03/20/2010 23:34
1st week
My first week is almost over on my new healthy eating. it hasnt gone too bad, gave in and had a couple of slices of pizza one night but then got straight back on the wagon and exercised the next day. other than that the diet has gone great i've loved my jacket potatoes and salads :)
I haven't exercised a huge amount because my badminton got cancelled but at least it means i can increase next week so i can keep on losing weight :)
haven't weighed myself properly yet i know ive lost about 3 pounds at the least so i'm happy. Hope everyone else is doing well and feeling positive (hello i am cheesy) xxx
03/11/2010 04:41
So far
I'm classed as obese! woooo....
I've battled with my weight since i was about 10, and at 10 i wasnt even that bad?
I was the same weight from about 12 till about 17? tried everything to lose it and then i started college and everything fell to bits. since then ive gained a ridiculous amount and i feel like ive failed my former self. failed my dreams of starting university happy. This is wrong completely! i'm so happy at university and i've realised that all that crap i told myself about how if i lost weight i'd have more confidence and people would like me more. It's crap. I needed more confidence, i needed more self esteem, and i've achieved that. I haven't changed much since school, but i've accepted who i am and i'm happy with myself.
I feel like having this weight will be the final banishment of my past. It will stop the fears of an early death and i dont want it to get any more out of control. However, i'm so happy and it's so easy to think why don't i just forget about it?!
Uni is temporary, so its so easy to think that this weight is temporary too. When i go home i'm reminded of the permanance in my life, including my weight. I have to stop it now and just get it done and get it gone. I say this every week and the thing is i don't even want to lose that much?!
i'm in a rut. and i've got an awful feeling i'm staying there for a very long time.
