IN THE FAST LANE NOW!

Today was a day of blood tests, EKG, Muga heart scan and chest Xray....all before noon!   I get my infusion port tomorrow in same-day surgery.  It's a little rubber thing they insert in your chest so you can get chemo without damaging your veins.  It looks like a pacemaker from the outside.  Chemo is very caustic.  I get my first dose Friday.  I hope I don't have many side effects.   I tolerated it very well 15 years ago but it was a different kind.  

I was able to eat almost a whole hot roast beef sandwich today.  I've been eating a little more lately.   I'm almost afraid to get my eating ability back!   My mouth has always wanted the food my tummy couldn't hold!  Geeze.....I might have to start using the will power that I never had....oh no!

Have a good day everyone!

BALD IS BEAUTIFUL??

Guess I'll find out soon if bald is beautiful!  I do have the bad kind of cancer that the doc didn't want me to have....dang it!  I'll start chemo this week and I WILL lose my hair this time.   I also have to have a stem cell transplant at the cancer center in Tampa.   I'm glad the waiting is over and the treatment can begin.  The waiting is the worst part.

The doc said not to go to Curves right now.  I guess I'll just lose weight until this is over anyway.   Guess I'll take a nap before dinner.  Have a good evening all!

FINALLY! I HOPE!

My oncologist just called me herself and wants me to see her at 12:45 today.  I guess I'll finally know what I really have and what the treatments will be!  I'll be glad to get started so I'll be finished by May when we go to Canada for the summer.  Yes, I'm nervous but I made it through chemo before and I'll do it again!  Nothing can keep me from seeing my grandbabies grow up.

I'll post later when I know what's happeneing for sure!

MUCH BETTER DAY!

I feel normal today....whatever normal means!    I went and had my eye exam and ordered new glasses so now I'll be able to read blogs better.  They take two weeks because I get a non-reflective coating on them. 

I even ate one slice of a 6-inch pizza for lunch....go me!   Actually it wasn't as good as I thought it would be.  I had a half of a hamburger and a few home made fries tonight....all very nutritious of course!

My 6-year old grandson just called to let me know he got his highest score in Pogo Bowl online.....258!  He didn't have to tell me because I was in the room bowling against him.   He beats everyone in the room 90% of the time.

Hope everyone had a good Monday!  I'm going to go watch Dancing With The Stars.

12-HOUR BUG I GUESS.

It's 11 am and I just got out of bed.   Lazy bum!  Boy, did I feel lousy yesterday.  My tummy ached and I "got sick" three times before I felt better.  Too much info I know....lol.   I was in bed most of the day and went to bed early because I felt so weak.  I have no idea what what was wrong, but It feels SO good to feel good again.

I was 179.9 this morning but Thursday my doc yelled at me for losing weight so fast.  That's the first time that's ever happened....lol.   I told her I just can't eat and she told me to eat a little something every two hours and now hubby drives me nuts telling me to eat.   Ya just can't win!   It's up to the doc to make my spleen smaller so I can eat.    

Thanks again for everyone's thoughts, comments and prayers.

JUST WHAT I THOUGHT.

Sorry I didn't post my results yesterday. I do have cancer.        I just didn't even feel like going online.  Not because of getting the diagnosis....I knew in my heart what it was anyway, but my  stomach has been upset and I've spent most of today in bed.  I'm just waiting for one more test to see if it's leukemia or cancer of the lymph nodes so we'll know what kind of treatment to start.  

Thanks for everyone's concern.  I'll post more when I feel better.  

BIG DAY TOMORROW!

I see my oncologist tomorrow and I'm keeping my fingers crossed.  Being a nurse and reading all my reports I don't expect good news, but I'll just deal with whatever has to be done.

I went to a Red Hats meeting today and the ladies were so nice......but they seemed so OLD!    Yes, I'm old too....but my mind isn't....lol.  Most of their activities were playing cards and games.  I want to go out and DO things so I'm going to a different chapter with younger women.  Next week they're going to take a tour of one of our beautiful old hotels that was renovated and we're having lunch there.  I've always wanted to see what it's like now but the hotel is very expensive....to my budget anyway.....lol.    They're going on a cruise in April.....I'll have to talk hubby into letting me go on that!  Hopefully it'll be a better group than the first one I tried.

I'm going to take a sleeping pill so I can sleep tonight.  Wish me luck tomorrow and thanks to everyone for their thoughts and prayers.  

MAKING PLANS FOR NEXT SUMMER.

We picked up the new used truck today and it seems so big!  Of course the fifth wheel looks huge compared to our old trailer.  We should get that by the weekend because the guy has to move out of it.   I'm making plans for several little week-long camping trips when we're in Canada next year.  I want to camp near Niagra Falls and we want to go to Quebec City and Montreal.   When we get the trailer set up we'll test it out on a short camping trip.  I can't wait to add my personal touches to it.  I hope if I do have to have chemo it'll be finished by May when we go to Canada.

Yesterday was a down day for me mentally.  I don't know why it was so bad because today I feel much better.  Oh, well......s**t happens....lol.

I'm going to join the Red Hat Society and the hat I ordered online hasn't come yet.  I'm having to add purple flowers to a red baseball cap I have....lol.  Everyone looks silly anyway so I'll fit right in!  I think it'll be fun.

Hope everyone had a great day!   

STILL WAITING!

I called the doc's office again today and no results yet but they gave me an appointment for Thursday.  They said I should have made a follow-up appt when I had the procedure,  but I don't remember anyone telling me that....duh!   I know they won't give the results, goor or bad, over the phone.

I lost another pound because I just can't eat.  I'm getting close to the 170's....yaay!  

Not much else to write about so have a good night!

A BORING DAY.

Not much going on today.  I am actually bored.  I'm going to have to renew my CPR card on Wed so I can see if I can go back to work part time.  I'll have to do private duty one or two night shifts a week and see if I can handle it physically.

I did well with my eating today.  I usually snack a lot when I'm bored.  I didn't weigh myself today though because I feel fat and bloated......lol.

Hopefully I'll have my test results tomorrow or Tuesday.  If not.....I'll  go nuts!  Well, more nuts than I already am!