It's Friday. In the past week I have worked out twice, eaten at a restaurant 9 times, Drank more wine than Id like to admit, eaten ice cream and other sweets with wild abandon, shopped like it was going out of style, dealt with a mother who could drive anyone to drinking (seriously, I had a hard time looking her in the eye she bothered me so much) and driven about 500 miles.
And last evening we lost power... we are still without power as far as I know, and judging by the appearance of our street and the 3 down power lines in the less than 1/4 mile from my house to the main road, we may not have it back for awhile.
Ugh.
These should not be excuses to eat poorly, or not to workout. They should not hinder my progress. But they have. I feel so gross. SO GROSS. I mean, I can feel a second chin starting to form. Not all my choices have been bad ones. I gave all but two of my fries to DH last night (I had a healthy dinner in the oven when the power went out, so we HAD to go out again). I forced myself to bring my breakfast and lunch to work with me out of our quickly defrosting freezer instead of hitting Starbucks for sugary pastries and espresso and eating "whatever" for lunch. But even though I dressed for the Y this morning, and even though I pulled into the parking lot, and even though they did have heat, and power, and hot showers, I did not go in. I told myself I needed to get to work, I needed to see if the power was on at home, that I would go after work. I turned around and LEFT.
What the eff is wrong with me?! Where has my motivation gone?! Why am I letting a hectic morning schedule (DHs car still not fixed---bleh!), electrical emergencies, and stressful parental issues stop me? I need to turn this ship around now. All I can think of is that I am going to fall off the wagon completely. I am going to gain all my weight back... I am so convinced of this that I keep thinking: don't spend that GC you got, because you are going to need to buy some bigger sizes soon. WHAT?!??!
I need some help. A kick in the pants to get back to the gym and back into a routine. Suggestions on how to prepare a healthy dinner with no power or heat. Ideas on how to keep things fresh. There is a big BIG part of me that wants to say eff it, I'm taking a break until after Christmas/new years who cares what I gain, or lose workout wise. I'll get back at it after the holidays... but I really don't like that attitude and I'm trying to fight it. HELP!!!!
Posted By: Gvmemoment
Comments to this post:
12/15/2006 12:59
bah..
You are letting your old habits get inside your head - you know as well as anyone that once this "season of decadence" is behind you that will go right back to who you were before - stop beating yourself up over your temporary (the operative word here) indiscretions - and mothers aside (mine drove me to drink a long time ago) have a happy and safe holiday season - it will make getting back to normal that much more satisfying..
First, stop that negative thinking!! It will hurt you far more than the food.
Second, stop making excuses and just do what you need to. If it's unavoidable to miss a few workouts or have to eat out, do your best and let the guilt go. I'm probably within 15 lbs of my original starting weight right now and I feel awful--and it's because I let being busy get in the way. I am trying to turn it around again, and I know that we can both do it. But I don't want you to have to lose again! And you don't have to get out of your comfort range.
I hope the power is back on soon--that's definitely a major obstacle... maybe tell yourself that the hot shower and electricity at the Y are your reward for exercising!
1.) No problem keeping things fresh or frozen--just put them outside!
2.) healthy eating with no heat: turkey sandwich, peanut butter sandwich. When cold food gets unappetizing, then go out--but please skip the fast food!
3.) Set yourself some limits. I'm looking forward to holiday eating, but I decided to try to contain it somehow. I'm doing a 7-day window. I will allow myself to eat off-plan food from Tuesday, Dec. 19 to Tuesday, Dec. 26. That's it. Within that time, I will do my best to control portions so that I don't make myself sick. However, I intend to enjoy myself.
I think you should enjoy yourself, too. The only way to counter all that no-electricity dining out, however, it to GET OUT OF THE CAR AND ENTER THE GYM. I'm laughing as I type this because I've done the exact same thing as you--made it all the way to the door and not gone it. So really, I'm scream-typing at myself.
You're in a weird situation because you're eating off plan and you're not even getting to enjoy it because you're freaking out about it. Either enjoy it or stop! Listen to your inner voice one way or another.
Don't stress over it...everyone is going through the same thing right now! Just go with it for now and then after the holidays make a new plan. There is now way you are going to gain that weight back! Not only will we NOT let you, but I don't think you would ever allow it to happen!
So, eat sensibly most of the time, screw up some of the time, work out when you can, and have some wine! It's almost over....you can do it! Shelley
