05/25/2011 02:36
How I started to Change My Life
I finally got to the point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, and knew the changes had to be permanent. I knew several people who had had great success with JC. So I took a deep breath, swallowed my pride, went through the doors of JC. I just needed someone to tell me what to do.
It really helped that the food was good, so it was something I could stick with. It really helped that I had that one-on-one focus every week. It really helped that I had reached that point of determination and commitment. I had to humble myself and finally admit that I really couldn't do it myself, and that I had to accept help.
I had the fragments of so many former fad diets running through my thoughts that I no longer had any idea what I should eat or how much. Carb fear. Meat fear. Fat fear. Starvation fear. "Toxin" fear. Failure fear.
The way I related to food, nutrition and weight was all fear-based. That was sad. I needed to develop a new and healthy relationship with food. In a way, it almost seemed too sensible to be eating all kinds of foods that for one reason or another, this or that fad diet had tried to convince me were "bad" and had caused the whole problem.
I had to clear my head of all of that. It was obvious that it wasn't too many carbs...
So I took a deep breath and suppressed all those theories about carbs, "good" or "bad." I fought back those desperate hopes that there was a magic pill out there. I had to stop being so damned desperate! So damned desperate that I would eat just about anything promising to make me slimmer, take just about any magic pill that promised to make it all fast and easy, or starve myself until I couldn't stand it any more. None of that was healthy, and I had to put it in my past.
At first, it was difficult to believe that eating all this food, and feeling so good while still losing a pretty nice amount of weight each week was even possible. But there it was, right in front of me. It seemed almost to simple to be true.
It was amazing! I was losing weight, and I didn't even have to suffer to make it happen! 