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  • Name: M and M
  • City: Sacramento
  • Region: California
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 165.1cm
Start weight: 175.00lb
Current weight: 164.80lb
Goal weight: 135.00lb
Lost to date: 10.20lb
Remaining: 29.80lb

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02/13/2009 09:28

this is me going crazy

 well i havent been on here since early jan and as you can probably guess, i  gained weight! :( i think i have gained all my weight back except for 5 pounds. but the good news is i rejoined my gym today after canceling my membership 4 months ago. and its even cheaper than what i was paying! $2 less:) (probably because of the economy) and no rejoin fee!! anyways i miss the gym and they have great classes that are free so i am going to do those too. i have been for the most part busy and happy so i havent focused on my weight too much but i look like crap most days and all of my clothes are too tight. i dont want to say that i have an eating disorder because that seems like self-fulfilling professy but i have a weird and unhealthy "relationship" with food. i rarely wait until i am hungry to eat and usually eat a ton of food! like today i had 6 kids clif bars! 3 before work, 3 after. (140 calories each). thats not good! i am  thinking i should take diet pills just to drop some weight quickly. idk so irritated, this seems like the one thing in my life i cant manage or get a grip on. its like i know exactly what i need to do lose weight but i havent been to motivated lately.

Anyways one of the reasons i am joining the gym again is to just be more productive with my time. i am hoping that by working out i will be more tired at night and as a result go to bed earlier and stop night time binging. i really want a change in my life ie. move out and or get a new job (i work with food! argh==temptation!). but i know that i need to get a handle on this food thing now, before i am married or have kids...sorry this is a long rant, i cant sleep and i just dont know what to do, just need to trust in God!

what do you all think i should do?..im thinking therapist, overeaters anonymous?? i would love to hear your thoughts:)

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01/16/2009 22:50

Turning those lemons into lemonade

Whew! i survived the first week of this semester, i was so tired which probably cause me to be emotional -way too emotional. Anyways, I am really trying to focus on getting my 30 minutes of exercise in a day and also not emotionally eat. I am so happy to be back in school because it makes my days feel so much more productive. On my last post I said I would give you all my measurements but unfortunately mostly i have gained an inch or two. The good news is that I am taking an exercise class 2 days a week on top of that I have been walking back and forth from school (2miles each way) and also on the days i have body conditioning class I ride my bike both ways as well= 2 days a week I am "commuting" four times to school = lots of cardio!

The reason why I am walking and biking to school now is because my car broke and I cant afford to buy a new one. But it is really teaching me time management! So like I had hoped things are going great, despite a crazy first week.

****Nothing tastes as good as thin feels****

ps i changed my motto because stefinity  was right, i had it all mixed up lol. Thanks girl! :) http://www.extrapounds.com/blog/sjcarpen/

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01/09/2009 02:01

Thank God for the sunshine!!

 So today has been much better than yesterday although I am tired. It was a beautiful day today and it was warm out so that coincided perfectly with my walk with my friend. It was good because we planned on walking today so it kind of forced me to get out of my ba humbug mood this morning. we walked for over an hour, and we are going walking tomorrow. Planning ahead is very helpful because it is going to force me to make sure i feel good in the morning( =go to bed on time tonight).

I think my down in the dumps attitude the last few days has been a result of not sleeping enough, burning the candle at both ends so to speak, which has also caused me to binge eat nightly and eat tons of sugar. So today I am counting calories and I plan on doing so for awhile at least till my next WI and continue tracking what I eat because the pounds have crept up but they are not here for long!! Thanks for all your support! I love reading all your blogs and also your comments to my post.

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01/08/2009 10:21

i dont know..

 whats wrong with me?? I have been binge eating like crazy the past week and i have had very little motivation to work out.

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01/06/2009 22:26

Feeling Ho Hum

 So my positiveness since the last post seems to have been zapped. I am realizing that i REALLY need to get a handle on my emotional eating! This morning I have probably had at least 1500 calories and I wasnt even hungry, not one bit, in fact this morning I woke up very tired and groggy because I went to bed at 3:30 am and and I ate wayyyy to much SUGAR and CARBS last night.

My morning started out fine, I hopped in the shower and decided to walk to my dentist appointment. As I left the house, the garage door wouldnt shut so I called my brother for help and he was no help. I canceled my dentist appointment and started to eat. Why? because my brother was so rude to me on the phone and I was just so frustrated. So I ate 2 eggs with cheese (too much), chicken, celery, garbanzo beans, a cup of grapes, a handful of dried prunes, too many truffels that I lost count. So basically I ate WAY TOO MUCH FOOD. I was able to stop my binge but only after I had caused a lot of damage too my diet. I ate probably 10? truffels (5 = 259 calories), not a low calorie food. So now I am still tired and slightly frustrated about the garage door situation and missing the dentist appt but more frustrated about how i emotionally ate and how ugly and fat I looked this morning in the mirror. Aunt Flo arrived so maybe thats why..idk but I am going to make this day better by going to bed at a decent hour and getting 30 minutes of exercise in.

Oh, one more thing, I have thought about joining a gym, a different gym than the last gym I was at, because it is cheaper, but I cant  really afford any gym right now. The cool thing is that my brother goes to the same gym so we could carpool together. Sorry this post is mainly venting.

****NOTHING FEELS AS GOOD AS THIN TASTES****

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01/05/2009 21:23

getting there

Hello EP buddies!! I havent been on for a few days because I have been busy, which is good for me, since I was getting a little depressed. So my new thing has been to walk places instead of drive and my goal is for it to take at least 30 minutes(sometimes I walk the long way in order to achieve this). Its great because I wear a watch when I walk so I make sure I get my 30 minutes of exercise in everyday.  This probably helped me lose .6 of a pound this week, even though I ate like a monster!! I gained some weight from the holidays but I am starting to get back down and I know that by the second week of school I should be around 162. Why? Because I am going to work at it!! My mantra for this year is SEE. The S-Stop Emotionally Eating, E-Exercise More, E-Eat less. I realized that when it comes to physical hunger I usually eat healthy; however, when its physiological hunger I eat REALLY BAD! So this year I am going to stop eating when food is not the solution. I eat when I am physically hungry. (talking in the present tense because the time to change is now!!!)

One thing I have thought about doing is learning how to crotchet so I can make little beanies for premi-babies (there is an organization that collects these) at night when I feel frustrated and want to dig into that bag of chocolate chips. Also using my time effectively will help me not feel hopeless. And I am going to get straight A's. Why? Because I am going to study! lol and make school a priority.

Even though the scale numbers are a little up I am not giving up! Oh the inches havent looked pretty either, I think I am going to do them every 3 weeks instead of once a month, so I can make changes sooner. I am probably going to do my official body measurements on Wednesday morning., but I dont think they are going to be lower, except I am going to watch what I eat the next few days, so I can see what that will do to my stomach. Also I have decided for the time being not to join WW but rather focus on not emotionally eating and because I can't really afford it right now.

We can do it!! Tomorrow begins today! One step at a time!

*****NOTHING FEELS AS GOOD AS THIN TASTES*****

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01/01/2009 21:57

New Life Resolutions

Happy New Year everyone!!! I am so happy that 2008 is over, except its kind of nostalgic for me since 2008 was the year I graduated from high school, so I will have a special fondness for this year.

I decided that my resolutions begin in this new year but they are meant to be life long changes. Things that I should do long after 2009 is over but I have a few specific things that I am hoping, planning, and wanting to happen in 2009.

So of course I will start off with the health goals:

1) Reach my goal weight of 135 by June 2009 for my trip to New York. This initially motivated me to lose weight because I am going to see family I havent seen in like 7 years and I want to look HOTT and its going to be summer and I want to have a "summer bod".

2) Put exercise first; there really is no better feeling that comes from a great workout!

3) Don't emotionally eat!! This is mainly how I gained the majority of my weight. Since freshmen year of highschool I gained 30 pounds!

3) A) Stop eating so much sugar!! Its only food.

4) Eat for my health, not for my energy or temporary "happiness". A bowl of ice cream = a chunk of fat!!

I have a few other nonhealth related changes I want to make as well.

1) I want to start volunteering again. Possibly with an elementary school reading program.

2) Get straight A's!!! This holds more water than it appears, because i failed my first and LAST class last semster. It was stupid, I didn't study, no excuse.

3) Care more about others, try to be more friendly, and reach out to people more. There is nothing that compares to the satisfaction that comes from knowing you are making a difference in the world.

My goals are short but multi-faceted and I know that I can do them all with God's help. I could be more specific like only eat 130 calories of sugar a day and drink 80 ounces of water, and exercise 30 minutes every day and weightlift 3 days a week, but I will feel like a failure if I screw up for one day if they are so strict. Life is meant to be ENJOYED! And it has curves and roadblocks and traffic jams but as long as I get to my destination than I will be happy. No matter what, I am not giving up!!! I will reach 135 by June 2009!!!!! One day of making a good choice provides the motivation to carry on to the next day.

I hope everyone has awesome year beginning today!! Enjoy Life!

****Nothing Feels As Good As Thin Tastes****

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12/31/2008 06:43

back in the game..

First I want to say thank you so much to all my fellow bloggers, your support rocks my socks!:) Its so encouraging to hear people going through the same thing I am going through and how you are overcoming their weight and food issues.

ok aside from the fact that i got like 3 hours of sleep yesterday (i actually went to bed at 9 am this morning) I am feeling good! Unfortunately I had  a little too much ice cream  but I walked for around 100 minutes today. Also I attempted to rejoin WW but it was closed. I was proud of the fact that I walked to the WW office instead of driving, I am trying to incoropate exercise into my life. So tomorrow I plan on actually joining , I will let you know how it goes.

P.S. I think I am out of 'the funk' I was in this past week being sick an all.Thank God!

****Nothing Feels As Good As Thin Tastes*****

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12/30/2008 14:25

wow

 its 5:30 in the morning and I did not even go to sleep!! yesterday was just a bad and creepy day and today is not much better. its so weird seeing my dad as he is going to work, he was telling me how i should be asleep and blah blah blah and its like i am an adult!!! duh its a stupid decision to stay up all night (and eat way to much sugar)  but i couldnt sleep!! really i could be doing worse things like doing drugs! why doesnt he appreciate the fact that I am responsible and not in rehab or something. i am sorry to vent, this blog has nothing to do with weightloss, but right now I feel trapped and I just need to get away. I think I should move out but of course there is the whole $$ dilemma. idk..... sorry to vent, i guess these past few days i have been in a funk. I am still thinking about joining WW, maybe i will go talk to them tomorrow err i mean today..Thank you , thank you, for all the support I get on ep, from my blogger friends, your comments and your posts are so encouraging! we can do it! one step at a time.

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12/29/2008 19:49

Today's Weigh In

Dec 29, 2008: 165.4 Last week's weigh in 162.2. Up 3.2 pounds. GULP!

Part of this I attribute to being sick the past week and not having as much energy to work out and not even working out at all yesterday. However, part of this excess weight has to do with my careles; I have been eating like crap for the past week, mainly eating WAY TOO MUCH SUGAR. So the good news is that I am refocus my plan because I feel I have reached a plateau in my weightloss.

It is ironic that in my last post I was thinking about joining WW again because I just got a free registeration card in the mail. And my mom told me she would go with me! Another sweet victory I had last night is that my mom (who is healthy, thin, and beautiful yet buys ice cream and pizza EVERY friday night) told me that she wants to make some changes as well since my dad recently learned he has borderline cholestrol. This is awesome!! Since she is the one who brings the sugar into the house (usually). We have a bunch of Christmas candy and I told her I wanted to throw it out and she said that we could give it to my dad's coworkers! This is crazi progress!! Another thing that she is willing to do is buy some fish, we are going shopping at Trader Joes today. Its great because I feel she is supporting me with my weightloss goals and plan to get healthier (even though it took my Dad's trip to the doctor to get her to this point).

So weigh in wasnt good today but I am not making excuses for it besides eating crap! This week I am going to get back on track and possibly join WW again and stick to it! I think it would be so cool to become a lifetime member. Having a higher number this week is a reality check for me, I know that eating all that junk WILL and DOES make the weight come back but I am not going to continue up that way!


*****Nothing Feels As Good As Thin Tastes*****

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