Oh, I'm feeling better now but earlier I was horrible. A non-morning person and lots of stress do not go well together at all. Just had a little outburst with someone this morning. Wasn't expecting it at all but I felt almost an immediate reliefe when I was finished lol. Really not healthy or nice to keep so much stress inside like that. So guess that's something I need to work on as well.
I did my weekly weigh in yesterday morning. And I lost about 2 of the pounds I had suddenly gained. Wish it would've been more.
I really need to find a good exercise schedule for myself. I plan to work out then I end up working at that time so I put it off obviously. I can't do customer service and work out at the same time. I may be getting a second job as well so I'll have to see how my two schedules will be and fit some exercise time in between them. Luckily with one of my jobs, I can make my own schedule every week, so it shouldn't be too hard to do.
I'm really kinda making excuses cause it's not like I'm busy 24/7. There's time to get a short workout in if not a regular one. But I just feel lazy sometimes or don't have the motivation. Well I do have the motivation and LOTS of it but I tend to ignore it at times.
So, that is all for now. Will post again sometime later this week probably.
For the past two days, I've had an increased appetite. It's like I can't stop eating lol. I don't know why, it's weird. I've noticed that I haven't been drinking as much water this past week as well. So maybe that was suppressing my appetite or something. With that said, off to get more water now!
I gained 3 pounds since the last time I weighed in, which was Wednesday....I was so devastated when I read the scale. So now I'm 200.6lbs! Maybe it's water weight? I just can't think of any other reason other than that. I hope so. I make sure to weigh myself in the morning before I eat or drink anything and after I use the bathroom. So it has to be water weight...right? I'm not stepping on the scale until next Wednesday. I usually weigh myself once a week but I just couldn't resist for some reason. Guess I learned my lesson lol.
Sure some of you have noticed a while back(like last year) now that I have deleted all of my posts. I just kinda gave up. I was failing and I didn't want keep making posts about it. Even though the title of my blog has always stated "My success and failure of weight loss".
If I wouldn't have given up I would've already accomplished my goal, I'm sure. But, no sense in focusing on something I can't control...the past.
I started at 202-203 and now I am 197lb. Not much but it's something and it will be more. :)
I'm not only losing this weight for vanity/self-esteem issues but also because I have high cholesterol. So I need to step it up, I can't afford to be overweight. Especially with heart problems and strokes running in my family. I have just really started living(21) and I want to live a long happy life. Don't want to die or get sick at such a young age and I won't. At least not from what I can control.
So...my journey has restarted and the pounds are coming off!
