Feeling Better Everyday!

Weather-wise, this week has been a dream!  Although I've only walked one morning this week, I've been gardening nearly everyday.  What a work out!  I went to bed sore everyday, but proud of the work I've done!  I finally mulched this morning, and now I can sit back & enjoy it for awhile!

I am occasionally feeling the afternoon slump that I always have, but if I distract myself, or start a project, I can usually work through it, which is something I never did.  I think a long history of carbohydrate-laden lunches led to my afternoon crash! 

My clothes are really starting to get looser!  I am already wearing pants & shirts that I couldn't wear last summer.  Wow! 

Here's hoping that everyone is having as much or more success than me!  I know in Ohio, it's too beautiful to be staying indoors lately! 

grateful_girl

First Weigh-In with the Doctor

Hooray!  I went to the doctor on Monday, and found out that I've lost 17 pounds!  He said he was really proud of me, and I'm pretty proud myself.  I can feel my clothes getting looser, and yesterday, 2 people at work asked me if I was losing weight, they said they could tell in my face!  Now, if I could just get these DD's to go somewhere!  Ha!

A decent week of forgiveness

I go back to the doctor on Monday for my first weigh in since I started the adipex.  I'm excited to see where I'm at.  I'm glad I have this site to keep my body measurements, I think that's just as much of an indicator of my loss.  Plus, I have been making a point to walk at least 45 minutes, every other day, and do sit ups & push ups here & there. I seem to be losing steadily, but I've decided to be less rigid with my diet...it's killing me!  I am slowly adding carbs back in my diet, mostly with fruit, which I am craving!  I must say, I really do feel better & I can already get into some pants that I couldn't wear a month ago! 

Terrified to Binge again!

Hey everyone, I'm up, it's 1:30 a.m. and Billy & Casey (boyfriend & dog) are sleeping quite soundly, I can hear them snoring from my office!  I wonder if I can't sleep because I'm hungry.  You may ask, why don't you eat something?  Well, because I'm scared!  The other day, I felt like this, and tried to grab a handfull of almonds, or something healthy, but I kept looking at the cabinet door with the easter candy in it. (I tried to hide it from myself), well, I just became OBSESSED with the idea of having some chocolate, that I told myself, what is 1 or 2 little pieces going to do?  Well, before I knew it, I was eating a handfull of malted milk eggs (my favorite!), then of course, I wanted something salty, so I had a couple of handfulls of baked lays, then, I had 1/2 a granola bar, hating myself the entire time!  It was like I couldnt' stop myself, kind of like the way I used to feel when i would binge.  I knew I would feel terrible, but something inside of me couldn't stop!  I am so scared that once I'm off the adipex, that I'm going to slip up, I can't bear the thought!  Maybe this is more of a mental thing for me.  I obviously can't decipher when I'm physically hungry, and when I just need to put stuff in my mouth.  Oh well, just wondering if anyone else out there feels the same way?

On a good note, I'm over 10 lbs lost in about 3 weeks.  My scale is about 7 pounds off of the doctors I think, I'm about to invest in a new one.  I took off walking today, and felt really great while I was out there.  Please God, give me the motivation to do this for real!

Good Night Y'all!

grateful_girl

I lost my first 10 pounds! :)

Okay, so I'm extatic this morning, after dreadfully climbing on the scale, I've lost my first 10 pounds!  Hooray!  Now, If I could just notice it in my clothes (I'm sure it will be soon), then I would be super-motivated to keep on going! 

You know, I really feel as though I'm making LIFESTYLE changes here.  I think in the past, when I was dieting, I would tell myself, "I can't wait till this is over & I can go have some fries & cookies!"  Now, I keep reminding myself that fries & cookies will eventually make their way back into my life, but in controlled portions, and as a special treat.  I think this is the way I need to be thinking.

Also, I've tried to start some toning exercises!  My little puppy, Casey, thinks I'm getting on the floor to play with him, and as I do my leg lifts & crunches, he just lays beside me, licking my face!  He's so sweet!

Well, as always, good luck to all of you out there!  I'm sure I'm not alone in my successes, and if you'd like someone to know about yours, drop me a line, I'd love to hear!

grateful_girl

I'm proud!

Although this may not seem like a big deal to some people, as of today, I've stuck to my diet (low carb- high protein) for 2 whole weeks!  I'm so proud of myself!  This is no small feat, let me tell you! 

In the past, I've tried to diet, but it seemed like the more I thought about eating healthy, the more I wanted cheeseburgers & fries!  I always let my temptation win, and I ended up feeling ashamed, dissapointed, and defeated.

That's not to say that I've not slipped up in these two weeks!  Just Sunday, our friends asked us over for dinner, and said they were grilling steaks.  Perfect! I thought, I can totally have steak!  When we got there, we had a glass of wine & my hunger just seemed to grow as I watched the steaks marinate & cook on the open fire!  When we were getting dinner, I wasn't even thinking, and I grabbed a baked potato!  My boyfriend looked at me like, "what the hell are you doing?", because as I have obsessed about this lifestyle, he too, has had to hear all about it, and is now pretty well informed!  I was SO HUNGRY, and the potato was cooked perfectly, I gave in.  Let me tell you though, it was delicious!  Having not had any potatoes in nearly 2 weeks, I can honestly say it was probably the best baked potato I'd ever had.  After dinner, when I was full, I started to feel bad, and my boyfriend knew it.  He reminded me not to beat myself up about it, and that tomorrow was just around the corner, with another chance.  You know, he was right!  I got up Monday morning, did an extra 10 minutes of walking (my penance?) and made peace with myself & that damned potato!

I know that this will happen from time to time, and I need to prepare myself, and more importantly, when it's a planned "splurge", to enjoy it!  Savor every bite, eat it slowly!  Like I said, it's only been 2 weeks, but the energy I'm already starting to feel is a great motivator to get out there & exercise!  Plus, this nice Ohio weather is just begging for us to get out in it!

The BEST OF LUCK to everyone around here, just the fact that we're here shows that we have initiative to do something good for ourselves.  I know that we can be successful with patience & perseverance!  Slow & steady wins the race!

grateful_girl

Hello out there!

Hello out there in cyber-space, it's grateful_girl here.  My sign in name refers to my LOVE of the Grateful Dead, and their music & following, and also to the fact that I am grateful in general.  It is a concept that is humbling, enlightening, and really day-brightening!  Among many other things, I am grateful for my family, my friends, and my ability to get up everyday and experience life. 

You may ask, what brings you here?  Well, it's the fact that I'm overweight, and planning to do something about it.  Since 7th grade, when I began to gain weight with puberty, I have been on a a slow, but steady incline as far as the scale goes.  In the last few years, I feel as though my overeating has become a compulsion, and that when I am overeating or bingeing, I am not myself, but a monster who needs food, lots of it, at any cost.  If I start to think of how much money has been wasted in fast-food drive throughs, only to leave me feeling stuffed & tired, well, I get sad.  I realize that only I can change ME, and that's what I'm wanting to do.  With my doctors permission, I am starting a health-plan that includes taking adipex-p, phentermine, as an appetite-suppressant, as well as adding a healthy diet & regular exercise to my daily life.  I am only 2 weeks into my program, but have already lost 4 pounds, and have much more energy.  I am trying to follow a low-carb diet & do at least 30 minutes of activity a day.  I know that with persistance will come rewards, but I still struggle every day, even as motivated as I am right now.

I guess it's an un-ending battle I will fight everyday.

Anyhoo, that's me, and that's why I'm here.  I will try to check this often, and with your support & encouragment (I will be reciprocal too!) I think we can all do this.  I know for me, it's time to invest in myself, not my cravings & emotions!

My advanced thanks & good luck to all!

grateful_girl