WILL I EVER FEEL NORMAL? :(

I've been in Canada for two weeks and it's rained every single day since I got here.  Besides that, I still can't eat, have trouble breathing, feel extrememly weak and tired and I'm depressed.  I thought I'd be normal three months after the transplant but boy was I wrong.  Hubby still does everything for me because I'm so weak.  I've lost 68 pounds since I got sick, not the way I wanted to do it.

Enough whining.....just wanted to let folks know I'm still alive and kicking, though barely.....lol.

Sandy

Hiya Sandy

I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling down in the dumps and crappy. I hear you on losing the weight in a way you wouldn't have chosen...

Anyway: I hope you can find some daily enjoyable things-- I don't know, if the sun comes out, get a few rays, maybe get a new bottle of perfume that you love or if you can make it to the mall: a makeover at a make up counter?

I am not sure of your immunity status, so all of this may be moot:
If you must be home-- maybe listen to some beautiful music you haven't heard for a while-- or have someone bake up some chocolate chip cookies, just for the aroma, it is so homey and can be comforting.

Hang in there and I really hope you feel much better soon.

Ugh!

I had just written this long comment and then the browser crashed.  I hate it when that happens!  Anyway, what I was saying was I am sorry to hear you've completely lost your appetite -- food has always been a pleasurable part of life, but that I'm glad for a few things ... first that you made it through all the chemotherapy, second that at least you're still well enough to keep up the blogging (!!), and finally that you have a wonderful hubby to take care of you and help you through this difficult time.  A lot to be happy for!  Wishing you all the best.

((BIG HUGS))

Hi Sandy

Long time no write!

I've read your blogs and am very happy that you've gotten thru the chemo and recovering. This whole procedure is very difficult and you have a wonderful family that loves you a lot!

You are an amazing person, the way you've written your blogs shows your  strength and spirit....and no you are not whining: D

I've really missed you.

Praying that you get your strength back. Keep in touch: D

lots of luv

M.

P.S.- I hope you did manage to get some sun while you were up here.