Everyday is a new opportunity...
and yet I didn't get it right yesterday. In fact I wasn't even close. What's wrong with me? Uggh!
I took DS19 back to college yesterday. I know in my heart of hearts that this might have been his last summer living at home. I remember being taken back to college and not wanting to do the lunch/dinner thing with the 'rents, so I simply took him to school, unloaded and left. I didn't want to go back home to his empty and silent room - so I didn't.
I met a friend for lunch (did I really need chicken salad?) and then went shopping. I am reluctant to buy pants in the hope that my time at this size will be fleeting so I bought a few tops. I did try on a few pair of pants (side pockets are a no-no) but came home empty handed. Thinking Kohl's this morning for a few pair of Dockers. Getting dressed in the morning has been excruciatingly painful and I just want to be able to get dressed and go, so it will be worth the minor investment. Black, navy and khaki should see me through.
My big purchase was one of those lighted magnifying mirrors. Why you may ask? I haven't a clue. I was shocked to see my face magnified seven times and spent a ridiculous amount of time examining every pore. Wow! Skin care has moved up on my priority list!
Anyway, I digress. I ate off plan all day and right into the night. Journaling just did not happen. I did not eat mindfully, I ate with abandon = (. Today I am disappointed in myself but realize today is also a golden opportunity to get it right.
Today I'm picking up the dining room set and am excited to fill the room that has been empty since our return from California. It also marks the first purchase of "big girl" furniture. Everything I own is industrial strength child proof left over from when I was married. This is a beautiful cherry Chippendale set that marks a stage of my life that is no longer predicated on choices for my four wonderful children. This chapter is about me. Time to stop hiding behind the weight and living my best life.
If not now, when?