Making a Plan
This shit has gone on long enough. I need to stop being a baby and, as a
good friend of mine is apt to say: pull up my big girl panties and just do
it. Enough is a freaking-nough, yall. And THIS is where it changes.
Turnaround ahoy!
The most important thing for me to to just stay away from the sugar right
now. I really don't know why I even try to eat it anymore in the first
place, as it makes me nothing but unhappy. So, no more sugar.... for the
foreseeable future.
I need to get my buns back to the gym. For Realsies. Foot be damned, I'm
going to workout. For the longest time I have told myself that if I can't do
40 minutes rocking on the arc trainer that there is no point to going at
all, and THAT is bullish. I am going to go tomorrow morning, and I am going
to workout. If my foot/leg cannot handle the arc trainer then I will just
weight train. After seeing how the arc trainer goes I might decide to swim
again instead... we will see. I WILL go to the gym 3 times this week. And I
WILL do an abs AND a yoga video at least 2 days. I am not making plans for
weekend workouts, but hopefully, Bikram and/or Pilates will be in the cards.
I need to get moving again. this is bordering on pathetic, and I am starting
to feel like an absolute fraud.
Tomorrow morning I will be weighing myself. For the first time since the
beginning of the month, I will get on the scale. I am scared. But it has to
be done. I need to know where I'm at so I can focus on getting better.
Limiting the booze. I'm not going to lie. Tonight I am headed to a
girlfriends house for some wine. And I have plans the weekend before my
surgery to go out with other friends. Other than that, there is no need for
me to drink. All it does is make me hungrier.... and cause me to eat
more/crappier food than usual. So, other than tonight, and 2 weeks from now,
no booze.
Re-read my copy of From Chunk to Hunk, seeing as it's what got me going in
the first place. That book is beyond amazing. Also, re-read some of me old
blog posts. I need to get my head back in the game, and this is how I'm
going to do it.
Track my food intake. I've been using Spark People for probably almost a
year now, but have slacked off some. I was going to wait and re-set my stuff
after my surgery once I was up on my feet, but there is no reason to wait.
It's time to stop ignoring the daily emails, and get back in there and do
something to better myself, rather than just make poor choices and feel
sorry for myself.
Remember that this is not about being a certain weight, but about feeling
good about myself . I have felt so very very crappy the last several weeks,
both mentally and physically, and its because I haven't been treating myself
well. I deserve better than this.
Oh and I *will* be sticking to it. :)