goal 154 lbs by thurs.

I did 105 min exercise today (mostly walking or lunges).

Officially it's been over a wk of almost completely healthy eating.

have drank 3 times since oct 7 though. every wk i set a goal of only once a wk but boredom or just craving a good buzz gets in the way. sucks

i bought these wraps with 12g of fiber. they are a nice alternative to bread

plan to only drink on thursday.

my ultimate goal is 151 but havent set a date to reach it by.

my overall quality of life right now is lonely and bored so much. no companions as usual and cant foresee much happening in that department. hard time getting a job too. Maybe the light will someday shine thru again for me.

okay so these are my meals i journaled since last thursday.

 

oct 7 (thurs)

b-beef, salad

l-smore

s-roastbeef lunchmeat, omelet,salad,2 eggs

oct 8

b- almonds, carrot juice

l-burger in wrap, steak in wrap

s- cheese, almonds

oct 9

b- almonds, 2 chicken, salad, cheese

l-cheese

s-soup,salad, carrot juice, yogurt

3am snack-1 wrap with dip

oct 10

b-almonds, chicken&cheese wrap

l-wrap,almonds,salad

s-salad,yogurt,milk (1 reeses)

Oct 11

b-2 chicken, salad

l-1 reeses

s-soup,salad,wrap,orange juice

Oct 12

b-reeses (1), chai vanilla tea (it's made with milk)

l-subway flatbread (buffalo chicken), licks of icecream

s-lasagna, salad, wrap w/ krab salad

Oct 13

b-chicken, almonds, chai vanilla tea

l-krab salad wrap, salad

s- not yet

 

any comments?feel free to comment.

I did drink Oct 12 though so i didnt exactlly follow thru with my plan to wait til Saturday. But I figure if I just drink every 4 days it'll be alright as long as I'm eating real good. I know that lasagna and reeses was a few slipups but thats ok. I cant totally be good every moment. For exercise today I lifted dumbbells for 55 minutes. I did the 15 lb ones for 20 min and the rest of the time I mostly did the 10 lb dumbbells.

Almonds, low carb tortilla wraps, yogurt, salads,chicken,cheese. Since the 7th I've eaten just like this. I dont really feel hungry. I exercise 60 or more minutes a day. I was 156 this morning. Yesterday was 155.8 and my weight when I was 18-19 was 150. I know I dont have that much to lose although I considered making a goal of 20 lb loss. So that would be 135 which I havent weighed that in yrs. But anyway I am journaling my meals, doing exercise. I have officially cut out bread, cereal, rice,sweets,potatoes,oatmeal. Basically no high carb items. Its kinda boring and I actually did eat a reeses pb cup last night because I just wanted it. Around the time eggnog hits the stores though, I am going to drink it and plan to make eggnog bread.

This Saturday is my cheat meal (beer) of course. haha

I know I'm not that fat but honestly, I have nothing going on in my life right now so I am focusing on trimming down for something to do I guess.

I was doing my hour walk this morning at 8:20, listening to my headphones to the local radio station. The news was there is a new way to get rid of fat, instead of liposuction they now have this thing that freezes your fat cells. It takes about 3 hours and costs 1200 dollars. I think they said it is safer than liposuction but a little more expensive than lipo.

So I made beer bread last night and gobbled about half of it. Not good for those fat cells, now is it? lol.

My goal today is to eat only when hungry and to avoid cereal, bread, anything carby. That is also my goal for tomorrow and the next day as well.

Anyone watch The Bad Girls Club on oxygen channel? Yeah, I think that the morality of that show has gotten even worse. The girls last year werent that immoral and slutty. Plus I think that Lea and Kristen look like skanks without makeup on. Lea is ugly in my opinion and with that black hair and blonde streaks in the front looks like a skunk. Kristen is clearly not a real blonde. She is pretty when she wears makeup but without it, she is nothing to look at.

And that Brandi chick on there who loves Lea (dont understand why though) should just move on and accept that Lea doesnt want her. Usually thats what people do when u find out the person doesnt really want u, u move on and let it be. Whats the point of putting all that energy into someone who doesnt want or even like u that much? I think it made me look back on my school years when I had friends who turned on me because they didnt want to be teased. They were my friends up to a point and then they made it clear they couldnt be friends with me anymore because other people might tease them. How weak people are. Being an asshole is easier than just standing up for your friend and defending them I guess.

I havent been weighing myself in the past few days. I also have been drinking beer even though I did say I wasnt going to for two weeks. But I guess the difference now is that I'm just working out more to make up for it. I dont really like watching what I eat and I certainly dont like sitting around thinking about diets or how much I am allowed to eat in one meal. Yeah the 4 meals a day with the two items is a good idea but not for me. I know I am better at following my exercise if I allow myself to have what I want when I want it. So maybe I wont really lose much for weight but at least I wont gain. For now I am just doing an hour a day or more. Today was 1 hr 27 min walking, dumbells and a little biking. I also made a mini goal for this week to just drink on Saturday. I know that is a doable goal for me because 6 days without beer is no prob.

cant change my font color to blue. sucky

anyway Welcome back me! havent been here in a long while. Havent gained any weight either. I actually did gain 5 lbs but it wasnt so drastic cuz I went back down again so i am at the weight I was at. Actually I am 158. I was 155 in april. I slacked on my exercise for a few weeks last month due to actually doing things in life that didnt center around my body. Ya know, doing the mom thing and just doing anything but focusing on the fitness. And actually life is more fun when u dont have to focus on that kind of thing. It frees time up for other such adventures. All the while the belly fat piles on and the ugh feeling increases. So back to doing hour workouts (even if its just walking or biking which majority of the time that is what it is). My plan this time is to eat 4 times a day and eat only two things for each meal. That basically means I can pick 2 things I want to eat (say a slice of pizza or piece of chicken or a sandwich and then one other thing) and thats it for the meal. Of course I've noticed I felt a bit bloated today and not thinking eating the mac and cheese and sugary cereals would have such an impact, I need to just cut out carbos.

I am going to have more time to exercise cuz my son starts school (only a few hours in the morning though, its not all day). They say eating frequently throughout the day helps binge eating later in the day so that is why i chose the 4 meals a day with the two items for each meal. I also have cut the beer out too for the next two weeks.

 

 

As for how my life is going these days, very much a homebody and very much bored a lot and stuck doing the same old every day. No wonder I drink! lol. So I dont know, just got to relax and focus on getting in better shape cuz really thats all I have right now. I have no other goals at the moment. It always comes back to the body and the self improvement, doesnt it? At the rate I've been going, too many couch trips and beer and food just isnt helping me. It's making me feel worse about myself. I did gain 5 lbs in a few weeks due to those reasons. I also got my license back so that makes it easier to just pork out too. I was 160 starting this year and dropped 5 lbs in the spring but gained it back and then dropped 2. So 158 is the number. I am writing down how many minutes of exercise each day. Today was 92.

brkfst- yoplait light yogurt,green tea, bite of reeses,juice

lunch-turkey chili no beans with rice&franks hot sauce,kashi go lean crisp cereal, yoplait yogurt

and supper is not here yet although i did have another yoplait yogurt so i will count that as part of my supper when I do eat next. But it is 7 and I am not really feeling the hunger yet so maybe I wont eat. If I do though you know it will be healthy and light. I had a headache earlier dunno why maybe it was the stress of my 2 yr old and my dad and grandma who easily get annoyed.

 

My thoughts on green tea:

I dont rate it as my favorite kind of tea I prefer chai tea actually. I dont mind it though. Its not something I will buy on a regular basis. I like the lipton sweetened green tea in the plastic bottles.

My thoughts on vpx meltdown:

I dont think it's what the product claimed or what the people said it does. It doesnt do that much I dont think. I mean its supossed to be extreme fat loss for 8 hrs well what fat loss? I barely lost anything on it. If its supossed to be that good it should be working harder than it is.

I fluctuate in weight. 163,161,158,160 is a constant back and forth game. So 159 is not much of a feat in a month. I am maintaining, been maintaining for awhile now. I started the vpx meltdown about two weeks ago and only noticed a slight decrease in appetite so I wouldnt say its some miracle. I upped the dose to 5 instead of 3 pills a day. I have been drinking green tea for the last two days, not much though. I average only a couple cups. All the diet pills and programs out there all tout the same thing: Eat right, exercise. And take this pill to lose weight. Or drink green tea to lose weight. Well I guess you could just eat right and exercise and not take anything and lose weight too without buying anything.

I been trying to eat food that is considered diet food although the evening sugar cravings come on and make that a little hard. I havent been giving in (too much) but I did eat a few pieces of chocolate last night. I am afraid if I dont make something dessert like soon I will cave in to that box of suzy q's that my dad buys.

yes, that is todays weight. pretty much maintained this week all month. now started on the DREN (or drenbuterol) and its my second day taking it. it is okay, havent noticed any euphoria like the product box says you will feel. My appetite isnt much changed, I still want to eat. and I am still craving sweet stuff. So I am not sure..maybe it takes a few days to do anything. It claims its an instant feeling though of appetite suppression, euphoria. I hope its burning up some fat though. If I could change any part of my body it would be MY STOMACH. after having a couple babies, my belly is saggy and just disgusting. yeah I lost 40 lbs but its still saggy.

Okay yes I admit, I am drinking still. No suprise there. I dont feel bad though. I made a goal of sticking with no more than 4 and at the end of the month I plan to allow a drunk day. not all day being drunk but just allow myself to have 8 or so beers on just the one day. Yeah, I'm working out an hour a day and lifting 10lb dumbbells and writing down what I eat. I did eat two donuts today though. But like everyone knows, it isnt the two donuts that will break you. It is the two donuts every day that will break you.

In 2008 I didnt try that hard to lose weight mainly because of my weakness for beer and inability to completely cut it out of my diet made the numbers pretty much remain the same. I did lose 10 lbs without trying this year.

In 2009 I didnt try to lose weight, was happy where I was at. a little depression in the early part of the year made me drop 10 lbs again without trying. I continued to drink so it just proves that drinking isnt always the reason for not losing. I have remained 160 all year and just recently went up to 163. Especially around period time the scale was around 163 but now its back down to 161.4 as of today.

I started out Jan 1 saying I dont want to drink all month just as a personal challenge. So far I have followed through. I only had one beer yesterday. I dont count it if its only one. Ya know? That is like saying one cookie or one soda. But anyway I really have a time sticking with goals like that. I dont feel I am fat so that is usually my reason for not caring. Yeah, yeah I'm babbling here. Are u still with me? haha. Um, so yeah I bought these 2 pills thru the internet called DREN and VPX Meltdown. Both are supossed to be great at appetite suppression, energy increase, mental focus, blah blah. U get it. I havent started taking them yet but I will be. I have a goal of at least 159 I'd like to be at.

As far as not drinking all month, easier said than done. Already I feel like getting buzzed up tonight. aah!! it sucks to want something you dont want yourself to have. Then I start to compromise with myself saying i can drink but not get drunk. Well thats actually pretty easy for me, just 3 beers would be fine. but then i get afraid its gonna turn into more once i actually have those 3.

 

As far as the fiber one diet went, it barely went thru. I followed it for about two days and then deviated from the plan. Its easy to do that because I get bored easy with diets. I have been taking apple cider vinegar but I am not sure if that even really works anyway. They say it cuts appetite but I have not noticed.