You can probably guess...
I messed up. It started when I went on a 4 day vacation about two weeks ago. From then until now, I just didn't have my mind in the right place, I ate whatever I wanted, I gained the small amount of weight I lost back for the most part. But it's okay.
Every time you fail, you learn another way that doesn't work. For me, I'm restarting, re-energizing, getting back into the lifestyle but fixing the things that didn't work.
Not having time to eat breakfast didn't work. Going for hours in the middle of the day at work didn't work. Not exercising didn't work.
Because I love cooking, not just food, I need to still put effort into making delicious dinners, just ones that don't have all the things I don't need - starchy carbs, extra fat, sugar.
I need to go to the gym. I'm lying to myself to say I don't have the time. I do. I just need to MAKE the time.
Yesterday it was super hot out and I wore a skirt. Because of being overweight, my legs rubbed together and chaffed and it was painful and frustrating. It's frustrating to have all this excess. I want it gone, I want a lean body, and I am willing to work for it.
Sometimes I feel suffocated by all the excess fat on my body, it feels unbearable.
I have almost every other piece of my life together. I'm very smart, and I'm putting that knowledge to use - I have great grades, I do outside activities, I have an internship where I use my awesome data skills, I work extra jobs, I do graphic and layout design, I have great friends, loving family, I'm crafty, creative and an excellent cook.
This is the last piece of the puzzle for a full, happy, fullfilling life.
Time to get it.