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  • Name: Fitness2009
  • City: Louisville
  • Region: Kentucky
  • Country: United States

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fun food

I need to learn that food is not a toy, a leisure activity, or a diversion.  It's not a "fun-time-activity" to stuff myself with  junk food.
 
Here is what happened:
Today at work I took the early lunch, and then my co-workers all took the late lunch, leaving me alone at the office for a bit.
My first thought was to raid the fridge and eat our office goodies that are in there. Why why why?  I JUST ATE MY LUNCH!
Why did I want to do that? For fun? As a way to pass the time, to be working and eating is more fun than just working?

That's just silly. I drank a bunch of water instead, and thought about my blog.
 
Food is NOT a game. Junk food is not the only way to celebrate or the only way to relax. 
 
What really is fun is to go shopping and buy clothing in sizes that make me feel normal-sized not super-sized.  It's fun to look at pictures of myself without feeling embarassed.
  That's fun

no excuses

Today is the first day of June in 2009. It is summertime to me. And I'm not whinning or crying or making excuses for my eating today. today I'm just going to stick to the plan and do it.
Discipline. I'm going to make this happen, I am not giving up ever, and I'm letting my body do the work, while taking my mind out of the picture. I am making this work.  Now!

applebees killed it

Wow well after I had a soccer game today me and my bf went to applebees. We split an order of boneless wings as an appetizer
Then I had a quesadilla burger and fries.
According to "the daily plate" I ate about 1450 calories at applebees.
Whoa!!!

Wow
ouch

Luckily breakfast was 400, and my mid-day snack was only 300.
So in total that's 2,150 calories today. OOoooo that's plenty for me, but also I played soccer and one volleyball game, and did a short jog so hopefully I burned enough.  Ouch applebees, the choices i made there just killed my efforts.

I burned calories, so I guess it was alright in the end. It's 9:34 and gosh I'm tired.  I'm not eating anything else tonight, probably will be asleep in an hour if I'm lucky.

I've got tomorrow planned out, I think I can, I think I can!
(p.s. I'm so in love with my boyfriend, nothing related with ep topics, but true so true)

calorie counting

...can be such a pain.
But here I go.
Brekkie:
Oatmeal 100
toast 50
with evoo 40
romaine lettuce 30
corn 80
bean sprouts 30
tomato10
green onion 10
black beans/salsa 50

there, that's 400 cals this morning.
and i went for a very short 15 minute wog this morning

boring food

I was bored with my breakfast and lunch today. Well, brekkie was okay, but now it's 1:30 in the afternoon. And I just wish I could have eaten tons of yummy food for lunch.
I feel sort of deprived. Luch was my decisions and I cooked it. But even though it wasn't gross, it was just blah.  I was not excited about it.  
This afternoon my next meal better be super yummy. I'm going to find some good stuff, some really good healthy yummy stuff.
 

uh oh trouble, trouble

Im worried about going over my calories today.
Breakfast was 400 calories, on plan, it was really well done, I am proud of my breakfast.
And from there it went bad.
BF took me to lunch at Johny Carino's and I ate about 1,000 calories there, I guess, who knows. But we split a tiramisu for dessert, I had a pasta dish, had soup, and a little bread.

Then I ate about 250 calories at 4:45. So I think I'm done for the day. I can't lose weight if I eat any more calories today. It's over for today if I'm planning to have a day that allows weight loss

Supposed to be going to the gym right now, and it's really raining really hard outside. So I am not wanting to dash to my car. Still, I know I must if I want to lose weight.

Key word: IF

If I want to wear a bikini this summer, and if I want to feel good and wear that special outfit.
As well as IF I have healthy knees, and a healthy body mass index.  It's up to me. Can I do it? We'll see if I can make it through today and then make better choices tomorrow. I need a veggie snack tonight, I realize, at least a few calories and some calcium and vitamin rich veggies - but must be low cal.
We'll see.


also, I'm scheduled to be working out tonight! I will, I believe in me!

Thanks for the comments telling me not to give up! That's so true. I have to keep exercising and eating limited calories in order to drop my wight. I can't give up, you're so right, and I've come so far. I really feel like I've finally learned how to do this thingy, I've finally figured out how to do this right.
Oh joy!
 
so today sticking to the plan:
400 calories for brekkie, including an egg, oatmeal, and some olive oil
205 cals for a mid-morning snack, including some ground flax
270 lunch was a microwave meal.
 
My next scheduled eat is 4:00pm.  My plan is eating 400 calories every 4 hours. So I ate brekkie 7:40, snack at 10:30, lunch at 12:15, my snack took over and that's why I had to cut down my lunch quantity of food.
And I'm about 75 calories over for the day so far.
 
But who cares? It's just 75 over. I can cut back my two remaining meals to about 365 each.
 
Smartpop 94%fat free Kettle Corn is danger zone for me, because supposedly each bag only has 2.5 servings, the servings are 30 calories each, and so eating a whole bag is only 75 calories, and it only takes 3 minutes to cook.  Talk about a Slippery Slope!!!

successful weekend

I had a successful three day weekend, having monday off work was wonderful.  Still, the weekend is never long enough.
All weekend I stayed within my calorie range, I ate four meals per day, each consisting of 400 calories, so 1600 per day, and I exercised at the gym every day.
 
But for some reason there's no wind in my sails this morning. I hope I don't flub up, but there's a sinking feeling in me that's saying "throw in the towel">
 
This mornings breakfast, I looked up all the calories on the daily plate online, or on the packages, and I ended up eating about 400 cals this morning.  Yay