Weightloss Moments of Zen

It's been almost a month...

Monday, December 6, 2010 22:02:18

And it looks like just about everyone left when this site became SPAM Central.

I've been struggling to focus this last month. I'm worried sick about what's going on with our crazy congresscritters.If my Social Security check doesn't arrive on time, I will not be able to pay my bills. One thing for sure: If Republicans think I will take this lying down, they are mistaken. I will do everything in my power to see that they are run out of town on a rail with the next election. They insist upon ignoring our wishes to promote their own radical agenda, and I will not go down without a fight!

I never thought I'd see our country lose its soul like this. Silly me. There are always elitists and oligarchs who want to stomp on the little guys, and they've been plotting this for decades. Now we have to rid ourselves of their influence once again.

In the meantime, I have been really struggling to get my BED under control. I keep gaining and losing the same five pounds. URGH! Not very happy with myself about that.

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Since our webhosts don't care that this has become SPAM Central...

Sunday, December 5, 2010 22:05:01

I tried a brief flirtation with Blogspot, but found the formatting too quirky, so I am in the process of moving my blog to 3FatChicks.com.

AND to all the spammers here—I will never, ever buy anything you tried to advertise here for free.

AND to our webhosts—you certainly know how to wreak havoc on a community. I'm really glad I didn't give in and PAY you to be here, since your management leaves much to be desired. You ignored our many requests to manage the site responsibly, and now your advertisers have virtually no one to advertise to. Good job!

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Make Someone Happy

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:08:16

Make someone happy

Make just one someone happy

And then you,

Will be happy too!

Sappy sentiments, and at one time I believed them, really believed them. It made me a people-pleaser, as I tried to make my family happy, my in-laws, my husband, my kids, my friends. I rarely said no when anyone asked me to do something, no matter how badly I didn't want to do it. I tried to make so many people happy! I tried and tried and tried. I gave it my best shot.

But the more I tried to make everyone else happy, the more happiness eluded me. It wasn't supposed to be this way! Where's the happiness I was supposed to get out of this deal? The more I went along to get along, the more I was expected to give. It most definitely was a one-way street I was on, and it wasn't Happy Street.

I'm surprised that it took me so long to become unhappy with the way my people-pleasing was working out. If making one person happy doesn't bring a full measure of happy back to you, doesn't it stand to reason that you need to please more and more people until you get enough pleasing credits to earn all that happy for yourself? But it never works out. The happy never seems to come back in return for all that happy you granted to others.

In fact, the harder you try to make someone else happy, the less happy they, and you, become. Just as the only person you can change is yourself, the only person you can make happy is yourself. It seems, oddly enough, seeking to make someone happy only produces lack of respect. And lack of respect does not produce any happy at all.

At one point in my weight loss, I had to contemplate these realities. It became a turning point for me when I finally started to be more assertive about my own needs. That's when I started making myself happy. I found the time for me. I made time for me. I let it be known that I required time for me and others needed to respect that.

That's where happiness begins: It grows out of respect.

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Wow, It's Hot!

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:08:15

Working outside, and it was 95° Monday, and 85° Tuesday. I don't seem to be able to drink enough water!

Today it's supposed to cool down just a little, and it will be welcome. My weight seems to be heading downward again, and that too is welcome. I wish I could get it together for more than a week at a time! I'm going to do my best to keep it going for two weeks—I think that will build my confidence. I've been so weak lately!

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Update

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:07:16

It looks like I'm going to be even busier now. I just took a look at everything I have to get done around the house, and taking my increased work load at work, I'm not going to have spare time for much of anything.

So my online posting is suffering.

But I'm doing OK. I had a two-day bout with bingeing this week, and I'm pretty disgusted with myself about it, but I'm ready to move on again. I need to start doing my jigsaw puzzles in the evenings to hold boredom and loneliness at bay.

Not sure why I've been feeling so lonely lately. I think I need to get out more in the evenings, too. Maybe I'll try to host a party. I do owe a few invitations.

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Apologies

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:05:04

I'm sorry I haven' been able to keep up with anyone's blogs the last few days. I keep running out of day before I run out of things that need to be done. I hope to find the time to catch up with everyone, soon.

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Busy, Busy, Busy

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:05:04

My boss has suddenly been reminded of my value to the business, and has been asking me to work more hours. Fine by me: I need the money.

Between that and getting my own garden planted, I have been exceptionally busy this last week! Have been burning many calories, but haven't been as careful with the calories as I should be. Still running a deficit, but if I were being as mindful of the calories as I should be, I would be losing about two pounds per week: As is, it's between 3/4 and 1 pound per week. I need to stop messing around.

Today was a good day. I managed to avoid the donuts at work, and skipped the morning and afternoon snacks—I was just too busy.

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Fruit Juice: Diet Helper or Diet Buster?

Monday, December 6, 2010 00:05:04

Another informative slide show from Web MD:

What Fruit Juices are Best, and in what quantities?

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Good Start, So Far

Saturday, December 4, 2010 21:01:17

I got up a little earlier today and finished spreading the mulch around the front flower beds, and it looks so nice! I also watered in some more nitrogen on the hay bale raised bed. It will be ready to plant in a few more days.

My nose is all scabby today. I forgot to use sunscreen this weekend, and it got a little blistered. When I woke up this morning, I discovered that I had been scratching it in my sleep, and I had little spots of blood on my pillow, and a scabby nose to deal with. DRAT! So today I will be wearing a floppy wide-brimmed hat at work.

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Do It Anyway Day

Saturday, December 4, 2010 21:01:17

There are things I don't feel like doing today. I'm a little out of sorts, and avoiding those urges to just get something from the drive-thru may be a challenge, since I didn't make my meals ahead of time. I keep thinking about Do It Anyway. It is difficult not to: I have the phrase on postits all around the house.

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