New start!!!!
So... it's summer, warm weather, lighter clothes, up coming vacations, but still same old fat me. We have a wedding to attend next weekend, and I went out to find something to wear today... of course couldn't find anything that I liked. I know I'm my worst critic, but still, it's so frustrating I don't feel comfortable in anything. I saw some pictures and seriously wonder, how I let myself look like this. I know moving away from family a couple years ago, and couldn't find a job for a year didn't help. I know I turned to food and boy I regret it now. I just wish it would come off as fast as it goes on. Having a baby was the greatest thing in the world, aside from my wedding day, not that I've kept any weight from that, I'm down to my original size... however things shift and change, and that's the part I don't like. The numbers on the scale might be the same, but the body doesn't look like it. lol I really need to get my butt in gear and I want to do this so bad, I just don't know how to stick to it to during those rough days and not give up. It seems like its so impossible to get to where I want to be. I really want this I want to be healthy and active for my self, but also I want to look hot for my husband, and I want to be around to grow old with him and for my son... and any other future children we have! We're getting to the point we're thinking about another one, but I'm torn between wanting them somewhat close and losing my weight. You think that would be enough drive at times and sometimes it is and other times its not. I just keep falling back into my same ole habits. I hate it and I want to do this I need to do this for myself above all else! I am aiming to start fresh this week. We leave this weekend to head back to Michigan for family vacation, and I'm so pumped. A week out at the lake and cottage, it's awesome. I jsut hate having to wear a bathing suit. But I want to have fun and experience it all with my husband and son, but I'm so self conscious it's all I think about.
OK! SO THIS WEEK FRESH START..... NEW START... I CAN DO IT!!!!! I do weight watchers and I enjoy it I just get lazy with writing my points... but I need to do that to keep myself accountable... and if I crave food drink a bottle or glass of water first and see where that gets me. I have the turbo jam dvds, so I should probably start doing that too, it might help and make me feel better!!! WISH ME LUCK!!!
I CAN DO IT!!! God Bless!!