Weakness
Man do I suck.
Yesterday, after posting I went back and tracked my food for the last 2
days. I wasn't exact, but close, and the point was that I was owning up to
my decisions and was on track to being on track.
Then went for a Mexican dinner.
I have several weaknesses when it comes to food, but the salty, over cheesed
goodness of Mexican food is probably my biggest problem. Back in the day, I
would be able to mostly skip the chips, and go for a meal that didn't
include many carbs. I could get the black beans instead of the refried. I
could not eat the rice. I could not finish the plate no matter how much it
hurt.
Not last night though. Last night it was a chip and salsa, burrito with
extra guacamole, refried bean and rice fest. At least we could steer clear
of the oreo fried ice cream. And I did only eat about half of it.
But I brought the other half to work with me. I just cannot seem to say no
to that guacamole. I am powerless in it's presence. Powerless.
I also did not workout this morning. I was still sore and didn't want to
over exert myself. I also had physical therapy, and now that I'm "over the
hump" I actually have to do stuff. Like squats, and lunges. And this weird
jumping thing. I mean, I actually sweated. And I was told that the 15 minute
foot massages were over as of today as long as my foot held up. Would it be
wrong of me to feign pain to continue getting the massage? And also,
shouldn't the PT count for something as far as exercise go? I mean, I sweat!
Obviously, it wasn't a full on hard core workout, but I think I'm going to
record it as something towards my weekly calorie-burn goal. Is that
cheating?
I am going to go back and track my dinner last night and upcoming lunch
today. I am going to pull up my big girl panties and take it like a woman.
Own up to my choices and move on. I am also going to get together a more
definite plan to keep on the wagon. Right now things are pretty undefined,
and while I hate thinking about giving up some of the things that I enjoy
now, part of me thinks going back to Core is the best thing for me right now
if for no other reason that it worked before, and that it would be easier to
keep myself accountable. But somehow, it seems so restrictive now...