BREAKDOWN!
I truly believe that we never spend enough time taking care of ourselves. Nurturing ourselves, growing, and giving ourselves credit.
Yesterday was meltdown time...tick tick tick...BLEEEEPPPPP (key the explosion)!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$
O.K. sooo all day was not so bad, typical Monday, hard to start, then cranked along as usual. By the time I got home, I was happy.
But then... a tiny set back, my shoes have now caused a bruise on my right heel, and they are not designed for walking or jogging, ....(They are Pink Puma's) only for wearing..go figure.
Anyway...that wasn't really a big deal...but for some reason as the evening progressed...I started to get teary eyed...and feeling really down.
Then the evening ended with tears, scrunched up face and a frustrated husband who couldn't really help.
I have this big problem, not ever letting people into my life. A concrete barrier is around me at all times. I find it difficult to identify with most women in my same age group.
I dont like to cook..., I am very ambitious, I like footbal, UFC...
but I am also girly, I like fashion, designing, makeup etc.
I hate the idea of domestic period.
At work, I am a Tiger, that everybody thinks is a lamb.
My new job is a filler while i decide what path to take .
Poor me sob sob...
O.K. one tear is enough..!!
THANK GOD For everything I have...
wonder if anyone else is suffering at their job?
or wondering what life purpose to pursue?
ltr