I have officially returned to WIN this battle! FOR REAL!
Well - it has been almost a year since I have been on here! Yes, one year! A lot has changed since then. Brace yourself! I just had a baby boy on June 19th, 2008! What a blessing and a surprise! But it was the most horrendous pregnancy ever - and I am sure it was all due to the excess weight that I was carrying around. Massive swelling, my blood pressure was out of control and it has NEVER been high or even near high! But the end result, my beautiful precious baby boy was worth it all!
So, I am a member of this great group of Mom's in my area and we have all decided to, together, beat the weight problem in ourselves! We will have loads of support and encouragement from one another so I am thinking this is what is going to keep me going this time. I was reading some of my past blogs and I am my own worst enemy! Geez. How many times did I start and restart? A gazillion! But this time I will have true accountability for my actions with a group of people THAT I KNOW PERSONALLY and that just isn't attending a meeting. So, we are estimating getting our group going in about 2 weeks, possibly sooner if possible. So it should be interesting and, hopefully, life changing!
Let's keep our fingers crossed. Because I am up from my last weigh in. That is the problem -the scales keep arising when you don't make yourself accountable...and just after gaining 25 extra pounds, which hopefully I have lost, for the baby, it showed me how miserable life can be with just gaining a little bit more weight!
So I am in for the long haul this time. I HAVE to be! I have two wonderful blessings from above and miss being confident about myself, like I used to be. I hate the person that I it trapped inside of this horrendous body! I am looking forward to the NEW and IMPROVED "me"!
I am so excited about joining WW again! This time I am so ready. I am tired of not having any clothes that fits me in regular stores...in the PLUS sizes! I am tired of worried about if I am going to fit in a booth at a restaurant. I am tired of being tired! I want to say that I am going to start tomorrow but I have so much to do that if I start, it will be in the evening. Does anyone ever go to WW in the evening? I would be afraid that would show more weight. This time I CANNOT give up. If I do, I might as well throw in the towel. I CANNOT get discouraged if I only lose 1-2 lbs. a week. Hey, I know that is what the normal is but that is when I have always quit. And, I am so scared of what the scales are going to say. I am thinking I am well over 320s mark. SO SAD! But I have to do it! I want to do it! I need to do it! I am tired of being sad and ashamed in my own skin. I am so furious at how I cannot do things that I want to do with my son who will be 5 in a few weeks.
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Well it has been a LONG time since I have been on here...I have been contemplating WW again and this time I have it mentally fixed in my head that it is OKAY to lose only 1-2 pounds a week. Before I would quit if I would lose just 2 pounds or less a week. But look where it has gotten me - more weight put on. I am my own worst enemy at certain things and this is one of them.
Our area has the free joining thing going on so I am thinking about within the next week or so joining....We shall see.
I quit because at times I feel like I am the only one screwing up but I really believe this time I am mentally clear on this - everyone messes up and tomorrow is another day. The weight did not come on overnight so it is not going to fall off overnight either...
Wish me luck! Glad to see some old friends still on!
Well in 9 hours I will be going to my WW meeting. I am hoping I have lost 3.5 lbs to tally my two week total to 10 lbs. I don't know though. I think I messed up last Saturday night/Sunday day. We will see. I hope not! Will update after my meeting. I think I should be going to bed. lol....
6.5 lbs. gone!!!! I just about died when she said "You did great! 6.5 lbs, gone!" I was like "Are you kidding me?" I was sooo sooo happy! Thank God for that weight loss. I know I won't lose that much all of the time but that was a GREAT start! I feel too good now! So now I know I CAN do it! And I WILL do it!
Well tomorrow, Saturday, will be my first week weigh-in. I will get to see if I have really lost any weight...I hope at least 3-4 but I don't know. I think I went over a few yesterday because I did not keep track of my points that well. I see now how important that is. Tonight I am struggling. I am an emotional eater and my emotions are on overload tonight - MAJORLY.....I guess that is something I am going to have to learn to work with and deal with...emotional eating.
Well, hope everyone is doing good and reaching their goals....Will update you tomorrow...
Well my friend is thinking about starting WW and if so, she may be starting tomorrow, which I will change my weigh-in days to Thursday. It would be good to have some extra support. We will see though.
I changed my goal weight to 30 lbs, less because that will be achieving my first 10% weight loss...I guess I still am thinking if the goals aren't so HUGE then I could do them.....I will be VERY EXCITED once I hit my 10%.
Really, just being on this for the past five days I have been watching my portions like crazy...and I guess this is the main thing with WW is learning portion control....and in a short time I am learning...and I am choosing better foods. I can see how this turns into a lifestyle change. I am hoping and thanking God now for allowing to incorporate this into my life and to for me to have made that first step into the meetin (even though by myself and almost late)....He knows I needed it and I did...Life is too short to live unhappy in your own skin.
Well today is day 4 and I am still feeling good. Last night I was so hungry I think I could have eaten my whole state for dinner...but today I went to the store and bought some reasonable foods that I liked, not all diet food, but lower in points, and I was FULL for dinner....I felt like a Taco Bell commercial - wanting to yell "I AM FULL"....lol....I am anxious about my weigh in on Saturday...But the thing is I am SO HOPING to want to lose 5 lbs. and I think that I should not be putting such a high goal up for the first weigh-in. I know I have a lot of weight to lose and that I will lose fast at first but still I don't want to sabotage myself....so I have to break it to myself gently.....I know deep down though that I will be disappointed if I don't lose 5 lbs. the first week. With the first meeting last week people were saying they lost 4 and 5 lbs....and I was like "YES".....so we will see.....
Well I have been doing okay. I haven't fallen off the wagon yet, so to speak. I think I realize one thing that I was doing last year that was actually sabotaging my weight loss - I was weighing myself EVERY SINGLE DAY. Well, to your, and mine, surprise, I have tossed out my scale - literally. Nice digital scale gone! So I have to go to my meetings to see my progress.
I did get hungry last night. Night time is my enemy when it comes to eating. But I ate a Sugar-Free popsicle and chewed some sugar-free gum and went to bed.
Today is Monday - Monday's are days for me that can be passed right on by.....I am almost afraid of Monday's. Maybe this Monday will be good and successful! Hope everyone is doing well!
How many times did I start and restart? A gazillion! But this time I will have true accountability for my actions with a group of people THAT I KNOW PERSONALLY and that just isn't attending a meeting. So, we are estimating getting our group going in about 2 weeks, possibly sooner if possible. So it should be interesting and, hopefully, life changing!