Do I really need that

the journey to a new me....

My Profile

  • Name: rayray
  • City: Apopka
  • Region: Florida
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 160.0cm
Start weight: 230.00lb
Current weight: 174.00lb
Goal weight: 145.00lb
Lost to date: 56.00lb
Remaining: 29.00lb

My Calendar

2
September '14
< September >
S M T W T F S
  1 2 3 4 5 6
7 8 9 10 11 12 13
14 15 16 17 18 19 20
21 22 23 24 25 26 27
28 29 30        

My Photos

Before After

My friends list

good days

Well today was probably one of the hardest and most trying days for me but you know what.... I made it!  We had a pot luck staff meeting at work, and all the ladies I work with know how to cook well, so smelling all the yummy foods and watching them eat was very difficult.  I had a salad with chicken on it, 3 baked chicken wings with out the skin, and my cheat was i had 3 crackers with a little cheese.  I wanted one of the brownies soooo bad!!!!!!  But when I hear everyone at working telling me how small I am looking and that they are proud of me, it was enough motivation to not eat that stuff.  After the first 20 min or so it didnt even bother me anymore.  I just satt and drank my water and talked.  We were all talking about how that damn job had made us gain so much weight.  Its all out of convience and eating what the kids eat.  I have seriously had to train myself and keep reminding myself that I dont need the junk food and that it is not worth it!!!!!!!  But for once in a long time I can say that I am proud of myself and I did well today!!  If i can make it thru that than I can make it thru anything!!!  Heres to more good days!

dammnit

Well this has been my first big moment of weakness and I let my emotional eating side come out.  I had an english muffin with cream cheese.  Work is just sucking so much today and I swear to God i am going to have a breakdown today!  Normally when i have a cheat i cheat the rest of the day, but im promising myself on here that I will stop with just the english muffing and stay on track the rest of the day.  Im not going to get into it about work, but I am over it and I have very little left in me to give here.  I need a transfer to residential, and i need it soon!!!

new motivation

Well I know that I have not been blogging and the past 2 weeks I have really been not being able to stay on plan.  But this week I have done pretty good so far.  Not only am I journaling on here but I am also writing in an actual journal and carrying it with me.  I have been on medifast since 5/10/06 and have lost a solid 16 pounds and wavier up and down from there.  The most that I have lost on the scale is 19.5.  My goal for this week is to stay on plan.  I have been able to thus far other than having a little extra protein.  I find the hardest parts of my days are when I am at work and the kids are eating, its these times that I keep my water with me and some sugar free jello.   One of the things that I am going to do when I start to get cravings is to either blog on here, write in my actual Journal or text my cousin.    Hopefully I can get myself back in the medizone~!!!! I have set myself a short term goal that I want to get to 205 by the end of July.  So here we go with new goal!!

new motivation

Well I know that I have not been blogging and the past 2 weeks I have really been not being able to stay on plan.  But this week I have done pretty good so far.  Not only am I journaling on here but I am also writing in an actual journal and carrying it with me.  I have been on medifast since 5/10/06 and have lost a solid 16 pounds and wavier up and down from there.  The most that I have lost on the scale is 19.5.  My goal for this week is to stay on plan.  I have been able to thus far other than having a little extra protein.  I find the hardest parts of my days are when I am at work and the kids are eating, its these times that I keep my water with me and some sugar free jello.   One of the things that I am going to do when I start to get cravings is to either blog on here, write in my actual Journal or text my cousin.    Hopefully I can get myself back in the medizone~!!!! I have set myself a short term goal that I want to get to 205 by the end of July.  So here we go with new goal!!

yay

OK so here is my weekly weigh in!

Start Weight: 230
Last week:  222.5
This week :  220
Loss last week: -2.5
Total loss: 10 pounds!!!

I was pleasently suprised!!!!! I could not believe it actually, i just felt like  i cheated and whatnot and that i was not gonna loose anything.  But i did start encorperating exercise this week, and will hopefully be able to add a little more to it this week!  I feel good tho, its so funny to put on clothes and to actually be able to button jeans with out sucking in.  I feel good and i feel like i have more energy.  My goal for this week is to take each day one at a time and to commit myself 100% to being healthy and changing my lifesyle to stay healthy.  

My biggest problem i feel is that when i am work.  We cook with the kids here at work and its like whenever they eat i feel the cravings to eat what they eat, do any of you all have any suggestions on what i could possibly do?

blah

I  know i have been really bad about posting and updating but i have been so busy at work.  the past 2 weeks have been difficult for me and i have cheated a lot but i just need to learn how to keep myself accountable,  Tomorrow i will update with how much i lost.  I hope i at least get down to 220, that would be a full 10 pounds in 3 weeks and then maybe that 4th week i can drop 5 pounds to bring me to 15 in one month.  Im hoping i get to work out tonight,  it will help a little, my cousin bailed on going walking with me this morning so im kinda upset about that.  If i could just not work i would be able to do this program with no problem, but i just wanna eat and eat at work,  thats where i cheat all the time.  But speaking of work, im off to go get ready for it and hopefully make it thru the day without a cheat!!!

today was tough

today was tough day for me.  I wanted to eat so much more food that i was supposed to.  It was my nephews birthday party and i absolutley love everything that they were having, cake lasagna and so much more.  but i only ate my chicken and salad, though i wanted much more.  as my cousin jokes "how did it smell?  not as good as a size 10" lol its a little motivator for us.  I weighed in, we decided to do it on sundays and not mondays, and im down 6 pounds, which im really suprised!  My goal for this week is to loose another 4 and bring me to an even 220.  I know i can do this but it is seriously so hard sumtimes. I hate the way that the medifast soups taste. though i like the oatmeal and everything else, i don't know if i can choke down that soup for that much longer lol... I know i can i just need some weight loss buddies to help keep me motivated.  well im going to get my clothes ready for the gym tomorrow! night

A fresh Start

Well i am finally taking the steps for me to become the person i want to be.  My mom, my cousin and myself all are doing Medifast.  This has seriously been one of the hardest weeks ever for me. I work with youth in an emergency shelter so we are always cooking for them and food shopping and its like Gah i want that!! but as my cousin keeps telling me, nothing tastes better than thin feels!!!!!  lol  shes on this thing too!  so here we go

 

my stats

starting weight: 230

short term goal: 215

Long term goal: 130 

my first weight in will be tomorrow so i will update with the results! 

Tracker