Decisions
So I finally decided last Thursday not to renew my WW subscription and try this whole healthy eating and living on my own! Last Thursday was the deciding day b/c the week before I had quit using points and still lost 1.5lbs! Although I've had great success with WW....I felt like it was time for me to test my own strength and decision making abilitites.
This week has been extremely stressful in my personal life plus I've had TOM and then today I felt like a failure with my decision. I got on the scale and for the first time in this whole entire dieting time I had gained .5 lb. I know most of you are rolling your eyes at me now but you have to understand that I even went to the gym for the first time in forever and my biggest fear is that since I'm doing my eating/living without points that I'm so afraid I'll gain all the weight back. I really wish I had measured myself during this process b/c then I'd know if it was muscle weight gain or true weight gain.
I hate to have blog entries where I feel down and out b/c I'm a pretty upbeat person....but at the same time I realize that if I don't get everything off my chest it will brew and the concoction will not be good!
So I end this entry with a parting question.....why is decision making so hard for me?....and why can't I be confident in my decisions these days?!