06/18/2010 09:18
day 3
today felt so easy again. i ate some fruit, which i was orginally going to stay away from for a few weeks in accordance with south beach, but my mom put it on my plate, and i thought, why not? it's not fruit that's made me gain all the weight i have (cheese fries might have had something to do with it...) at night i made an eggplant and cheese dish that probably was a bit on the fatty side, but i only had once slice to keep it in control.
i was thinking about how accustomed you can get to unhealthy behaviors, so much that it becomes subconcious. for example, the night after i had my realization and my motivation was sky high, i opened the candy jar in the hall at work, before realizing that of course i will be staying away from candy. i didn't feel tempted, it wasn't a debate in my head, i just didn't think about it at all. it was weird to think if i hadn't caught myself earlier i would've actually ate a piece or two without even knowing i had broke my promises to myself.
listening to inside out weight loss has made me realize that overeating really is related to emotions, even though i never considered myself an emotional eater. eating for me offered comfort and stress relief, one less thing to worry over. i pull off a lot in my regular school life: i got a 3.9 last semester, i work 10 hours a week, and i put in tons of hours on the school paper. i know how to balance things but the weight was the one thing i couldn't handle. it's interesting because the host of the show said she used to be the same way! i totally related. this also makes sense because i'm always able to eat healthy and exercise regularly in the summer, because my stress level is considerably lower... i don't need that extra comfort. so what's the solution to this? the host of the show says to tell that part of us that seeks comfort for food "thank you very much, i appreciate you trying to help me and make me feel better through eating, but i don't need this gift." if i need this sort of intense stress relief i will be concious of my desire to overeat and do something else comforting... take a bath, watch some reality tv, cuddle with the dog, etc. it's not going to burn many calories but hopefully it will take the edge off those desires.
lastly, here's a few more to add onto my list of motivators
-if i lose a bit of weight i can fit into a pair of pants i really need for work. right now im switching off between another pair and a skirt and that's it. my current clothes will also fit with more ease.
-i dislike that weird bellybutton outline thing on my shirt ive got going on because of my protruding chub.
-there is such a good feeling to seeing the scale go down and knowing you are doing the right thing for yourself.
p.s. i'm really heartbroken about the celtics right now. i don't like kobe and it hurt to see him win again. there's always next year...
i was thinking about how accustomed you can get to unhealthy behaviors, so much that it becomes subconcious. for example, the night after i had my realization and my motivation was sky high, i opened the candy jar in the hall at work, before realizing that of course i will be staying away from candy. i didn't feel tempted, it wasn't a debate in my head, i just didn't think about it at all. it was weird to think if i hadn't caught myself earlier i would've actually ate a piece or two without even knowing i had broke my promises to myself.
listening to inside out weight loss has made me realize that overeating really is related to emotions, even though i never considered myself an emotional eater. eating for me offered comfort and stress relief, one less thing to worry over. i pull off a lot in my regular school life: i got a 3.9 last semester, i work 10 hours a week, and i put in tons of hours on the school paper. i know how to balance things but the weight was the one thing i couldn't handle. it's interesting because the host of the show said she used to be the same way! i totally related. this also makes sense because i'm always able to eat healthy and exercise regularly in the summer, because my stress level is considerably lower... i don't need that extra comfort. so what's the solution to this? the host of the show says to tell that part of us that seeks comfort for food "thank you very much, i appreciate you trying to help me and make me feel better through eating, but i don't need this gift." if i need this sort of intense stress relief i will be concious of my desire to overeat and do something else comforting... take a bath, watch some reality tv, cuddle with the dog, etc. it's not going to burn many calories but hopefully it will take the edge off those desires.
lastly, here's a few more to add onto my list of motivators
-if i lose a bit of weight i can fit into a pair of pants i really need for work. right now im switching off between another pair and a skirt and that's it. my current clothes will also fit with more ease.
-i dislike that weird bellybutton outline thing on my shirt ive got going on because of my protruding chub.
-there is such a good feeling to seeing the scale go down and knowing you are doing the right thing for yourself.
p.s. i'm really heartbroken about the celtics right now. i don't like kobe and it hurt to see him win again. there's always next year...