well I stuck to it for one week total.....I did however was not perfect there was a couple of days that I ate a little more than I should have, and I only got to the gym two times this week. Due to children school functions. But I managed a loss.....gives me the motiviation to keep moving forward. I also got the biggest motivation of all....I am going to be going thru my very first IVF cycle the end of April. So my main goal is to get to 200 pounds by March 25. I know it is a big goal to set for myself but I can do it......I proved to myself this week that the little changes equal great results. So for this week I am going to try to stick with the eating plan that I used last week and I am going to try not to have those days where I eat a little more than I should. And the biggest of all is I am going to try to get to the gym 3x this week. Monday for sure and then Tuesday I have my sons wrestling meet, Wednesday we are going to get our taxes done. So Thursday and Saturday will probably be the days I get there. If I schedule it in and tell my two girls what I am doing they will be ready and waiting when I get home from work on those days and they have been really good about making sure I go. If I even in the slightest say I don't want to they are good about reminding me why I need to go. So next week I am hoping to report another loss. Even if it isn't as big as this one. As long as it is a loss I am happy. I am hoping for two pounds a week. I know that doesnt get me to two hundred by the end of march but it will get me to where I was before. I can't wait to say goodbye to the 230's YUCK I can't believe I have let myself get this overweight. Well best of luck to everyone this week.

ok so I have had a small slip in my goal. I gave into that stupid emotional eating thing again. Instead of working thru my stress and anxiety with exercise I reverted back to my old ways again. But I have an even bigger goal now well not so much a goal as a huge reason to lose weight something that I was worrying about and stressing over for awhile now. We are going to have a baby. No I am not pregnant yet but I will hopefully will be in June. We are doing IVF and I go for my consult on Friday Jan 22. I went once before but I had a change in jobs and had to cancel the whole cycle because of insurance issues. But it is back on now. But I need to lose some weight before April. So starting today which yes I admit I didn't do so well I am focusing on eating better and getting back to the gym. I know what I am going to eat for meals for the next few days I was thinking about taking advantage of the weight watchers free sign up to go for a week and try it again but it gets expensive I was thinking about just stopping there and picking up the points calculator and doing it at home. I may do this I don't know for sure. Or I may just keep track of my calorie intake I don't know I do know though that I am going to see what this site has to offer me without having to purchase a membership.  And I want to  be more active in my blogging.. Well I had better run I have tons of stuff to do before tomorrow. Well take care everyone and wish me well on my baby journey.

funny thing...I made it thru Christmas down hmmmm how did that happen when I ate like a little piggie pie....so now comes the new year and everyones new found dedication to being fit. Am I ready for the extras at my weekly water aerobics class? Sure thing pools big enough I guess...do I want them there no not so much. I am getting selfish about my water aerobics night. It is so bad that the last two nights I went my usual instructor wasn't there to whoop my behind..and I missed her. YIKES huh...scary though...so has anyone heard of the flat belly diet? I seen the book and cookbook on amazon and thought hmmmmmmmmm I am always on the lookout for new and exciting things to eat I have a picky family and trying to find things that are healthy and that they will eat is sometimes hard. I have been putting in some extra hours at work...which is nice a little extra kaching in the pocket never hurts....well I had better get back to business and get the monday night football game on. I am totaling ignoring the fact that I don't think I will make my weight goal by the fixed date but I tell ya what I will be down...not to goal but I still have some more time and plenty of water aerobics before then. I might surprise myself yet. Well Happy New Year to anyone who stops in to read this boring old blog. I entertain myself with it I guess thats what matters most. Right. Night

Well its been a week....just about....so I weighed myself today and was pleasantly ruprised by what I saw. I was expecting a pound or two but I lost 4 which is awesome all on its own. I made little changes last week like I said, I could have been a little better about not eating crap I did have two cookies at the christmas party and four peices of pizza for supper one night. But I did however get my exercise in for the week made my goal of three days...two water aerobic nights and one day off cardio I wll move on the weights later....little changes right now...This week I am going to concentrate on making sure I have a little more control of what I eat...I didn't eat like I use to but I still could cut down a little more...but little steps...week one was a success but I have a long way to go till my goal...but I am going to get there...I have the motiviation to do this..........I feel better too....I feel a little different...I like the way I feel...I want to continue on this postive journey...with God, my family,myself and extra pounds I will meet my goal.............

So tonight is the finale of the Biggest Loser..how I love that show....well today is day two. I did really well yesterday, I know I didn't eat the most healthy choices. But I did however not have a single treat of any kind. I drank the recommended amount of water and I went to water aerobics. Tomorrow is our Christmas party at work. Am I going to pig out like I use to? No, but will I have one small sweet treat to curve the craving so I don't have a massive pig out. I will try to eat small portions like I did last night for supper. Small changes equal big changes right?...that is what they say. So for now I am doing well....I was going to wait for my one month to be over before I weighed myself but I think I might do a weekly weighin....I set a fairly high goal for weight loss in the first month. But I do believe it is acheivable if I strive for it. I will continue to exercise three times a week...that is my biggest adjustment to make for now....once I get the exercise down then I will focus on better nutrition...but just cutting back on the crap and moving more I am hoping will help me along the way. Well I had better get myself going...supper time soon, and I want to have the kitchen cleaned in time to watch the biggest loser........go LIZ........................

I am ready now, I finally have come to a place where I really feel ready to creat the new me. I have had so many excuses as to why I couldn't lose weight. But they were just that. I have had  alot to think about this past year. Alot of that has had to do with my desire to have a family. I have three children who I love and adore, my husband has no children and this past year we have suffered alot of lows that made me question if really is this the right time to add a baby. One part of my brain has so many cons that it out weighs the pros. I have I feel found a peaceful resolution that I feel is God helping me find my way. I lost touch with myself for such a long time. I made so many bad decisions and some poor choices in my life. I am and will in the next year purge myself of all of that baggage. Over the year I am setting mini goals for myself that I know with a little hard work and my desire and with God on my side anything is possible. I need to believe in myself, something that I haven't done for along time. I have a wonderful husband and three wonderful children a job I love now I have to love myself and then I will have the baby  that I want, to creat a family one bond that links us all. So this is for myself. That is what matters.

 

Major goal

under 190 by sons granduation

 

mini goals

water aerobics mon and wed and one other day of Community Center

brush teeth EVERY NIGHT....not just every other and every morning ( don't always remember to brush at night) and floss more

try to eat a consistent diet cutting out the bads no pop for the month, one small sweet treat once a week needed to ward off the pig out that comes with going cold turkey