So I had a really bad nights sleep. I kept waking up in a ton of pain and being really bloated. This is the first time the pain has woken me up. So I really didn't get a very good nights sleep. I went to bed at about 11pm and I was out of bed at about 615am....with about 2 hours of sporatic sleep. So I know whoes napping today!!
So yesterday I decided to have a spinich salad with a little can of that flavored tuna. I could eat about 3-4 small bites then I felt really full and nauceous. So I had to wait a few minutes for the feeling to pass then I could take a couple more bites. It took me 45min to finish my salad!!! The nausea is getting so bad that I don't want to eat...so I've been drinking my calories in form of no suger added real fruit juice. Cause I'm making sure that I get at least 1500 calories a day. I know the web sites said that for my weight I need 2300calories...but I can't eat that much!
I'm going to be really busy the next few days. I'm going to Edmonton on friday to visit my friends. I'm really excited!! I'm going to try to blog the night before or the morning we go. I'm so glad that we're staying at the delta(my first time in a nice hotel in my whole life) Cause I checked out the hotel website and they have a really nice gym that's open 24hours for all guests...they also have a pool. Plus all the walking around I'll be doing when we go shoping!! So I know I'll be getting a lot of activity. I also went to dollarama and picked up a cute notebook and pen. The book is sparkely pink with different colored kitties and the pen is camo pink. You know I never liked pink growing up...I was such a tom boy and didn't start to like pink till I was about 23! Anywhoo I bought it so I could keep track of my calories and what I'm eating. Cause when I'm home I use a spreadsheet on my computer.
So it's been a week since my last weigh in and I decided to weigh in again. I'm going to do it once a week....I'm too inpatient to wait two whole weeks to know how I've done. So I lost another 4 pounds!!! I can't believe how good I'm doing....14 pounds so far...and that's in three weeks! I know it's faster then people say is healthy...but I'm just cutting out all the crap, eating a lot of fruit and veggies, and exercising a lot. I'm getting really good results but I am doing it in a healthy way. So If people criticize me for losing too quickly I'll just tell them that I've learned healthy habits and my body is reacting positively to it so I'm going to keep doing what works!
Well I should go eat breakfast cause if I eat I'm naucous...but if I don't eat I'm even more naucous.....and more pain. So have a good week...stay strong and positive ladies!!! We can do it!!
Hello everyone...I hope your weekend was as good as mine! Last night we had tornado warnings but nothing happened. The lightning and thunder was cool though:)
So I was at a friends house playing Dungeons and Dragons...ahhhhhhh!!! You caught me...ok ok ok now you all know I'm a geek...a nerd...a ??? don't know...lol! I play DnD, I play video games, I watch anime, I read fantasy, and yes I even know how to play the card game Magic the Gathering *gasp* not that!! Yes I'm a geek and I'm proud of it! Anyway I was getting a little bored cause someone was taking forever on his turn..so I started taking some pictures of myself with my cell phone. I looked at the pictures and realized something...I'm pretty! Holey moley I didn't even recognize myself! So I've been riding on this high of self esteem for a while and it's nice. I don't know how long it'll last but when it wears off I'll just look at the pics again:) You should try it...for some reason self portrats with cell phones look amazing:)
Well the sky is totaly dark grey and Saskatoon is under a severe thunderstorm watch so I should get off the computer. I might get a "jolt" of electricity...I wonder if it "burns" calories?? Naaaa don't wanna find out! LOL!! Well have an awesome day ladies, stay strong and positive!
Hey everyone! I hope you all had a good weekend Mine was alright. I'm nausous more often and the pain in my stomach is slowly getting worse and more often. But I pop a gravol and do my workout anyway!! The ultrasound is soon...hopefully they'll find whats wrong and fix it so I can get a job!
So I measure myself and I'm loosing inches from my waist up! I really want to loose some inches from around my hips. I hate my hips sooooo much!! So I loose my boobs and keep my hips...some trade off! LOL! Oh well I'll up my cardio and see what happenes.
Well everyone have an amazing day and keep positive!
Hey everyone. So I went to the doctor today for a check up. My barium swallow was normal and my blood test was normal. This is sooo frustrating!! I'm almost 100% sure that it's my gall bladder. I'm schedualed for an ultrasound for August 18th. I just with I could have done the ultrasound first. My mom, grandma, and all my aunts have had their gall bladders removed. I looked on a couple of medical sites and all my symptoms match something wrong with my gall bladder. It's just that every single time I finally get in to get an ultrasound, I start to feel better. Then like a year later I start getting sick. I'm so over being sick all the time. It's not all in my head...I'm feeling real pain, real nausea, and real annoyance! I just want to be totaly healthy so I can go back to work and start being independent again. I'm so tired all the time like I have no strength left. The couple of hours a day when I feel good are devoted to exercising as much as I possibly can. My eating is fine because I don't want to eat. Every single bite that I eat hurts now. The only way that food stays down is by taking gravol all the time. And that makes me feel all woozy and tired. I hate putting all the financial burden on my boyfriend...he shouldn't have to pay for everything.
Anyway enough of my rant. I know that it'll all work out and be ok. It's just being in the middle of it thats stressfull. I hope that you're all doing well..Talk to you all later!
Well I know yesterday was bad but I'm feeling so much better today! I finally gave in and weighed myself...drum roll please!!!
Ok thats enough....I lost 10 pounds!!! I couldn't believe it when I got on the scale...I really couldn't. I knew I lost some but I didn't think I lost that much. Talk about a self esteem boost! Now I'm off to eat my organic oatmeal and call my family!
I'm having a really bad day today. I got fired from my job in the beginning of June because of health problems. As soon as I lost my job I went to the doctor and started the application for medical unemploymnet. It's now been almost two months and I still haven't gotten any money. I'm getting really stressed out cause I have all last months bills and this months bill coming out of my bank account within the next week. I've also been getting some of "thoes" phone calls already. I just explained to them that when the government gets me some money I'll give it to them.
So all this stress is making me feel sicker. I'm not too sure but we suspect gall bladder. I'm always naucous and dizzy, and I get this bad stabbing pain in the right side of my stomach off and on but especialy after I eat....no matter what I eat. So ya it's been really bad these past couple of days...but especially today. I just feel like I'm sinking deeper and deeper. And yes thoes nasty dark thoughs of everyone being better off without a burden like me are going though my head.
The only good thing is that I'm not letting this effect my eating or my exercise. Which is a twist cause before I would just binge on junk. So I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get the money in time. It said on my online account that it would get reviewed tomorow or friday. So everyone cross your fingers and say a prayer for me. I just have to remember that everything happens for a reason and that after this is done and over with I'll be a stronger person. But when you're in the middle of something like this it's hard to see an end. I know I can do it...I just have to keep telling myself that.
P.S. I'm also stressing cause in about three weeks I'll be going to the Saskatoon Exibition. Last year I went to the Edmonton Exibition and I almost didn't fit on my favorite ride. People laughed when the guy had to come and slam the bar down so it would lock. At least he was nice about it, he got close and whispered what he had to do so only I would hear what he was saying. I'm so scared cause I think I'm still bigger then I was last year. The worst thing in the world would be to get turned away cause I can't fit on the ride. Stress! Stress! Stress! I need to go exercise now...nausea and all!
Hey everyone!! Today has been pretty good. I brought my kitten Lucy into the vet for her one week check up after getting spayed and the vet said that shes doing great. Usually they have to spend the night after getting spayed but Lucy was being so active and was doing so well that she got to come home the same day.
I just finished my weight lifting dvd. I have the entire Ripped series and I love it soooo much! Jari Love is so amazing! And anyone can do the workouts too...no matter what your fittness level is. You just start out with a smaller weight and do the modified version and then build from there. I'm not even tired right now. I got a good workout...cause my muscles are sore...but I have soooo much energy. Which is good cause I still have a half an hour of cardio to do still...LOL! I really love the feeling after you have a really good workout...where you're sitting down having a rest and your muscles start twinging a little. Makes me so proud of myself
Well everyone I'm hungry so I should go make my smoothie that I've been looking forward to all day. Frozen fruit and yogurt...soooo yummy! Talk to you all later and positive vibes to everyone!
P.S. I just finished my 30min of cardio(it's a shape cardio workout) and now, yes, I am tired...LOL!!
Hey everyone!! How are all you doing?? I'm doing great!
I really don't understand something...I've decided to totaly cut out all junk food, pop, and fast food. So every single calorie that goes into my mouth isn't an empty calorie...like it has to have some kind of health benifits. Everyone has been telling me that that's "too drastic" and that "I need to treat myself once and a while". I don't get this statement at all!
***insert sarcasm here**--> Ya I'll treat myself to something bad...and then I can treat myself to a bigger butt or some jiggly thighs!! It makes no sence at all. A treat should be something good...shouldn't it?? Something benificial..right?? Before I used to use the "treat" excuse and I didn't loose weight. If I'm going to treat myself to something it'll be what I treated myself to yesterday. A nice long, hot bubble bath. With some candles and clasical music. Now that is a nice treat! Or I'll go get something done at my sisters spa or I'll buy a new exercise video.
I really think that saying "I can have that...I diserve a treat" Is so over used to justify eating things that aren't healthy. I think if you really want something you'll do everything in your power to get it. All I want in life is to be at a healthy weight...and I'll to everything in my power to get it. That include saying no to things that will slow down my progress.
Unhealthy food is like a drug, sometimes you have to just say no!! Positive vibes to you all!!
They said my post was too long so I made it into 2!
The link is:http://www.caloriesperhour.com/index_loss.php
So If I make a calorie deficit of 1604 every day...I'll reach my goal weight in 12 months. Which is perfect cause my friends wedding is 13 months away!
So this means that I need to pump up the activity, exercising at least an hour each day, and spend less time on my butt watching tv. If you're interested in the links and you can't figure it out just message me and I'll give you a hand.
Have a great day everyone and think thin!
P.S. Is it weird that my exercise clothes feel looser after only a week?? Cause my shirt is looking baggy and my capris are looser in the butt area...I'm tempted to weigh in but I only want to do that once a month.
Well everything is going really well. My kitten is recovering from her spaying...I'm having a hard time keeping her from wrestling with her older sister. Lucy is such a playfull, active kitten so I'm finding myself puttin one or the other in the bedroom for extended periods of time. I feel so bad doing it but the vet tech said not to be cause she needs 7-10 days of recovery time and I'm sure wrestling and running around the house with her sis is not good recovery time. So I'm trying to reasure myself that putting her in the bedroom is the best thing for her right now...even though it breaks my heart hearing her little mews coming out from under the door:( *sob* If I'm this bad with my cats...I can't immagine how I'm going to be when I eventually have human babies. Yes my cats are my babies:)
I found an amazing site where you can calculate how long it will take you to get to your goal weight. And if you have a strict timeline like me...there's a calculator that figures out how much of a calorie deficit that you need to create every day to do so. I had never heard of a calorie deficit before but you need to know it to loose weight. Basicly you take how many calories you burn in a day and subtract how many calories you eat. That number is a calorie deficit. So If I burn 3000calories in a day and then eat 1500calories...my calorie deficit is 1500(which is exactly how much of a deficit i need to get to my goal). The site said that you can create this deficit easier by lowering you calories taken in from food and increase the calories you burn through exercise.
) Cause I checked out the hotel website and they have a really nice gym that's open 24hours for all guests...they also have a pool. Plus all the walking around I'll be doing when we go shoping!! So I know I'll be getting a lot of activity. I also went to dollarama and picked up a cute notebook and pen. The book is sparkely pink with different colored kitties and the pen is camo pink. You know I never liked pink growing up...I was such a tom boy and didn't start to like pink till I was about 23! Anywhoo I bought it so I could keep track of my calories and what I'm eating. Cause when I'm home I use a spreadsheet on my computer.