Don't Call It a Comeback
Three years ago today I was at my bottom.... and ironically, my top
weight. I was miserable, and after seeing some pictures of myself at
Christmas gatherings, knew it was time to get my act together. I made
some serious changes, and successfully lost 80 pounds over the next 12
months.
I managed to stay in the same weight range for the next 12 months, even
while struggling with a chronic foot injury. Up until my foot problems
came up, I was working out twice a day, and had plans to participate in
a triathlon. Training books were bought, bikes were researched. I ended
up needing surgery in August, and after a long, and not especially
successful rehab process, decided that running was not for me (this was
just the latest in a string of running related injuries). Sadly,
because of continuing pain, most other forms of cardio were also out,
and that coupled with frustration drained my once fierce motivation. I
canceled my Y membership this past June, after not using it once for
more that 3 months.
Between a lack of workouts, and some personal issues, my eating slid
farther and farther from what it once was. The clothes that I could
wear started dwindling. I knew the direction I was heading was not
good, but until recently didn't have wherewithal to do anything about
it. From my past weight struggles I knew that until I was really ready
to give it my all, I would not be successful at getting back on track.
It was a matter of getting myself to that point.
Today I am at there. I am ready to get back to it, and if not get back
to where I was, get to a more comfortable place than I am now. I am
still struggling with foot issues, but am not willing to let that keep
me from doing what I can. I am gym membership less, and will be at
least for a little while, but am armed with Wii Fit, and several
interesting DVD workouts. The search for an indoor pool will commence
soon, and if the snow ever melts around these parts, a bike may be in
my future as well.
I am going back to my modified Core plan eating, even though I am told
that the WW plan has changed. I made it without a WW membership or
attendance to one meeting last time around, and I know I can do it
again. Meal planning will happen this morning, after the fridge is
scrubbed. So long bread and hello whole grains!
I do not know how much I weigh right now. As soon as I step on the Wii
Fit I will, but I don't know yet if I plan on making my weight the
focus this time around. Having the goal to get to a certain weight was
good, and a daily weigh in did help me stay on track, but ultimately, I
don't know if my past low weight is realistic given my circumstances
now, and I don't know if I want it to be. What I want is to feel more
comfortable in my skin again. To be able to fit in more of my pants
again, and feel strong--fierce even! I want to be focused on being
healthy, not what the scale says.
So there is a little bit in the air right now. The graphs on the right
stay the same for now, but I am back for another round. Get ready,
because I can be quite the tornado when I want to be.