second day
Well today is day two and I'm feeling really good about my decision to be healthier. I've been off work for about a month because of health reasons. I've been going through tests to find out what's wrong but so far nothing. It was IBS but things started getting worse so hopefully the doctor figures out whats wrong so I can get a new job and go back to work. For that month I was really depressed. I though about ending it all every day. I still think about it fairly often but I think it's starting to get better.
Today I'm at my sisters spa. She's really busy so I'm working reception so she can handle her clients. I'm not doing very much but it sure feels better then doing nothing at home.
I started exercising yesterday. Not a whole lot...but almost an hour in my appartments little gym room. The equipment is terrible but I can't afford to go to a real gym untill I start working again.
I think the two weddings that are coming up are really modivating me to change. I also really like this bloging thing to. It helps to get all these crazy emotions out. Well good luck to me and everyone else who's in the midst of this turbulent battle called weight loss...fight on my alies!!