From Fat to Skinny

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  • Name: Kristal-100
  • City: Cincinnati
  • Region: Ohio
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 172.7cm
Start weight: 257.00lb
Current weight: 260.00lb
Goal weight: 135.00lb
Lost to date: -3.00lb
Remaining: 125.00lb

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Really Simple Syndication
07/18/2011 19:55

RESULTS & LACK OF ENERGY

I want to see results. I know that it may take some time but like a lot of others “I want to see them now, fast!” The problem I have been facing lately is lack of energy. I guess it could be my sleep habits lately mixed with stress. I haven’t been able to sleep until about 3 or 4 sometimes 5 in the morning and then I sleep until noon. I have tried to get back on track but it seems as though that’s not possible right now. It kind of makes me feel bad since my husband has pretty much been sleeping alone lately too.

Today I have another appointment with my trainer at the gym, but to be honest I just feel like going back to sleep because of exhaustion and not feeling very good. My stomach is killing me for some reason today. But I just have to remember “This too shall pass” and keep going. I hope that my energy levels increase soon though.

I am going to make sure that I eat and drink well before I go to the gym later so that I don’t make myself sick again!

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07/18/2011 08:56

PCOS

Having Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) not only makes it harder to lose weight but causes pain, unwanted hair growth, infertility and many other problems. The thing is one of the only ways to it under control is to lose weight.

It’s horrible to think that if you don’t get your weight under control, you may never have children but it’s even worse to think that even if you did get it under control you still may never be able to conceive. Yes, PCOS sucks but so does being obese-ly over weight.

Usually I wouldn’t share this, but today I’m going to. When you have PCOS you get unwanted hair growth. Well I have unwanted hair growth. I mean it’s not that bad and could definitely be worse but it’s still unwanted none the less. So I have to pluck the random hairs from my lip and sometimes even by my bellybutton. It’s very embarrassing and I am getting sick of the upkeep. But it’s just something I have to do.

So I am contemplating on going back on the Atkins diet because it’s what my doctor recommended and I lost 30 lbs on it one before. So I’m thinking about giving it another shot who knows it may be just what I need.

TODAYS QUOTE:

"All our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them."

~Walt Disney~

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07/16/2011 09:04

-ONE DAY AT A TIME-

I think I am doing pretty well so far I have been eating a lot of fruits and veggies, cutting portion sizes and drinking tons of water! It’s amazing how much different you feel when you actually drink the right amount of water! I have done tons of research and I learned that very few people drink enough daily. I never knew that you were supposed to divide your weight in half and drink that many ounces of water a day. So for me it has been a huge change, today I made sure that I got at least 130 ounces of water since I weigh 260 pounds! Oh and I haven’t drank anything other than water all week so I am very proud of myself!

I didn’t work out today or yesterday so I defiantly need to make sure I go to the gym in the morning. I have another appointment with my trainer on Monday. This time I will make sure I eat at least an hour before I go and drink tons of water because I don’t ever want to feel sick when I’m working out again. It really is a horrible feeling (nausea, feeling faint, heat and not being able to breathe). Yeah, I will avoid that any day.

Although I ate healthy today I feel like I ate too much. Probably because I made homemade chicken soup with veggies and noodles in it and it was so good that I ate two bowls of it. I also had a lot of snacks, but they were all fruits so I feel like it’s alright. But tomorrow is back to the small helpings again. I know what I’m having for lunch already, leftover chicken soup. Yumm! =)

Quote of the day:

“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore,
is not an act but a habit.”
-Aristotle

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07/14/2011 17:07

VISUALIZATION

You know how shopping for clothing is supposed to be fun? Well for me it’s depressing because I can never find clothes that I like that actually fit. Just walking through the “normal” sizes, makes me feel like crap because I know that not even the large will fit me in regular sizes, and not even the extra large. I have to go to the plus sized clothing section to find something that will fit, and let’s face it they just don’t make plus size clothing as cute as the “normal” clothing. I would be happy if I could just be able to wear a medium, but I want to be able to wear a small.

Sometimes I close my eyes and try to picture how I would look and feel if I was at my goal weight. It’s pretty exciting; it makes me feel beautiful, sexy and unstoppable. I have had dreams that I am at my goal weight and in my dreams I am so much more confident and happy. It’s like I see the girl I am on the inside visualized. Which is awesome because I have never saw her in real life before. It helps to motivate me big time!

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07/14/2011 07:00

=)

Another successful day! Other than feeling sick at the gym I think I was dehydrated or maybe it was like my trainer said lactic acid build up. Not real sure; but I know it really sucks when you are trying to work out and all of a sudden you feel faint and nauseous at the same time. Any who I just wanted to give an update so I can keep myself motivated. Lord knows how much it is helping me! So like Tigger says “TTFN Ta Ta for Now” I love Tigger!

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07/13/2011 20:21

LETTING GO!

There are more reasons than one that I want to lose this excess weight. However, what I’m about to tell you is one of my larger secret reasons. Some of you may think that I am about to share entirely too much info but to be honest I am writing this hoping that someone will relate. I have come to the realization that the more I hold onto all of my painful secrets the more damage I do to myself. So I have decided to let them go.

This is me letting go! I would like to take a moment to express that my husband and I love each other very much. My husband is a great guy, he not only loves me, he trusts me, he makes me laugh and I could go on and on  about how wonderful he is, but, I want to get to the point. My husband has never and I stress never made fun of me or even asked me if I would lose weight. He loves me how I am and I know it’s great to have him as a husband. But I do know that if I lost weight he would love it! I know sex is only one part of a relationship but, I am only sharing this one secret for now.

Most men love it when girls get on top and I know my man does too. However, I am 40 pounds heavier than I was when we got married. So now not only am I less confident but he avoids that position. To be honest it bothers me but I don’t blame him. I wouldn’t want to be crushed either. It really hurts knowing that I cannot give my husband something that he loves because of my weight. It just makes me feel unattractive. I know that I am pretty but I also know that my weight makes me less attractive.

So there it was one of my darkest secrets now on the internet for everyone and their momma to read. Which is kind of scary but I am done with hurting myself so I am letting go.

Now back to the positive and productive news, I am about to head out to my appointment at the gym. It’s time to go melt off some more weight!

=)

 

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07/12/2011 23:51

TODAYS SUCCESS

That’s right I’m back! Here goes; I did great today I drank a ton of water, ate healthy and worked out! Woohoo, it’s exciting to have a plan and be so determined and have so much willpower. So today I woke up knowing what I needed to do, go back to the gym. I didn’t dread it at all I was happy to be going because I knew that I was fallowing my plan to success. I worked out for about an hour and was sweating so bad you could see it rolling down my face and chest. I was so drenched in sweat ehh it was gross. However, it’s a great feeling knowing that you are literally working you butt off. =)

I want to take a moment to thank the few people who sent me personal messages; just know that you have helped me so much! It’s nice to have people in which I can relate to in more ways than one. So thank you all so much.

 

Just remember to “keep your eyes on the prize” and keep your hands off the cake! Lol, I like that saying it’s so funny!

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07/12/2011 18:20

RECOVERY

In my last entry I described how what I was doing was not working and that I had been struggling. Well below I have written out my goal and my plan to reach my goal. Now all I need to do is fallow my plan.

GOAL:

Lose 130 pounds and keep it off and get in shape and stay in shape

 

PLAN:

Get 50 minutes of exercise 5 times a week and stop emotional eating and eating because I am board. Drink more water in general and drink a glass of water before each meal. Stop over eating and only eat until I no longer feel real hunger. Not emotional hunger or boredom hunger. Since I have so much weight to lose I am only going to weigh myself once a month; to keep from getting discouraged early on. The most important part of this plan is to stick with it and not give up on it. I am sure I will have times of weakness but everyone does. It’s important to know that just because I may have a weakness I don’t have to give up for the day or for the week. It just means that I had a weakness and I need to keep working to make my dream a reality.

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07/12/2011 09:27

RELAPSE

 

Alright in one of my previous posts I made a few promises. So here goes…

 

CURRENT WEIGHT:

 260 Pounds

SELF DISCIPLINE:

I have learned that in order to be successful in anything you must have a written goal and you must come up with a written plan as to how you are going to achieve that goal and you must work hard to make that goal a reality. I have also learned that it does not matter where you are today or how you got where you are today. What matters is where you are going and how you are going to get there.

STRUGGLES:

Here I go again with some more bad news. I have a lot of bad habits that I need to break; like yesterday. The stress is getting to me and I find myself laying in bed all day in front of the television or sitting at my computer searching for random things. I need to come into contact with reality here; sitting around all day long is not helping me what so ever. Another issue is that I stay up all night due to lack of sleep and then sleep the day away. Then I am wide awake while everyone else is asleep and that’s when I start to feel “hungry”. I’m not sure if anyone can relate to this but; whenever I eat and people are around I feel like I am being stared at. Even if I haven’t eaten all day long I get the guilt feeling and start to beat myself up. It’s a horrible feeling I feeling knowing that you’re the fattest person in the room but it’s even worse when you feel like all eyes are on you and start to wonder if people are thinking that you shouldn’t be eating.

5 SMALL MEALS: 

To be one hundred percent truthful, I only tried the five small meals for about two days. To be quite honest I am very disappointed in myself for not sticking with it. I would like to try it again and stick with it.

ENCOURAGEMENT:

Although we have failed attempts to lose this weight in the past; today is a new day and anything is possible. The future has not yet been written so we can write whatever we want. Today I want to write out my goals and set up a game plan that will turn them into reality! Then I want to faithfully fallow that plan to success, because once again I know that I am worth it!

 

 

 

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07/02/2011 08:05

Overcoming challenges

To be completely honest I have not been doing so great with this weight loss so far. I haven’t worked out I have been eating whatever I want to eat and obviously I haven’t lost any weight yet. I knew that this entire process was going to be difficult and I was right. However I still refuse to give up! At this point in my life I am completely drowning in stress. My husband and I are over our heads in debt. We are currently living in my parent’s basement, I am also unemployed. I don’t have any skills so I am going to college in the fall.

 I would like to take a moment and say that I am very thankful that I have wonderful parents that are willing to help.  I am also thankful for my hard working husband I am very proud of him he just graduated college and always is a great provider. I also want to stress to anyone who may be reading this to NEVER get involved with payday loans; they will cause so much debt its unreal!

It seems that diet food is more expensive than junk food. When you’re on a budget that’s impossible to bust it’s hard to afford meals that are more expensive than what you’re used to. I’m not trying to make excuses for myself because there really isn’t any. I refuse to let stress get the best of me. I have to  do like Dory says and,“Just keep swimming… Just keep swimming”. So if anyone can give me some advice on affordable healthy meals I would greatly appreciate it.

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