Sharing in Class
I found that I couldn't share in a 7 week course I'm taking through a local church. It's called "Me, Myself & Lies" by Jennifer Rothschild about Negative self-talk and cleaning those thoughts out of our head.
At any rate, we were asked to share the thoughts in our head when we get down on ourselves or the name that we call our self. I heard the participants say things like 'My hair looks funny" or " I am a weak person" . I just couldn't bring myself to share because I am much more hard with myself. My current "name" that runs through my head is fat fuck. Yes, that is how I refer to myself in my head. But I have a lot of negative thoughts and I think that I am wasting my time in the class because the other half of my brain says "Dummy, if you want to lose weight, why are you sitting for an extra 2 hours on a Monday night"!!! I feel like I should be using my freetime to do some exercise. not that I am doing any now in my freetime, mind you., but it seems like I "might" want to on Monday nights.
I need to tap into some inner strength to start exercising. I figure, I'm abusing my body with the amount of food I'm stuffing in there.. not to mention the frequency of eating, or reasons for it like anytime i have an emotion to deal with I pretty much turn to food. I'm addicted.