need to step it up....

I havent posted much in the last week or two because I have been kind of stuck. I have stayed at the same wieght, but I am not to upset because there has been a lot going on that has kept me from giving this my total focus. I started working the night shift in the CICU which is a great move at work, and I have been studing for finals and finishing papers in these last days of the semester. Both studing and working nights are something that goes hand in hand with eating junk food. Somehow I have managed not to gain but in order to reach my first goal of losing 30lbs by Aug 31st I really need to step it up. I am thinking of ordering nutrisystem for at least a month to get jump start and get a good grip on portion sizes. I think doing something like this will be great to have food on hand so I dont grab junk food while I am at work. I am also really happy to be finishing school for the semester because I am going to start taking exercise classes at my gym over summer. I think that working out with other people will help me push harder than I do in workouts by myself. all in all I feel healthier than I have in a long time, even though I havent lost in a few weeks.

Grrrrrrrrr

I totaly went off track with my eating this week, my roommates were out of town, and I was home alone and spent most of the week eating and watching movies. I did however write everything in my diet journal,and reading it today made me cringe. I try to write down my feeling each time I eat something to determine if I eat because I am actualy hungry or if it is something else. This week made me realize how often I eat because I am just plain bored. So I guess it was not a total loss because I did stick to my workouts and am actually enjoying it. So I guess I will just try to get in some extra time at the gym this weekend and do better next week.

End of Week One

So at the end of week one I am down three pounds which I am really happy about. I think that I can do better considering that I didn't exactly stick to my exersize plan, and I totaly blew my eating plan this weekend by going out for dinner and drinks. The first few days of getting used to what actual portions of food are was really hard, but is amazing how fast your body can get used to eating a much smaller amount. I did not feel good after having a big meal at all. My goal for this week is to get to the gym at least five days, and instead of having a "free" day where I can eat anything I think I will have one free meal where it can be anything but in a much smaller portion size.

In the begining.....

Age :Almost 25

Weight: 210

Mood: Determined

About Me:

I have red hair, a great loud laugh, and colorful style. All things designed to get me noticed, but sadly the only thing most people notice is my weight, and I am sick of it, so this is the begining of my journey to losing 80lbs. I have been big all of my life, and this time I am commited to really and truley doing something about it. I have a plan for exercise and diet, I have my motivations, and now I have this site to keep me on track.

Wieght:

Currently I wiegh 210lbs, which by it self is a lot but is magnified on me because I am only 5'1". These proportions have come together to result in what I refer to as squatty body. A round middle on tiny little legs. Envision a basketball on toothpicks and you would have the right idea.

Diet:

I am opting for doing my own makeshift Jenny Craig type diet, focusing on portion sizes and staying below 1600 cal per day. I went shopping and stocked up on those 100 cal packs of crakers, cookies, yogurts, and other snacks, as well as plenty of cup'o soups and lean cuisine, WW, and Amys organic frozen meals for lunches and dinners. Breakfast is usualy a pack of wieght control oatmeal(highly recommend) and fruit or some type of veggie scrammble.

Workout:

The one positive thing is that I enjoy working out, I just rarly do it. This is going to change. I joined on of the new 24hour gyms in the area so no I have absolutly no excuse not to find time to work out. I plan on doing a walk/jog program 5x's a week in order to work my way up to running for a half hour, and using a simple weight lifting routine 2-3x's a week. Eventualy I would like to try yoga but I am not quite ready for that I think.

Motivation:

There are a few layers involved here. My long term motivation is that after finishing my BS in nursing in the next two and a half years I plan on joining the Army Nurse Corps. It is a great career move, they pay off old loans, pay for grad school, and you have the chance to have much more responisblility in a much shorter amount of time. Even though army nurses do not attend boot camp they still have to meet the Armys basic height/weight and PT requirments, so ultimatly this is what I am working towards. The more personal reason involves a boy, man really, that I was seeing pretty casualy, thinking it could become more, until I was informed by a mutual friend that the guy really likes me but  would not seriously date someone of my size. So I am planning to avoid him for as long as possible, I just don't know if I am hoping to get "revenge", or  get him back. In any case I know this is a terrible reason for trying to lose weight but at the same time the anger is a good motivator so I plan on using it fo all it's worth.

Goals:

My first goal is to be wearing a size 14 on my 25th birthday, which is on Aug 31st of this year.

My goal after that is to be down to 130 lbs and be able to run 2miles in 18min as well as being able to do 80 situps and 40 pushups.......I have a long way to go.