Biggest Looser

The biggest looser USA has finally finished here and I have loved watching this season it has given me so much inspiration.  I have just watched the final and Im so glad a girl won it this year, just watching it has given me a lot of motivation to turn this week around and lose some weight,,,granted I only have 3 days now to bring it back around I am just really hoping that i dont put on and i stay the same.  So gunna exercise my arse off these next 3 days.

 I also have to get my bedroom sorted this week, finally pack all my stuff, throw away all my junk and make that huge move to lincoln.  Cant wait to be finally settled.  My bedroom at the minute is like a bomb site, I think i burn calories just looking at the task that i have ahead of me.

Blown it!

So lost 4 pounds in two weeks which i am really chuffed about and how do i celebrate it...By stuffing my face the last two days, drinking WKD blue (the worst pointed drink ever) and just not caring.  Why do i do it to myself...liek today i didnt eat one chocolate bar I ate three...was their any need for it NO so why do i do it.  I have tried to work out why psychologically i do these thinks, sometimes i feel like a bulimic who binges on anything and everything but unlike them i forget to throw up (I know thats awful to say but sometimes i feel like that, i just eat everything in sight i must look a right pig)I need to really pull my finger out this week and get exercising every day to try and see a weight loss on the scales this coming wednesday, but i really need to get to understand why i splurge on food so much otherwise i will have a weight problem into my 60's. It can just be so damn hard sometimes.

Just said goodbye to my boyfriend for two weeks  so i wanna lose loads of weight these next two weeks so he can go 'WOW' when he gets back, also just got my last marks back from uni and I got 65% so its looks like i will be getting a 2:1 classification which im so chuffed so i really need to lose these pounds for the photos.  Tomorrow is a fresh day and i promise to keep on track.

Bye Bye two pounds!

I just just made the dreaded walk into town (Its all exercise i suppose) to pick myself up some Weight watchers bathroom scales,, i was well excited in the shop there is so many to choose from i thought i gotta pick some good ones as these are gunna be my best friend and my worst enemy for years to come.  I had a little blip in town though i ended up getting a chicken royal meal from Burger King which was a big mistake it was nice though.,,,,once i finished i felt really guilty but i thought no why should i be guilty this is my first blip and im going to make up by having a light tea.  So its not big deal, the only regret was it might effect my weigh in. 

So I made that terrible walk back got the scales straight out and faced my fate it said 11 stone 12, finally out of the 12 stones thank god and lost 2 pounds this week.  Im so happy,, week two done roll on week three.  Gotta be extra good this week though they will be a few nights out and a BBQ to contend with so gotta keep this motivation up !!!!

Not the best weekend ever,

I cant seem to fill up this weekend, I eat but then I dont dont ever feel full eg i had a very late breakfast of cocopops but 30 minutes later i wanted to have my dinner even though i have just eaten.  Had my tea early tonight as i was starving so had a ww Curry micro meal and a yoghurt and i hope to exercise in an 1 hour.  I think its due to time of the month its my first proper one in about a year so im proper strugling with my control, think im gunna try and do my 30 minutes on the cross trainer then have a nice hot chocolate and watch a movie hopefully this will stop me thinking about food.   I know that i have to be extra strict with myself due to that pizza splurge i had.

What have i done lol

Just after posting that i have lost two pounds and exercised my arse off my parents come in with a pizza...at first i think hmm im not gunna have any....then i thought hmm that smells delicious I will only have a slice.  Then once its cooked and on my plate i go beserk and eat shit loads of it.  So now im sat feeling overly full, feeling guilty, feeling disapointed within myself and just hoping that it wont affect the scale as a lost next week will bring me back in the 11 stones.  I dont want to undo the hard work i have put in this week so i have to work extra hard now gunna try and exercise everyday and make sure that I eat properly.  I just hope that this wont affect my weigh in argh im so annoyed. 

Bye Bye 2 pounds

Okay I come back to my parents this weekend and their is some scales so decided to get weighed, my normally weigh day is a wednesday but got weighed today and the scales said 2 pounds down.  Woot,,,I am over the moon that 2 pounds of fat has gone at first i was disapointed as usually the first week of dieting i lose about 4 pounds granted this is due to water loss but reflecting back i dont care that i didnt lose 4 pounds or half a stone as I am happy with just losing two.  Two is a good number off my target, plus to add to my day i have just done 5.4Km on the cross trainer that we have at home and did it in 37 minutes not sure if that is a good time but i was well happy as i didnt stop and worked my arse off.  Roll on next weigh in.

 Note to self - I must buy some scales for my flat in lincoln so i can weigh in regualry each week.

Week One has finally finished but....

I dont know how much weight I have lost....Felt shit the last couple of days so havent managed to go into town to buy me some scales.  Hopefully will go tomorrow if i feel up to it but i have the dilemma, should i get weighed tomorrow for the week or just wait until next week now?

I am still on this band wagon which is surprising although i did have a small slice of cake but i had a bite then chucked it away as i though what am I doing?   Felt too tired to do exercise today but got a text frm my boyfriend saying his friend was coming round after work, I have never moved so quick in my entire life, i cleaned the whole flat in about an hour lol....granted its only a one bedroom flat but an hour is a record for me lol.  So finally finished the flat then i get a text saying that this friend isnt coming anymore lol....so in the end i thought sod it might as well exercise now so I put my Davina DVD on and did that as well.  All in all the day was okay, I am hungry now though and i have just eaten my tea im just gunna have a tangerine plenty of water and hope that i dont raid the fridge later on.....

All in all the first week has being good roll on week Two.

Day before weigh in.

Well I have completed my first week get weighed tomorrow and im very excited because i have eaten well and done lots of exercise so if i dont lose weight i will be very pee'd off.  Always when i start a diet and i get in this frame of mind and very motivated i do well its after the weeks as passed and im getting sick of watching wat i eat or when i eat the same things when i get side tracked. 

This time i gotta keep strong though, I know i have to change the way i eat and the way i percieve food but noone said it would be difficult.  Im 23 and already i am saying that it feels like i have been on a diet since secondary school i do not want to get to 40 and think of i have wasted 40 years worth of miserable dieting.  So the question is can i do it this time?  That is a question i will be answering when i get to my graduation, I know that I will not get to my goal by graduation but I want to be as close as I can get to it so making that my target.    Even if i lose 1 pound a week, then thats 10 pound off for graduation and i would be very happy with that ideally i would like to get more off and i could get more off but i really do not want to chance losing my motivation by trying to reach unreachable goals, my PE teacher taught me SMART way to setting targets. 

S - Specific - Lose 10 pounds by 8th September

M - Measurable - Weigh in every Wednesday, Measure in pounds :)

A - Attainable - 1 pound a week is more then attainable.

R - Realisitic - Again 1 pound a week is realistic, some weeks i may lose more but some weeks i will put on so 1 pound a week sounds good

T - Time-based - Graduation is on 8th September got to look forward to the cap and gown and those dreaded pictures (not so dreaded with 10 pounds off) so 10 weeks till then. 

So here is my target, now all i need to do is go into town and buy myself some scales so i can clock my weight tomorrow!!

The Dreaded Weekend.

Well so far this week I have done really well, i have exercised with the lovely Davina everyday apart from today as this is my rest day.   I really struggle on the weekends normally its a take away and a movie, but this weekend its being healthy pasta,  WW lasagne and weatabix (Not all in one sitting) so i am really happy with myself.  Just gotta keep this momentum going which i believe i will this time.  It is a lot easier to diet and exercise when you have nothing to do so gotta make good use of the time ive got untill i get a job.   Roll on graduation :))))

Day one / Day two

Okay so started yesterday and I had a pretty good day, I feel really positive this time just hope i can keep it up.  The problem with me is that this positive feeling doesnt last.  Today has started well got up had breakiee which I never ever do and looking forward to doing exercise this afternoon woot.