JIGGLE IT just a little bit

There have been a few payoffs, not much change in weight yet but I  know that inches and weight come off at different times. Right now, a couple of people I havent seen in a while noticed a change which is more important then just the weight.

I have lost weight, and had not a lot of visable changes for some time. I know when I get to the lower weights its gonna be a hard rain falling.

HELLO to everyone just starting. It is so refreshing to start something new...anytime at all.

I am going to start a life coaching/business coaching course/s, as well as a lot of other certificates and more..for my own consulting business. Take control of my own life..

If anyone needs someone to talk to, that will just listen or needs some advice (the non-wimpy but caring kind) feel free.

HOPE YOU LIVE EVERYDAY TO THE FULLEST!!

ltr

fat paris

Easy to scream when your bleeding.......

Hey all..

Long time no blog...

Didn't make my last months goal, but guess what!? that is totally fine. It is a new month and a fresh start trying something new.  Looking foward to making this one count.

Sometimes I feel like i have nothing intersting to say! so that is my update.

HOWEVER... I will pass on this link for a song that is really moving. Now I know it might not be the taste of song, but I love the way they put passion in their songs and Jacob is Insane for sure.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?V=mit1jG1JSLI

JUST ANOTHER SATURDAY..

peace pls

fat paris.

p.s. just in case you are wondering, I am not a big paris fan, just like the name..

ltr

Music is PASSION!!!

Music gets me through it....everything.

For every moment there is a song, and for every song a moment ..

There is the moment you listen to a song really well for the first time, and here they lyrics, appreciating every bit of the writers intention.

A moment when nostalgia hits because you hear something that reminds you of your past.

My tune has changed a lot over the years. I hope it is my greatest masterpeice ever.

Closer to my dreams...

leaving all my fears to burn...

Push them all away so I can move on...closer to my dreams.

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fat paris.

Do it now cuz tommorow aint promised today!!

My favourite line from Ludacris.

Sitting here, after a great workout.

I made  a new commitment to myself. To stay focused only on this one goal. Not let my mind wander. I know I have made this promise before.

Something I learned from a very successful business man.

Once you write something down, look at that goal everyday. Look in the mirror and repeat the goal to yourself each and every day. Be SPECIFIC about your goal.

One day you will wake up and your goal will come true.

I believe this. I have tried it and it worked..

HERE I GO!! Wish me luck.

P>S> I am kinda pissed off that I wasted my 20's as a fat girl. What the hell was I thinking. I can never get those years back. Now I am in my thirties and everyone seems to think that it ancient.!! can you believe that ?? Maybe in the 1500's...lol

O.K. here it goes I am going to write it down...and keep it for my daily review.
CHEERS>.

BREAKDOWN!

I truly believe that we never spend enough time taking care of ourselves. Nurturing ourselves, growing, and giving ourselves credit.

Yesterday was meltdown time...tick tick tick...BLEEEEPPPPP (key the explosion)!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$!@#$

O.K. sooo all day was not so bad, typical Monday, hard to start, then cranked along as usual. By the time I got home, I was happy.

But then... a tiny set back, my shoes have now caused a bruise on my right heel, and they are not designed for walking or jogging, ....(They are Pink Puma's) only for wearing..go figure.

Anyway...that wasn't really a big deal...but for some reason as the evening progressed...I started to get teary eyed...and feeling really down.

Then the evening ended with tears, scrunched up face and a frustrated husband who couldn't really help.

I have this big problem, not ever letting people into my life. A concrete barrier is around me at all times. I find it difficult to identify with most women in my same age group.

I dont like to cook..., I am very ambitious, I like footbal, UFC...

but I am also girly, I like fashion, designing, makeup etc.

I hate the idea of domestic period.

At work, I am a Tiger, that everybody thinks is a lamb.
My new job is a filler while i decide what path to take .

Poor me sob sob...

O.K. one tear is enough..!!

THANK GOD For everything I have...

wonder if anyone else is suffering at their job?

or wondering what life purpose to pursue?

ltr

Small but great Achievements

GOOD MORNING, monday...good ol monday morning...

thank goodness for COFFEE!!

So, we went to see Pans Labrynth, was definately not what we were expecting, but very well done.

My small achievement, I did not eat any popcorn or candy and drank my diet pepsi, as well as chewed some gum.

My reward 1.5 glasses of wine. and no more food for the night.

I am happy I didn't give in... Our house can sometimes have foods I am weak for...like Stone Bread, Turkish delight, and other treats like rice that has been made crunchy and oily.. ...yumm...

Truthfully, keeping my diet a bit on the plain side works much better for me. I feel full, and don't have the desire to keep filling my pie hole....

I am steady, I'm a rock, I'm a goddess...Hey I am a Rock Goddess!...Only in my dreams..

THANKS everyone who left a comment, it gets kinda boring when nobody says anything for a while... Also posted a new picture of myself from a couple of months ago. My citizenship picture is kinda funny..I think the border people won't recognize me by this summer. Especially if i get extensions in my hair..LOL :>)

ltr...and good luck to all curvalicious girls...

Sexy? Fat? What?

O.k. not sure why I wrote that title, the wagon I fell off of is so far off in the distance, I can't even see the bumper.

Wondering, if I can ever get over the midnight munchies....

Wondering, if I will ever look cute this summer in summer clothes.?

Wondering, if my skin will get too old too fast?

Wondering, if my life will become interesting enough to not be interested in the tabloids, and famous people. (Not a chance)

Wondering, if I can find something nice to wear this Sunday to look 20 pounds thinner.

Wondering, if anyone will post a comment.

I am sexy, I am fat, so what?

Our examples

What kind of examples do we set for the world?

Watching Beauty and the Geek last night. (don't laugh I think that show is very intellectually insiring! :>)

I noticed something, forgotten for a long time about cliques in school. Yuck, I do remember them but this air brained show reminded me. It is really weird how these girls that seemingly have it all, choose to isolate others, and choose to create groups that will shut out certain people. However, I also noticed that there is the counter to these girls. Other girls that are acting just as bitchy, then hiding behind the alpha girls behaviour. Again, I am on a roll.

The point is, that beauty and esthetics are so important in this society, we are all in this society in this day and age. So what to do ?

Go to extrapounds.com, lose weight, get beautiful then go out in the world and actually have a life.....??

ltr.

fat paris

Be a Champion!

Today is the big heart day. My husband was cool and reserved a spot at a place I have been wanting to eat at for a long time. However, I had to tell him to cancel it....I cannot be tempted this early on in the game. I mean they have such amazing food and drinks. Seriously decadent.

Wine to me is something I cannot describe. It is vibrant, and makes me smile the minute it hits my lips. The flavour, the richness. Mmmmm

SOO looks like a movie and diet pop for heart day....I am appreciating the fact that I have the option to choose one or the other..

Eventhough, My husband doesnt read this because i find it a bit akward. I want to put the energy out there, I appreciate his thoughtfulness, and him trying to plan things and suprise me. I feel terrible that I had to tell him to reverse the reserverations, but I know in the end it is worth it, and that is what it takes to be a champion.!!

Hope all Valentines are beautiful today...

looking forward to hearing..other stories..

fat paris

Hello Time Bomb

Tick tick tick...

I am changing so much. Each day I feel like a different person. I am thankful for that. More grateful, more at peace and more aware of myself and my body. I am sure there are even greater things to come.

CALIFORNIA!! here I come. Last year went there. Guess what! I got a huge STYE on my eye! what the!! it was so bad we had to cut our trip short, I had to go to the emergency room to have it drained. it was a stye/chalazion. What a crazy thing. I am sure it was the evil eye of jealousy!! lol

Anyway. I can't wait to go back , I really love it there.

california dreamin big time.

Luv fat paris