having one of those days..

Stressed...

Can somebody tell me how to get over my sugar addiction??

Sugar is like the teardrops on my guitar...what should I do to get rid of my sugar cravings???

Gah its like sugar pulls on my heartstrings!! haha ok not really but it always takes sooo good when I am tired and need an energy boost. So tonight at work I ate some sugar and some more and more ( I dont mean pure sugar but sweets) and now I am WIDE AWAKE when I should be sleeping. I did manage to walk for almost an hour today so I was happy about that! Hopefully I will do better tomorrow and eat less sugar! Anyone have any tips on how to get rid of sugar cravings or what to eat instead of sweets?

Back in the Saddle but its different now!

I dont know where to begin! So many things have changed in my life since I have blogged on here but I am happy that I found this website again. I have recently lost 12 pounds and I am going to reach my goal weight, with God's help by June 2009! So i guess I had an "aha" moment (or however you spell it) aound the second week in October that made me want to lose this weight once and for all. I had gone to get frozen yogurt with my mom (she didnt get any but I did) and I was stressed about school so it was pure emotional eating and one the way home my mom said "you know its ok to eat it, but you shouldnt have gotten the heathbar on top." This comment made me so angry that when I got home I threw away the ice cream. HOW WAS IT HER RIGHT TO CRITIQUE MY EATING HABITS?? i thought. and now im glad she said that because I realized how pathetic i was being by eating sugar to take my mind of my "problems" instead of just dealing with the cause of the stress! So i started to record everything I eat in a journal and do it everyday. I already filled up a whole notebook!
   Either a week or a day later she told me that we were going to new york this summer to visit my family! I was so happy to hear that, I decided I was going to lose weight and I never looked back. The last time I saw my family my brother was the "fat one" of the family and now he is really fit and so I WILL NOT be the "fat one" of the family this trip.
     I have already lost 12 pounds w/o denying myself food which was always part of my other "diet plans." This time its about: no emotional eating, exercising daily, drinking more water, and eating whatever i want in moderation. Also going to bed early and not eating late at night and getting 8 hours of sleep contributed to my weightloss.
     I can already see progress and so can my friends, they have commented about how my face looks thinner and that is encouraging. I am so thankful that God has helped me learn to not use food as a crutch but to lean on him for my strength. And i just know that this time I am going to lose the weight for good because I want to be healthier, and I am not doing it for anyone else or to fit  a certain dress size. I will hopefully get some progress pictures up here soon. May you all find the motivation you need to succeed!

Its coming off!

God has been healing me of my disordered eating (not eating disorder there is a difference!) and I am starting to see some shrinking. I havent weighed myself in over a month and i dont plan on doing so for at least another 2 weeks. But i know I have lost some weight because my clothing is loser especially one shirt in particular that was really tight on my chest and arms. (not anymore!)I have begun to limit how much ice cream i eat and have tried to just eat ice cream without the usual peanut butter, milk, and hardshell chocolate. Also another big one: switching to whole wheat, if its not whole wheat i  try to skip on the product (this is in reference to bread) also at work I started packing healthiful snacks so i do not eat the crap from the vending machine. God has really helped my self-esteem and I have also started exercising more routine again. Today I plan on getting out for a walk even though i am not feeling the best.

God Bless -emily

I burned my diary!

  Yea! I weighed myself  on Wednesday of this week (27th) I weigh 158 pounds without clothes and shoes ( which I normally weigh myself with) -but still! this is better than 165 which I was about a month ago.

  Ok I did not really burn my food journal but I decided to throw it out because  I figured I just need to eat healthy all the time and not have that journal as a constant reminder of my overconsumption of calorie. Instead my current food goals are to eat more fruits and vegetables and limit night sugar eating and of course continue exercising regularly.

     I know that losing weight without dieting takes time but I am not  just trying to watch how much food I eat to weigh less but also to be a healthier person and have a more toned body.

     Hopefully next time I post I will have lost some more weight or inches! I saw this quote somewhere and I love it "NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS" .

   Cheers to us for becoming healthier people!

Lost some!

     So I am beginning to weigh myself again after a month or two of denial and I weighed myself last week and I was 165 pounds and this week I was either 164 or 163 so I was glad about that. My problem currently is that I am just eating too much!!!! For example this morning I woke up and had tons of junk including ice cream and sugary cereal (around 1900 cals!!!!) and then i decided I was not going to eat the rest of the day so I went to work and had some frozen grapes which were so yummy! but when I came home I had a large dinner and a bunch of snacks (including 2 Nugo Bars=390 cals!) which equaled around 1739 cals! to total the day with 3636 cals!!!!!!!!!!!

     I need to limit my calorie intake I am almost tempted to quit exercising and just start starving myself. This is frustrating to me because not a day goes by that I do not look at myself in utter disgust usually 2 or 3 times a day I think about my weight.

   Ok, here is the good news, I worked out  5 days last week! And today! (I count Sunday as the first day of next week).

    Tomorrow I am going to start the day off good by eating a healthy breakfast and working out but I need the Lord's strength to do this. I have realized that I cannot do this on my own and it is so much easier to trust in God because he created me and he called me fearfully and wonderfully made -all of his creation is fearfully and wonderfully made. God bless everyone! Wishing myself and everyone else an awesome week!

happy...happier

  So this week I started excercising again like--intense cardio. I forgot how awesome it feels to work out--the endorphin rush is awesome!! I need to reign in my eating habits. Here is some of the food I had today after I came home from work at 9 pm (I shouldnt eat anything after 9:30 let alone a ton of calories! argh!!!).

    Food binge: ceasar salad (first problem should have sat down and eaten food not nibbled!!!) with chicken, 1/2 c brown rice, slice of ham, 1 1/2 nugo bars, 3 store-bought chocolate chip cookies, 2/3-1 cup milk and top ramen. PLUS: 2 reeses cups at work! 

   So yeah I was not happy about that because yesterday I did so good so what happened today!!?? Tomorrow I am happy because their is a possibility that I may have an interview at a gym --in the daycare (Good news for someone who wants to work out more! lol)

   I havent really written about this much but I want to say that God is awesome I am so glad that he is in my life---someone who I can always count  on. If you want to know about this wonderful God, check out the Bible I just started reading a teen version and i really enjoy it! or ask me if you have any questions. Seek after the Lord and He will guide your paths....

   Ok so I hope everyone is achieving their fitness goals but dont forget enjoy the journey--cherish every moment in your life

down....

      Yeah I havent been on here for awhile because I have been busy and also not doing too well. you know--eating too much and not exercising enough. I weighed myself on saturday dun dun dun...165!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah not happy about that!!!!!!!!!!! argh!  I was a little shocked but i did not weigh myself just when I got up without food and water in me so hopefully part of that weight was just fluctuating. Discouraged to say the least.

        Other things in my life are not going the best and I am praying that God will help me pull through. Its sometimes hard to stop binging like I have been doing the last few nights and eating too much sugar!!! This weightloss burden is really weighing me down (no pun intended:)), everyday I have been writing my goals down in a journal/food log and I feel like just throwing it out the window or burning it up and not counting my calories because I still keep eating a lot (like within the 2500 range!!!!!!!!!! ouch). Is it better to not keep track and try to feel less guilty or keep track and fail?? I really need some encouragement and motivation right now.  good night everyone, thanks for reading...sorry this post is so negative.