Holding on to the number (or, a glimpse into my crazy thoughts)
After quickly dropping the Mexi-weight I have spent the last several days
hovering around 143ishness, the number I was at before leaving-give or take
some ounces. Normally, no issue. I have made it a point not to worry too
much about the number on the scale, but to look in terms of how I'm feeling,
how well my pans fit (or fall off, as the case may be), and whether or not I
have been on track. My morning weigh-in is more of a daily ritual---a check
in to keep me accountable. But in the last few days, I have felt like the
number on the scale has owned (or as my gamer-geek husband would be quick to
say, PWND!) me. The thought of getting back to 140 haunts me. I feel like I
have to get there---and NOW! There is no real reason to get to 140. It is
just a number that I have picked in my head....but yet I am fixated on it.
and because instead of the steady drop of excess weight has come to an end,
I am becoming too emotionally involved in the number on the scale. I'm
letting it get under my skin, and Im not sure why.
There are several reasons why the scale has not been moving, aside from the
fact that I am at a comfortable weight for me. There was that HUGE salt orgy
last night (oh, but it was worth it--- I just need to give in and get low
sodium soy sauce, but then, whats the point?!) The lack of "movement" in the
bathroom, if you know what I mean, and the 2 sugar filled snacks I splurged
on this week (and regretted instantly because of the headache... why do I
keep doing that to myself, seriously!). I know this. I own this. I'm OK with
it.
But only sorta.
Maybe it's because I have been in a bad mood otherwise for no good reason
this week, maybe it's because the ever-persistent death grip of winter chill
that has been hanging around here since, I don't know, THE BEGINNING OF TIME
(it seems), or perhaps its because I have an out of control list of to-dos
and no motivation to do any of it, but I just can't shake the feeling of
failure (for lack of better word) for not seeing the weight go down.
I don't want any sympathy here people. I want a damn kick in the rear. I
need to ditch the number and purely focus on me right now and not worry
about those stupid 2.8-3.6 pounds at the end of the 140 I see when I wake
up.
Serenity now!
Posted By: Gvmemoment
Comments to this post:
04/04/2007 16:53
*KICK*
Okay here's your kick and now get back to work. Hope that helps LOL. I know what it's like to be stuck at the same weight for a while. I have been doing that for the past 2 or 3 weeks and finally it moves today as you know. Maybe a change is what you need just like I did with Fit TV and I can pick whatever workout I want to do. It's nice to choose and they don't know if you did it or not lol. You'll make to 140. I know you can. If I can make it there, you can too.
Ok, that´s your kick in the rear - get to it! :) But don´t worry about numbers too much, it´s only a number! But as long as you don´t feel good, I know it´s hard. And I tend to get stuck with numbers, too!! But you will make that 140! I really liked your thoughts on maintainance - I think you caught the very essence of it!! That´s really what it´s all about and changes do happen. Tell me about it, I had worked my weight down to pretty much the goal I have now, and then a surprise popped up - my now almost 1 year old baby boy :) Along with my big boy, who´ll be 3 in July absolutely the light of my life. Due to that and a lot of stress (exam, moving, sickness etc.) I gained a lot of weight again, but I´m at it now and doing good. It´s really a never ending journey and we just have to make the best of it! Thanks so much for your encouraging words!! I really appreciate them!
Sorry if I kicked you too hard. You need to rev up that metabolism of yours if you're going to shed those last 3 pounds - Although I just checked your height and am not sure you should bother. I don't know what your build is, but I don't think you should be obsessing about such a small number on the scale if you are already at a healthy weight.
Anyway, if you INSIST, maybe you could change up your workout plan. If you don't already do weights, pick up a few and look for a plan you can follow on the Internet or in a book store. As for your food intake, maybe you could journal what you eat so you are better able to pick up on where you went wrong when your weight goes up.
Above all, don't be so hard on yourself. You look fantastic, and I'm sure you're a lot healthier now than you were at 219.
It is hard when the scale stays the same. But at least you are not gaining. I have to agree sometimes a change in the plan might work for you. It has for me before. Hope you do well. Have a great day. Hugs, Starbright
There was your kick! We all need a good kick in the rear from time to time. From time to time we get this position where we get "stuck" it can be the scale, eating, whatever it is, you will get out of it. Time heals everything. I had the same thing happen to me with the scale, I don't know but I thought I would share and maybe it can help.
but why do we place so much emphasis on it's importance! But really, whether its 140 or 143, it's so close! And you still have to remember that you are way better off now then you were 76 pounds ago! We tend to lose sight of that, don't we?
Whats the point??? The lite soy sauce is still pretty good stuff!! I won't even use the regular stuff anymore. They taste exactly the same and the sodium difference is so worth it! That's the point! :)
I hope you are in a better mood today. Take care and have a great weekend!
I get like this too. I am currently fixated on 118.
I wonder if I'm pushing myself just for the sake of it or if that extra 10 lbs will actually make me feel and look better.
Guess what I'm trying to say is that it is good to follow our goals and girl, you have made it this far, you can absolutely get to 140! But what about other markers (e.g. how your clothes fit, how your body feels, how your muscles are feeling)? I ask this because these are important, perhaps more important than the number on the scale, and they are often things I overlook as well.
Anyway, only you can decide, and if you want to get there, you will!
You getting the exercise you need? Sounds like you already got a kick in the rear from others but get that exercise! Drink tons of water! All of that will help in most aspects, I'll bet. And you'll see success and you'll continue to become more and more motivated as long as you just get yourself up and moving. Give yourself little rewards at the end of the week when you reach your goals, too!
I thought you wanted a reality check that the number doesn't matter, but now I'm all confused by all this kicking your butt toward 140. I'm still going to kick you out of the number obsession, okay?
You don't have to get to 140 this week, or ever. You do have to stop giving yourself headaches and make the switch to low sodium soy sauce, already (trader joe's isn't so bad), but you're fine right where you are, dude. 140-whateverish is all under 150, which means it's under your healthy weight ceiling. So no griping. If 140 is coming, it'll get to your scale soon enough. And if not. who cares. You feel good, you look good, and you're fierce.
Ok, No sympathy here. No kick because Looking at your weight loss you've kicked your own butt plenty! 76lbs!!!!!!!
Instead of the number on the scale, because your body is either gonna move or not, and your doing what you should so dont focus on that. Focus instead on your work outs, inches lost, muscle tone and your mental and physical heath.
You have done friggin great and failure should NOT be in your vocabulary!!!!
Your my idol!!!
Have a great day, wash away the sodium with some great ol H2o
