07/23/2011 14:00
ho hum
I am beyond tired. Mentally and emotionally stressed to the max, anxiety so bad my stomach is in knots. Can't eat. can't sleep. the divorce should be final in 90 days it's bad. he's all nice in front of other people he even offered me candy, opened the door, and pulled out my chair at the lawyers office but the second it was over there he started in with his mind games. the girls at work are telling me to journal everything he keeps doing. i just want it to be over. he has no idea what he's done. i'm afraid i won't be able to survive on my own but then again i remember my faith and how strong i am and wonder what i am so worried about. i just want to make sure my kids are well provided for. sigh....