02/10/2009 08:31
help
It's my son's 2nd birthday this week. All I can think about is cake. Someone please talk some sense into me.
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- Name: Goal65kgs
- City: Auckland
- Region: New Zealand
- Country: New Zealand
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| Height: | 172.0cm |
| Start weight: | 117.00kg |
| Current weight: | 115.40kg |
| Goal weight: | 70.00kg |
| Lost to date: | 1.60kg |
| Remaining: | 45.40kg |
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02/07/2009 10:50
I have the most amazing, most bestest friend in the world :)
I have only given ONE friend access to this blog. We recently moved over to NZ and she was probably the biggest reason that I didn't want to come here. I miss our chats so much.
I wanted to be accountable, so I asked her to check up on me and to make sure that I don't fall off the wagon. This week, I got the most amazing email from her. She is a gift from my Daddy. This is just an excerpt from her email.
"Hi maatjie! Just read your blog! You’re doing good! Everytime I check you’ve lost some weight! That’s really fab if you continue this way, you will be smaller everyday until you reavh your goal weight, after which you will remain a healthy small size all your life :) I know, its easier said than done, but really, if you continue strong everyday is a day closer to a healthier happier you."
Isn't she just the most amazing friend?! I am so blessed.
02/05/2009 09:52
Down 900g today.
So, had my third weigh-in at JC today and I lost 900g. Not as much as I'd have liked to, also, not as much as I have lost on previous programs, but its still a loss and in the long run (this is very hard to say as I am very impatient), losing slowly is better than not losing at all. I coould have gained in this time that I have been with JC. The way I see it, the more food you eat, the slower you lose weight..... All of the consultants insist that you need to FINISH all the food. Does anyone know if its really necessary. I have heard of your body going into starvation mode, but isn't that only if you completely stop eating? An is it really healthier to lose weight slowly rather than a little faster?
For the third time (in my third week), I have a different consultant. I must admit, initially I was REALLY ticked. But then after spending time with Diane, I realised that she is exactly what I need in support. She has a similar history to me - sugar addict - and is just the most amazingly amazing person I have met in a long time.
I spoke to her about my cravings for something sweet after dinner and she gave me some good advice. First, ignore, ignore, ignore! Most of my craving is the result of a lifetime of "rewarding" myself. But after ignoring it, eventually it will go away! Secondly, I can save my sweet treat that I get during the day (JC gives at least 5 sweet treats, one a day, for the week), swap it with my evening snack and eat it then. And thirdly, I can eat a pear - apparently it has all the things in it that your body craves when you go through sugar detox. It regulates your blood sugar so that you don't crave again. Good advice!
I spoke to her about the fact that I am lazy and really struggle to get myself motivated and active. I dislike exercise IMMENSELY! Her advice - while I'm watching tv in the evenings, every time there's an ad break, get up and go to the fridge and get my water and have a sip. Next ad break, get up off the couch and walk to the mailbox. Next ad break, go to the toilet. Be busy. Break the cycle! Granted, it wont help me lose weight but it will break the cycle and begin forming good habits in me. The other idea is the answer the to following dilemma...
I also spoke to her about the fact that there is too much food. I am still breastfeeding my son, although he only drinks once a day - usually when he needs his afternoon nap. I don't want to breastfeed anymore and I defnitely don't want the extra food that is allotted to me (2 grains, 1 fat, 1 dairy), as I feel it will just slow down my weight loss even more! So, in order to get him to stop breastfeeding and myself to get some exercise, every day around naptime, I need to put him in his stroller and go for a walk. The walk will get him to sleep without breastfeeding and I will get the exercise that I need! Diane is amazing. She is so encouraging and just has so many good ideas.
I wish everyone could have the benefit of my consultant! I should tell her how amazing she is.
Thanks everyone for the support. This blog thing is WONDERFUL!
02/03/2009 23:05
Inside vs outside
I may not be the most confident person (although granted, I have progressed in leaps and bounds in my confidence in just the past week), but I do not feel fat on the inside. Inside me I feel like the same 13 year old girl that was once so skinny that kids made fun of her. I think that's the most important thing to me about losing weight - to look on the oustide like I feel on the inside. Maybe that's why photo's of myself bother me so much - because it shocks me that that's what I really look like. I don't feel as fat as I look. I don't feel the rolls that I see in photo's. I don't feel as uncomfortable as I look.
I'm so excited about this journey. This is the first time in all my weight-loss efforts that I have accepted that I will never ever again eat half a box of cookies in one sitting. Before when I lost weight, I would look forward to my goal weight so that I could splurge, JUST for a day! Yeh, right!! This time, I am enjoying the little treats that I get with my JC meals. Tonight I will have toffee pudding. I'm really looking forward to it, because I know that it is a treat. I think part of my weight is my attitude in that "I deserve it". But where has it gotten me. Every chocolate, every piece of cake, every cookie WAS NOT WORTH IT! It was not worth it to feel this way and to struggle like this. IT WASN'T WORTH IT AT ALL! I want to say I regret it, but in a way I don't. Because I have learned from it.
I left out the most important reason for wanting to lose weight in my 30 reasons and that is to finally live a life that evidences my relationship with Christ. To finally rely on Him for my emotional security and well-being. Not rely on myself. In the past few months, we moved to another country and at the same time went through some difficulties in our marriage (which I wont go into here). Before we left home and were waiting for visas, I relied on the Lord with everything in me. As soon as we got here, through all the changes and struggles, I put on around 10 - 15 kgs. I'm not sure exactly how much. And it was all in about 3 months. That's a lot for one person to pick up.
Through this I will glorify my Father. I will praise Him in the life that I live. I will honour Him.
02/02/2009 23:39
Muddly
thank you beste maaitjie in die hele wereld
02/01/2009 22:24
My reasons for losing weight
1. To feel/look/be healthy
2. To try on any clothes I want to
3. To be able to walk into a normal store and not have everyone stare at me because I wont fit into the clothes
4. To not be out of breath when walking up a small hill
5. To feel confident
6. To look better in pictures
7. To have no pain in my knees
8. To wear a bikini for the first time in my life
9. So that my son wont be embarrassed of me when he is older
10. To astound my friends and family
11. To make sure that I am the only woman my husband looks at
12. To look better today than the day I got married
13. To wear pretty lingerie
14. So that I no longer have to tug and pull at my clothes
15. So that my thighs don’t rub together
16. To be more comfortable in an airplane
17. To not be afraid of sitting on a chair that might not hold me
18. To have people’s heads turn for the right reasons
19. To paint my toenails easily
20. To wear a cute dress
21. So I can cross my legs
22. So I can wear high heels
23. So I can enjoy summer without having to hide under piles of clothing
24. So that I can look cute when I’m pregnant
25. So that people don’t wonder if I’m pregnant
26. So that I can inspire and help other people who struggle with their weight
27. So that a normal towel fits around me
28. So I can hug my knees easily
29. So I can have my feet on the same chair I’m sitting on without sitting on them
30. So that my breasts stick out more than my stomach
02/01/2009 12:41
best ever?
I think that there's a good chance that I may be married to the most amazing man EVER! He has been so encouraging, He constantly tells me how proud of me he is. And he keeps telling me that I am such a different person - happy, in control, positive. It's so good to hear it and so encouraging.
On a food note - toay was a yucky day with JC. I DID NOT enjoy the food today, not one single meal. Today's menu was definitely not one I will be ordering in future.
It's late, I need sleep. I read today that sleep deprivation prevents you from losing weight. Uh-oh....................... 
01/29/2009 21:40
staff retreat
My hubby's work had their annual staff retreat this week, so we went away for 3 days to a lovely coastal town. All of the food was mae in the house, ranging from pizza to burritos to pancakes.... And there was a limitless supply of chocolate, crisps and anything bad for you. To top it all off, we went out for dinner one night and then for ice-cream. It was a really tough couple of days. I think especially since it was my first week with JC, it was "make or break". But, as you can see from my weigh-in, it was a make! I am really pleased that I was able to focus on my JC meals and when everyone else was nibbling on chocolate, I was making good choices by choosing fruit and veggies to snack on.
I realised this morning that I don't really know what hungry and satisfied feel like. I'm not even sure whether I know what TOO full feels like. I am so out of tune with my body. I wish someone could explain it to me in a way that is tangible. How do I figure it out?
Managed to do a turbo jam workout. Feelin' goooood!!
01/29/2009 06:50
First visit
Had my first official weigh-in at JC and have lost 1.7 kgs!!!! Yippee! I kind of expected more but am thrilled with the results nevertheless. It means I am 0.7 kgs ahead of my goal! Feeling good! Just need to get moving and exercise a bit more.
My hubby said it well today when he said, "Just think, that could have been 1.7 kgs that you gained!"
Only 51 weeks to go!
My hubby once told me this story....
A king had two sons and could not decide which son would follow him and inherit the kingdom as both of them were equally capable. The only pre-requisite of inheriting his kingdom was that they would attend his 60th birthday which was in ten years time. At the party, the kingdom would be handed over to the most deserving brother. Also, the brothers were not permitted to kill one another in order to inherit the kingdom. If this happened, then the kingdom would go to neither of them.
The younger brother told the older brother that he was welcome to take the kingdom and to show his generosity, he built his brother a huge palace. It was a magnificent, solid building with marble floors and golden pillars. It overflowed with beautiful statues and ponds and fountains. But this palace only had one doorway. There was no lock on the door and the older brother was free to come and go as he pleased. Although he was suspicious, the older brother accepted the house with glee.
Everyday, the younger brother would lavish the older brother with the most decadent food and drink and beautiful women. And everyday, the older brother would devour the food and drink and enjoy the beautiful women. The younger brother would send exotic food, wine from far away countries that delighted the older brother.
The older brother indulged so much in these pleasures that he never left the palace, for everything that he ever wanted was right at his fingertips. Until the day of his father's 60th birthday. He dressed in his finest robes and most extravagant jewels, ready to be crowned king. He delighted himself in the thought that he finally had everything..... Fine wine, delectable food, beautiful women and now finally, the kingdom.
As he heard the trumpets blow, announcing the commencement of the feast, he walked down the long passageway toward the doorway, but as he tried to get through the doorway, he realised that he was too fat. The palace was no longer his haven, it was now his fortress of his own making. He had imprisoned himself by his greed and gluttony. Only then did he realise what his brother had done and that he had lost the kingdom.
I have become my own prisoner. My weight has held me back for too long. I am tired of shopping in the plus size section. I am tired of feeling embarrassed to go to a restaurant. I am tired of being exhausted when walking up a little hill. I don't want to imprison myself. I want to be free.
01/24/2009 23:47
Going well
So. its day 3 and I am doing very well. I felt a little famished yesterday and didn't have the energy to get off my butt. I think I was sugar detoxing. Seriously.
I am addicted to tea, so it has been difficult for me to cut back on the tea. I think it was what I used to make me feel a little fuller, and now that I am drinking probably only a cup a day I am struggling with slight headaches and sugar cravings. I was probably drinking anything between 4 and 10 cups a day, all loaded with sugar.
Besides that, we got my son a wagon for his birthday (he's turning 2 soon) so that will be my goal to get off my butt - to take him on rides everyday - for at least 30 minutes. I need to find different places that we can drive to that are fun to walk around.
Am loving the Jenny Craig food, although I'm not sure how its possible that it can be healthy and help you lose weight. I mean, I had caramel SMOTHERED popcorn for my morning snack. YUM-O! It was delicious, but I see that the main ingredient is sugar.... How can it be healthy? Is it just about counting calories? Cos that packet was 664 kJ. I'm sure that 2 apples would have been less kJ's and more filling???? Will have to chat with Angela - my consultant - on Friday.
We're living overseas, so I am not going to tell any of my friends and family yet. I will just send them a picture in a year's time when I am at my goal and looking FABULOUS! I can't wait. :)