SAD or just sad?

For some reason, i have been really down the past few days, i cant shake it. Every night i talk with my boyfriend about somthing, and every night i always end up realising our realationship is very weak at the moment. I know only i can really change that, but i feel like im loosing a battle that only im really effortly fighting for. Since he started his new job hes been very work foccussed which is fine, but when he gets home he cant switch off from it and he will just be ion a low mood from exhaustion and no matter what i do for him it really doesnt make much difference....which sucks really.

So with me failing to make him happy it makes me depressed, and then he cant/wont make me happy so were both just unhappy and stubborn and miserable.

But on the upside, i walked to town today and wasnt a lazy bitch, and went job hunting again. I handed in an application form for ann summers, blacks (i have worked for before) and i got a application from virgin. I may have applied somwhere else, but i forgett easily it seems.

No phone calls from anyone yet, but hopefully i will get some soon. Need to start the money flowing in.It may mean i dont get much of  a lie in anymore, (which will suck) as i will end up working both saturday and sunday possibly.Id rather work evenings in the week and have weekends free for me time and cleaning time lol.

So i felt tired asnd exhausted walking home today, almost jumped in a taxi, but i thought id save money and the extra 2 mile walk with weight would do me good.

i wish i could shake this depression, because deppression really effects how much weight you loose. I guess i am a bit lonely this week. Oh well back to college soon..... :-s