My weight was down to 189 and then yesterday I nearly ate an entire bag of Sweet Tarts jelly beans. On top of that I had popcorn and chocolate for a snack even though I was not even remotely hungry. Ugh!! As a result my weight is up to 191.6 this morning. Why in the world do I continue to do this to myself. I say I want to be 180 by the New Kids concert on October 30th. Girls that is only 18 days away. My motivation to remove these last 40 lbs is gone. It has vanished into thin air!! Maybe being stuck in the 180's since April (even though I have worked hard to remove the weight, except for recently) has something to do with it. I told myself today that I was just going to forget about those 40 lbs and just work to maintain. I figured maybe I could sort of trick my mind into doing something. Exercise has been great and I guess that is a blessing because God only knows how much weight I would have gained if I hadn't been exercising. Today has been perfect with regards to eating. I can do one day OP it is the 3 and the 4 and the 5 days OP that I am struggling with right now. I have GOT to get this crap under control!! The hardest time of year is quickly approaching and I refuse to eat my way through the holidays and end up gaining 10-20 lbs!!
When I was young my favorite cousin on my dad's side was named David. He was a couple of years older than me and I thought he was awesome. As far as I was concerned the sun rose and set on him!! As we got older we didn't see each other as much. He got married and moved away so many years passed without us seeing or having any communication with each other. This summer when my grandmother passed away I spent a lot of time with the family and after probably 20 years, got to see David again. It was nice to catch up with everyone, see their wives/husbands and their children.
This morning after getting dressed for school I hopped on the computer and saw that I had a new MySpace message (email). The message was from David. He told me that he sent me a friend request. He also went on to tell me how proud he was of me and that there was someone out there for the both of us (he is divorced, so is single again) and that I should not lower my standards because the right one was out there. The message was quite simple but left me with that warm, fuzzy, you are loved and cared about feeling. I sent a quick message telling him that he made my day and that he was right, there was someone out there for the two of us.
All of this got me thinking that you really never know what you might say to someone that will make their day brighter. I know that I think all sorts of nice things inside of my head about my friends, family, and co-workers and seldom to the time to tell them how great I think they are or that their hair looks great. It only takes a smile and a kind word to make those around us feel special.
It started raining yesterday afternoon so DD and I never made it to the park. I did get on the stationary bike inside though so I did exercise. My allergies have really kicked in which leaves me feeling pretty crummy. DD and I had dinner, messed around the house for a little while, then crawled into bed to watch 21. I made it through half of the movie before I fell asleep around 8:30. You would think with all that rest I would be feeling energized today but I'm not. I just feel blah and the rainy weather outside isn't really helping. Lol!
Things are going well food and exercise wise though. Even though TOM is here the food cravings have gone away so that's a good thing. Hopefully the extra pounds TOM packed on me will be gone soon so I can really work on getting out of the 180's. Ugh I'm so tired of seeing the same number on the scales day after day.
Yes ladies I have added a new profile picture!! You will never believe it but this is my school picture from this year. Everyone is required to have their pictures made in the fall and these are the pictures that are in the yearbook at the end of the year. I have never been pleased with the way my school pictures have turned out until this year! :)
Today's weight is brought to you by TOM and Mexican -- 191
I'm not worried about it, and I'm not freaking over it. I actually did better at Mexican last night than I have in the past. The conversation was wonderful which resulted in me eating MUCH fewer chips than I normally do. I went with DD, our new second grade teacher (whom I dearly love - she's so bright and bubbly!!), and our art teacher (who is one of the few guys at our school and even though we went to high school together he is someone I never "knew" until he started working at our school several years back. We have recently become closer, talking online, hanging out at school, and the occassional coffee shop visit). We banned the subject of work or our students at dinner last night so we got to learn more about each other on a more personal level which was nice. We plan to make this a weekly tradition.
It is overcast and cool here today so I can't wait to get home, get my running clothes on, and head to the park with DD. I hope you all are having a wonderful Wednesday!
Yes I am disappointed but TOM arrived today in FULL FORCE so I feel too bad with the cramps to even deal with it right now. Today has been a super busy day at work. I need to go ahead and get on the bike as soon as I get home today because I am meeting some co-workers at the local Mexican restaurant for dinner tonight. I am so lucky that I work with people so wonderful that I want to hang out with them when we aren't at work.
How in the hell did that happen? I don't really care, I'm just glad it DID happen. Actually when I first stepped on the scales it read 183.5! Maybe my scale is a crystal ball and is letting me know what Tuesday's WI results will be!
DD and I went and saw Bevery Hills Chihuahua yesterday. The theater was packed, not one empty seat! I was amazed. The movie was really cute! We also did some shopping for some outside fall decorations. Now I just need to trim those bushes in the front of the house so everyone can see how cute the house looks.
Today's weight - 187.4 - down 3 lbs from yesterday's weight. Maybe that 96 oz of water I drank yesterday has something to do with it. :)
I am loving this downward trend in the scales and I am promising myself I will stay at it. I had a bit of drama yesterday afternoon that nearly sent me headfirst into a package of Halloween Pumpkin Reese Peanut Butter Cups but I put on my exercise clothes and went for a nice leisurely run. Something about running always clears my head and yesterday was no exception.
This week has been the longest week in history for some reason. I feel like the days are just dragging on. I am so ready for Friday already!!
