A Long Time Away

It's been forever since I've been on this website and to be perfectly honest I don't know how I feel about writing on this blog anymore. I feel like my life on WW and my life back in June/July has been an eternity away.

I got an email from someone on this site asking why I had been away so long....gosh.....I simply don't know where to start. I guess I'll start by saying that I was afraid to journal on here anymore. There are so many people on here struggling to lose weight or gain encouragement from those on their weight loss journey. In a way...I was one of the super successful ones on WW. I lost consistently each week and reached all my goals without a glitch. It's not to say that I didn't have my internal battles or internal struggles but compared to many....I did great. Now I feel like I'm paying the price for all of this great success.

Let's fast forward past my trips to the TN mountains, Atlantic City, my best friend's wedding (in which I was a bridesmaid) and my 'bout with the law b/c someone stole my credit card number.....let's breeze past all of those time consuming events to Labor Day weekend.

I went home on Labor Day weekend to attend my 10 year high school reunion. I was elated b/c I had reached my goal....had a fabulous red dress to wear...and looked my best! It was if I was the belle of the ball. I was on cloud nine....and didn't realize that sometimes those clouds cannot even hold the skinny people up! The day after my class reunion I started having excrutiating pain. Unbearable pain that I thought I would never live through. I went to the doctor and got admitted into the hospital for tests. It was determined that my gall bladder has failed and quit working. So now I'm on a completely fat free diet before surgery and for one month after surgery. The doctors think my drastic weight loss along with my drastic change in eating habits combined with me taking birth control pills did this to me. For people who lose weight too quickly.....the gall bladder can be affected. And for me....this was the case. So I stopped trying to even think about extrapounds.com b/c I felt like I didn't belong anymore.

Instead of trying to lose weight....I'm trying to gain it. I've lost 4 lbs in the past week and a half from eating fat free due to my gall bladder and I'm desperately trying not to lose weight and find things to eat that will help my body before and after surgery. I have surgery on the 25th of September and feel my body wasting away. Never in a million years would I have imagined that instead of struggling to lose weight I'd struggle to keep it or gain it. So I have ambivilant feelings about being on here anymore.....I miss the friends I made on here but don't know really what to say anymore b/c I'm upset at how quickly I lost the weight and now I'm having to have surgery. Please keep me in your prayers!

Long Time Gone...

First of all, I'm glad to hear from you!  Second, I wouldn't say that you don't belong.  I think that this site is for people who are struggling with so much more than their weight and their weight is just a symptom of the greater problem.  This is a community of women (and a few men) who are here to gain health and confidence, and no one here would want to stop hearing from you simply because you've had a set back, rough patch, or because you need to gain and not lose.  No matter what, we are here to support you and offer you prayers and hope, be it in gaining or losing weight.  My prayers are with you and I hope that all turns out well for you.  Keep us posted on when your surgery is and how you did!  I'm sure all will turn out well.  <<HUGS>>>

You look lovely

In your pic from Aug '06! I know you are feeling shitty right now, but I just wanted to tell you that you look beautiful. Like Bethany said, we are here to support YOU and what you are dealing with regarding weight and life. So, your issues are the reverse of the majority of people on here, that's ok by us, since you are the same person that was going thru it all! I send you all of my prayers, good thoughtss, vibes and best wishes for a successful surgery and speedy recovery. Please do not feel out of place here. Losing weight, gaining weight- it's all about weight issues! Just focus on getting well, and check in when you feel up to it!!

Well Hallooo!

It's really nice to see you back, however unfortunate the circumstance.  I can relate to not feeling that sense of belonging because you aren't struggling.  While I'm still losing, this really isn't a tough thing for me to do and I really have a hard time relating to those who do struggle.  That said, in the end it's your blog, and if it feels good to vent about needing to gain a few, far be it for me to argue.  I'll still support you, because it's about overall health, however you have to get there.  I'm sorry to hear about your gallbladder.  I hope you're able to rest up in a minimum of discomfort while you await your surgery.  Take care and best wishes!

And!

I meant to mention..your updated pix look amazing!!!  Even comparing to your London pix, your arms have a lot more definition now.  You really do look great.  I hope you're able to feel as good as you look soon.

Healthy Healing Vibes!

Hi sweetie! Don't know if you are checking your blog, but I wanted to swing by and let you know that I am thinking of ya! I hope that surgery was successful on 9/25. Please stop by and let us know how you are feeling when you have a free minute. Sending you all the healthy vibes I can, from NYC. Hugs!