even! AND I NEVER WANT TO SEE 170SOMETHING AGAIN! Unless it's something drastic.. like babies or something :) Other than that - that's it. Done with 170's, bring on 150's!
Yesterday started GREAT! I got up early, ate a nice breakfast and went to my aerobics class. We worked out for about 1-1/2 hours and we were absolutely dripping sweat (nice, yeah? :p) It's great tho, I feel wonderful afterwards.. It's one of those things you love to hate -- but do it anyways. Afterwards we had a nice salad w/ some chicken on top.. ..came home and had a snack -- apple w/ a little bit of pnb.
..then my husband came home. :p And all control out the window.
We went to one of fav. little places by our house that has amazing burgers and chicken burgers.. I had a chicken burger ..and we split an order of fries w/ cheese and chili AND ONION RINGS. What on earth was I thinking?!?!? I was so ill.
At least I got my water in. ;/
Today is going well so far....
Breakfast : Cornflakes w/ a banana Lunch: leftover small chicken breast w/ 1/2 cup rice (ok, more like 3/4) and 4 carrot sticks.... Snack: Apple w/ tbsp of peanutbutter
Dinner: I'm not sure yet. I have bookclub tonight and we are meeting for a coffee. I think I'll get a fresh squeezed orange juice for another fruit. ...and I should probably do dinner before cause it could be a late one. I have some leftover rice . . . but I'm not quite sure what to make.. I'm guessing I'll figure it out rather than starve. :P
So, I reset my goals.. my start weight.. everything. Clean slate.
And I've put the chicken before the egg, so to speak. :P
I've planned my 'reward' and set a date. On Aug 11 a group of us are planning a trip to a Greek Island (Ok, it's one of the perks of living in Athens.... There has to be an upside for the daily trials of living here ;) ) Five of us are heading to Paros. I have approx. 10 weeks to get there and my goal is 155. Lower - great, but I wanted it to be attainable.
Exercise is looken up. I've started a dance aerobics (which is totally new for me ;)) class with a little weights thrown in for good measure that is being taught by an American girl I've met here. She's great and a total lifesavor! And she makes me sweat. :) The class is M-W-F and I've got a Tae-bo DVD for the days inbetween. Yay for dripping sweat :p
My plan - common sense. WW, but counting point is tricky here. I miss the nutrition labels at home. I know how to do it, I know it works, I know what I shouldn't eat... So, it's just a matter of motivation ..and keeping it. :) I will plan my meals and snacks, work out, drink my water -- which isn't an issue here in the summer -- but I should prlly drink extra since it is so hot here.. JOURNAL.. and finding support thru you guys here. :)
That's about it for now, I've got a tae-bo video to do. :)
Only at myself... I'm just screwen around with this weight loss thing and I'm done.. I am doing to get serious about this and just get done with it! Kiss these pounds goodbye for good!
Now, I realize, I will never actually be done with it. It's a lifestyle and something I will need to keep in check for the rest of my life. However, I am DONE with playing with this same 10lbs.
I WILL SHED THEM.. and they will stay gone... and onto the next 10 after that.
