I'm just posting this so that I can look back on it and remember why I'm doing this. "This" being losing weight.
Obviously I want the benefits of looking better, fitting into clothes I want, not being out of breath after dancing the night away at clubs, etc. But I also am doing this for my health. And that's something that I have to KEEP pounding into my brain.
You see, practically my whole family is diabetic -- right across the board. My dad has it to the point where he has to inject insulin, my mom has it and therefore has to watch her diet (and has lost a CRAZY amount of weight lately -- I think over 25 pounds! Which is a good motivator because it almost kinda makes me think, "uh oh, what if Mom gets skinnier than me??!!" LOL! !), my grandma's have it, my cousin has it --so yeah. Point being, I have a high chance of getting Diabetes. Uncool. So....by losing weight I'm decreasing my chances of getting it. My Dad has had lots of problems with his sugars lately, so much so he's been in and out of the hospital too much lately. Also uncool. So...I'm doing to do this more for my health and therefore the "looking good" is just an extra added bonus. Or at least that's what I'm trying to convince myself of. Ha!
Regardless, things are going well so far. Tonight it our staff summer party, so I've saved up a bunch of my flex points for some good eats and bevy's...I just have to maintain self control...there is a whole weekend ahead of me still. Eep! :)
Oooh and YAY! Anne Marie (the VP of my work) just came and said she noticed that I've been losing weight! Yesssssss! That's what I was waiting for was for work people to notice, because they see me everyday its less likely for them to notice the physical changes....maybe its just the shirt....nawwwwwwwww..... :P
Oh man, i've never been so sicked out. *shudder*
Jess and I went to this massive pool up in Corso Italia (St. Clair West Little Italy) to go swimming tonight. We chose this pool PURPOSELY to avoid any "ghettoness" that some of the closer pools have. Pssssh. What a mistake. First off, the ladies change room smelled like cat pee and B.O. and then to make matters worse we got kicked out of the pool a meer 15 minutes after we got in because of a "water fouling". Yes, that's right...fecal matter in the pool. And the kicker....that was the THIRD "fouling" of the day! Apparently someone had vomited in there in the morning, there was broken glass in the afternoon and then tonight someone took a dump in the pool! SICK! Who DOES that???!!! It was ADULT swim too...so WTF????
So much for swimming off the gelato we had before we went in.
*grumble grumble grumble*
The only semi-good thing about this was that it cut my swim short because really, my arm and ribs still aren't good...and man, it was hard to do anything other than just tread water. I'm definately still not all healed. *sigh* Stupid SUV driver lady.
Oh and YOU KNOW I SOOOOOOO showered like mad when I got home to rinse off the nastiness. *more shuddering*
GO ME! I've lost 3 more pounds since last week. God, can this really be THIS easy? I mean, it's not TOTALLY easy, but I thought it would be harder than this.
I think I'm gonna go down to the 22 points a week with WW now. I can barely eat the 24 alotted points cause usually I'm full and am just eating cause I'm supposed to...so I think 22 will be a challenge but a good one.
Tomorrow I'm bustin' out the bathing suit to go swimming with Jess. I am looking forward to the swimming part...but not so much the "me in a bathing suit" part--especially with these Britishly white, bruised up and just generally ugly legs. Oh well...all in the name of fitness right?
So, last night was Nene's Summer Party/30th Birthday. Fun times were indeed had. I wore my new summer outfit, and I had it "going on" for a little while...but it all came crashing down when the jeans I bought were getting baggier and baggier as the night went on. I've discovered they're those jeans that get more stretched out as you wear them. Baggy pants=saggy ass. Ugh. So, because the bar is sooo close to my apartment, Tania and I took a break and went back and I changed. Now...I had the "tight" jeans on...no baggy ass but still...no dice. I just wasn't feeling the outfit anymore. Got lots of compliments from people about the shirt and how apparently I look like I've lost weight (YAY! And I none of them knew I was on WW!) but then...as the night was closing, this girl came up to me out of nowhere and said "Nice shirt" and she was wearing the exact same freaking shirt! Gah! And to make matters worse she was much thinner and taller than I was. Of course the gays were telling my I was rockin' the shirt better than she was....but still! *sigh* So, we were going dancing at 99 Sudbury (afterhours dance club) so I totally bailed on everyone and went home and CHANGED AGAIN. I just wasn't comfortable with what had on. Especially when you are going to an underground club to dance to house music...you don't exactly feel like wearing a flowy bohemian style shirt. So...back to my wide leg raver pants, black sleeveless top and my cozy sneaks. MUUUCH better. Tania, Aya and I danced up a storm despite that I am still hurting from the car accident (got bashed into by a SUV while on my bike about 2 Wednesdays ago). Danced and sweat my brains out! But had a good time and I'm sure I burned a few calories as well. Tried really hard not to overeat at Micheal's before the party....and I think I did pretty well. But, it's always the booze that gets me. Thank god I save up allllll my flex points for weekends.
Alright...enough of this...I've gotta start my day...afterall, it IS 1:45pm. Ha! Cheers to everybody for all their support so far. It's nice to have random people stop by and read my ramblings...but one thing I don't get--is it possible to reply to comments without having to directly email the person back? I have an LJ blog that lets you comment within the blog, but this doesn't seem to have it. What gives?
Buying New Clothes SUCKS but hopefully not for long...
Okay, so in hopes that I'm actually getting skinnier--I'm hoping that eventually shopping won't be such a trauma. I needed a summer party outfit...and do you THINK it was easy? Hell naw.
The only upside was that I bought a size 14 pair of jeans. But as per usual, I'm taking it with a grain of salt, thinking that they are just sized smaller than they really are. I dunno. Maybe that's wrong thinking...but when I tried on the 16--they were MASSIVE.
I bought what I didn't want to. I bought what I call a "fat girl" shirt. it's flowy...it's long....it's a fat girl shirt. *sigh*
I know I have style...but it's so hard to put forth that style when the choices I have is so limited!
I just have to keep remembering days like these and think about how great it's going to feel when I can try on MANY MANY MANY different styles of clothing and the only problem is figuring out which one looks BEST rather that which one FITS.
Onward and Upwards! (or downwards...in terms of weight as the case may be)
I was told by substituting mayo with low fat cottage cheese in egg salad, you'd have the same taste. Skeptical, I tried it anyway. Dang nabbity, my sources were correct. 3 hard boiled eggs, 1/4 cup of low fat cottage cheese, salt and pepper. Good times. A 7 point, very filling lunch. Make it into 2 sandwiches with WW bread...9 points. No butter necessary. Yummmm.
